Disclaimer: I hold no claim to either J.R.R. Tolkiens creations (Elrond, Elros, Gil-Galad, the Valar and Valaria) or to Puddle of Mudd and their song Blurry.
Everything's so blurry
Elrond's eyes were blurred, as a solitary tear streaked down his fair, young face. This lone tear was followed by others, and there was soon a stream flowing freely from both eyes.
And everyone's so fake
This was not as it should be. Elros was not a man, he was an elf like Elrond. How could he not be?
And everybody's empty
The Valar in the tent before them seemed heartless, cold, as their herald Eonwe read back Elros' decision.
And everything is so messed up
Elrond felt his breath catch as he sobbed lightly, and struggled to keep his hand from wiping the salty tears from his face.
Pre-occupied without you
His mind raced, thinking of all the memories of himself and his older brother, as they grew under Gil-Galad's care on Balar.
I cannot live at all
Elrond felt his breath catch again, and he couldn't stifle the sob that came, nor the next one, and he stopped trying.
My whole world surrounds you
Elrond and Elros had been together since birth, and Elrond could feel his knees give way at the thought of their inevitable separation.
I stumble then I crawl
His legs gave out, and Elrond found himself on all fours in the ornate war tent of the Valar. His breath came in chokes, and he could not hold back the tears that fell from his face to the ground.
You could be my someone
As the sentence took effect, Elrond felt as if his heart had been torn open and a vital part ripped from it.
You could be my scene
His entire life flashed before his eyes, and he was hard pressed to find a scene where Elros was absent.
You know that I'll protect you
Elrond had always been at Elros' side, helping to keep him out of trouble when his plans fell apart.
from all of the obscene
Elros and Elrond had been sheltered by Gil-Galad, and Elrond had never, ever felt pain such as this.
I wonder what you're doing
Why would Elros choose to abandon his younger brother, his twin, to be mortal and die as all men did?
Imagine where you are
Elrond could see images of a land not forged, a large island where Elros would be King. Eonwe had mentioned it earlier, as if it was a reward for abandoning his brother.
There's oceans in between us
It was an island. There would be no contact between the brothers. Elros was lost to Elrond forever, and nothing could now change that.
But that's not very far
Still, a thread of their bond remained in his heart. Elrond clung to that thread as his awareness fell into oblivion.
Can you take it all away?
Elrond woke in a brightly lit side-chamber of the giant tent, but it was as if he was not even there.
Can you take it all away?
His mind floated above his body, and he found it was mingled with that of two others. Two immensely powerful beings, Valar he could guess.
When you shoved it in my face
His thoughts floated back to earlier. Elrond had not known of his brother's choice. He would have tried to stop him if he could have.
This pain you gave to me
The link that bound the elven twins was severely wounded, as Elros was no longer an elf.
Can you take it all away?
No longer an elf. His brother had been taken from his race.
Can you take it all away?
There would be no more contact between them. So young, they were, so many millennia they would have had together, gone.
When you shoved it in my face
So abrupt, no warning. No preparation. Elrond could not have seen this coming. It wouldn't have hurt as bad if he had.
This pain you gave to me
His final thoughts of consciousness were focused on blaming Eonwe for his brother's choice.
Everyone is changing
Elros would no longer be an elf. He was not immortal. These thoughts awoke Elrond with a start, sweat dropping from his forehead.
There's no-one left that's real
The two other beings in the room were transparent, as if they were not there at all. Valar. One was sobbing, and Elrond heard the other softly singing to him.
So make up your own ending
Elrond felt his voice raise in to join the soft tunes of the Valaria, and tears flowed again from his eyes as the verse was laid out.
And let me know just how you feel
Pain was all Elrond felt now, hurt by his brother's choice. There was no going back, and Elrond knew that.
'Cause I am lost without you
Elrond suddenly sat up, searching the small area for his twin. He was not there. Elrond had to find him, to tell him how he felt.
I cannot live at all
The dark-haired elf's voice caught as he swung his legs over the cot and stood shakily. The singing in the room stopped and he felt sudden tension.
My whole world surrounds you
Elrond was now an elf consumed. He had to find his brother, and not a single Valar or Valaria would stop him.
I stumble then I crawl
His knees gave out on him, and he found himself again on the floor. He had failed, and his brother was now lost.
You could be my someone
Elrond felt strong, soft arms beneath him, lifting his fallen body back onto the cot.
You could be my scene
He was exhausted, and the only thing that came of his struggles to rise again was a pain in his heart.
