Finding What You Never Had

When Lizzie loses something important in her life it will take all her strength to recover something she never knew she had. She falls in love many times along the way. Has L/G

It seems I forgot my disclaimer. So I do not own Lizzie and Gordo... or anything you recognize. I only own the personalities and the OC's. Thanks

Chapter 3: The Funeral

Lizzie woke up scared. At first she didn't realize where she was. After a few minutes though, She regained her senses and remembered she was at Miranda's.

She slowly got out of bed. She wondered what time it was and made a mental note to put her clock up.

She didn't want to go down stairs yet. She would feel funny if Miranda wasn't up yet.

After unpacking some of her things, (i.e. clock), she started downstairs. Lizzie had forgotten that Miranda's older brother Adam had come home from college for graduation.

She was reminded when she walked down stairs.

Adam was 23, 6'3", trim with hazel eyes. Most girls adored him. However he hardly gave them the time of day. He was crowned, Mr. Hard to get at school.

As Lizzie walked into the living room she saw Adam sitting on the couch, watching TV. He had no shirt on.

Damn! Thought Lizzie, He looks better every time I see him!

Lizzie walked in and sat on the chair beside the couch.

"Hid Adam." Lizzie smiled at him.

Adam looked up and smiled. He had always liked Lizzie

Lizzie looked particularly cute. Her hair was in a loose bun and a little disheveled from sleeping. She had clear gloss on her lips and was wearing pajama pants that had bears on them and said beary sleepy. They were cute!

"Hey Lizzie." His smile disappeared, as he turned serious.

"I am really sorry about your family. You know that I have always loved you guys."

Lizzie gave him a half smile and muttered, "Thanks."

Lizzie hoped that would end the subject but Adam kept going.

"I'm going to the funeral. I wish they knew the bastard that hit them! No one should get away with that! Its murder! Its..." He stopped as he noticed the tears in her eyes.

He went over to her to comfort her. He pulled her up to hug her.

"I'm so sorry Lizzie. I didn't mean to hurt you."

He wiped the tears from her cheeks and looked into her eyes. She looked so helpless and alone. He bent down to kiss her.

Lizzie was taken aback. But she didn't end the kiss. She was glad she wasn't alone.

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Later that day you could find Lizzie and Miranda in Lizzie's new room, in a pile of clothes

"Miranda, how do I choose? I don't know what to wear. My parents hated black. They thought it depressing!" Lizzie whined at her best friend.

"Lizzie you don't have to wear black! Wear that dark blue dress your mother bought you!"

Miranda was talking about the dress Lizzie had gotten for Christmas. It was dark blue and spaghetti strapped. It was tight at the top but flared slightly out towards the bottom. It was not, in Lizzie's opinion, something you would wear to a funeral.

"Miranda, that's hardly suitable for... for..." Lizzie couldn't say funeral. Her eyes had already gone red and puffy.

Miranda walked over to Lizzie.

"Lizzie, your mom thought you looked beautiful in that dress, so did your dad. So wear it for them. Nobody else. Only them."

Lizzie nodded. It made sense. She slowly put on the dress and matching shoes. She looked like she was going to a dinner party. Not a funeral. She had her hair in a simple twist and the only makeup she wore was gloss.

Five minutes later Adam appeared and told the girls that it was time to go.

Lizzie took the poem she wrote and stuck it in her purse. She headed out.

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The funeral had a huge turnout. Lizzie, Miranda, Gordo, Adam, Mr. and Mrs. Sanchez and Mr. and Mrs. Gordon sat in the first row. There were two big caskets and one smaller one. All were closed with the respective pictures beside them. Lizzie was first to speak after the minister.

"I have always loved my family very much. My mom, my dad, and Matt. Matt and I always fought. When my parents brought him home I tried to sell him. And when that didn't work I offered whoever came to the house $5.00 to take him home." (A few people laughed.) "As years went by, things got worse. Matt learned to walk. I hated it. At that point I saw no advantages in having a little brother and was furious at my parents for having one. I guess what I'm trying to say is you really don't know what you have until its gone. I realize now that I had a loving and caring brother who looked up to me all these years. I am realizing it too late. I always loved Matt. I just had a funny way of showing it."

Lizzie sighed before she continued.

"My parents and I always got along. Hardly any fights. I needed my Mom like I needed oxygen. She was my best friend, my whole family was my support group and now their gone. I have no support group. I wrote this poem called "If tears could build a stairway."

If tears could build a stairway, and memories a lane. I would walk right up to Heaven and bring you home again. No farewell words were spoken, no time to say goodbye. You were gone before I knew it and only God knows why. My heart still aches in sadness and secret tears still flow. What it meant to lose you- no one can ever know. But I know you want me, to mourn for you any more. To remember all the happy times, life still ahs much in store. Since you'll never be forgotten, I pledge to you today- - A hallowed place with in my heart is where you'll always stay.

I love you!" Lizzie ran down and left the church crying.

Adam stood up to go after her.

What is he doing? Gordo wondered as he glared at Adam. I should be the one going after her.

As Adam reached Lizzie he tried to think of something to say. He was at a loss for words. So instead he held his hand out to her.

She took it and they started to walk.

Lizzie started to talk. "I know after a while this pain will ease. But right now, all I'm feeling is a sharp pain, in my heart. And it feels like it will never go away!"

Lizzie looked up at him and he realized that she needed comfort. He searched for the right words.

"Lizzie. I know overtime your pain will subside. But maybe right now its there as a reminder, so you wont forget everything so quickly. And when your pain does go away. You will always remember it." He looked down at her to see if he was making any sense.

She looked up at him with understanding.

He thought a bit and added, "I'm also adopted."

Lizzie looked at him in shock. How did he know?

Adam held her gaze and continued. "I overheard our parents talking one day. Your mom and mine."

He bend down and kissed her for the second time that day. And for the second time, Lizzie kissed him back.

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Later that day Lizzie had to go to the reading of the will. Miranda's parents were going as well. For moral support and to make sure Lizzie understood everything.

The reading was to be held at her parent's attorney's office. Mr. Casteel had always been the family attorney. As soon as Lizzie got there everything started.

Mr. Casteel began everything. "I am not going to read the entire will tonight. I will only read the parts concerning Elizabeth. As she is a minor."

He turned to her. "Upon your parents death they left everything between Mathew and you. It was exactly split. As your brother has also passed everything goes to you. You have inherited the property and all your parents' worldly possessions. It states that all money shall go into a trust and you shall collect installments. The first at 18, the second at 21 and the third at 25. It is my professional opinion that most of the money you collect be put in investments and stocks."

"Mr. Casteel, How much money is there?" Lizzie had never thought of them as rich. They had lived in the same house all her life. She knew that there was enough to get by and then some. But nothing prepared her for what he said next.

"The total value comes to around 7 million, Elizabeth."

Lizzie turned white. "That's impossible! We never had that much!" Lizzie stammered.

"It seems you did Ms. McGuire. And you collect your first installment in 16 days." Mr. Casteel gathered papers together.

"The bank will