You know that I will save you
Elrond should have saved him. He could have stopped his brother. Alas, Elros will die now, of old age.
From all of the unclean
An elf dying of old age. It seemed almost ironic to Elrond, though he knew of his ancestor Luthien's plight.
I wonder what you're doing
Elros could not have been thinking clearly. Who would throw their life away while they may live for thousands of years?
I wonder where you are
His mind could not have been in his head when he made his choice. Elros wouldn't have abandoned Elrond. He hadn't done so once in his entire life, why would he now?
There's oceans in between us
Oceans and weeks between them now. Elrond was not a sailor, and Elros would not come and visit. It would pain them both too much.
But that's not very far
Still the link remained, and Elrond clung to the thread that was left with all of his heart.
Can you take it all away?
For the next week, Elrond recovered in the small chamber of the tent of the Valar, watched over by the Weeper and the Singer.
Can you take it all away?
These two worked tirelessly to strengthen the bond in Elrond's heart, although it was to no avail. They finally made a difficult choice.
When you shoved it in my face
The bond would need to be cut completely if the elf was to survive.
This pain you gave to me
A new being entered, and the Doomsman began his work of severing Elrond's link to his twin.
Can you take it all away?
He worked long and hard, desperately trying to find a way to keep the twins connected even as he cut the bond.
Can you take it all away?
He found it after two day's work, and he tied the remains of their bond deeper into Elrond's fea.
When you shoved it in my face
The two of them would be connected until the end of Elros' days, although Elros would not know it.
This pain you gave to me
Elrond, however, would have a hole in his heart that would never heal upon the day of his twin's death.
Oooooooohhhh
Elrond woke with a start, and immediately searched for the bond he had held on to throughout his slumber. He found it deeper in himself than he remembered, and was glad to feel it strengthened by its closeness to his heart.
Nobody told me what you thought
Elros was not one to keep secrets. He would have told someone of his choice before that fateful day. Naught had been said to Elrond though, and the younger twin found that unfair.
Nobody told me what to say
He remembered the way his breath caught in the tent that day, and his forgotten attempt to utter his brother's name, to ask him why.
Everyone showed you where to turn
It seemed everyone was backing Elros in his decision, not telling him how foolish becoming a man truly was.
Told you where to runaway
It seemed almost that Elros was running from Elrond, from the immortal life granted by their parents.
Nobody told you where to hide
No, Elros had found his own place, not needing the help of others to escape his brother. But why?
Nobody told you what to say
Elros had come up with his own answer to Eonwe's question. He chose a mortal life.
Everyone showed you where to turn
Many had likely told him what they thought, and Elros had come to the decision to throw his life away with help.
Showed you where to runaway
No, not running. Accepting his own fate. Accepting his fate, as Elrond would have to.
Can you take it all away?
Elrond did not want to accept a fate where he could not be near his brother.
Can you take it all away?
He simply would not!
When you shoved it in my face
Nobody could make him, not even the Valar.
This pain you gave to me
His head hurt with the thought, and he heard a voice soothing him.
Can you take it all away?
The voice spoke beautifully, and Elrond tried to shut it out.
Can you take it all away?
It repeated only 3 words, and it wove them into a beautiful song like the one he had joined days ago in the Valarias care.
When you shoved it in my face
These three words went against everything Elrond stood for, and yet, he felt compelled to listen to them. Finnally, he gave in, and agreed with them.
This pain you gave to me
"Let him go."
This pain you gave to me
Elrond now stood upon the docks of Mithlond, watching his brother's ship sail away.
You take it all
He wished he could stop the ship, bring his brother back for one last lunch together, one last hunt in the woods, but he could not.
Take it all away
He knew he couldn't, and that only made their separation harder.
This pain you gave to me
They had decided never again to speak, to make a clean break from one another.
You take it all away
There would be too much pain any other way, and both would have faded.
This pain you gave to me
Elrond's heart ached with the thought, and he turned his attention to the quickly fading ship.
Take it all away
Elros sailed away, never to be seen by Elrond's eyes again.
This pain you gave
Elrond turned now, and retreated from the dock, and found love in the embrace of Gil-Galad.
This pain you gave
The tears came again, wetting his face and his foster-father's cloak.
Elrond is one of my favorite elves, and Blurry is one of my favorite songs. I felt like I had to combine the two, and here's the finished product. This is my first fic, so be gentle! I'll add a chapter 2 for response to reviews later on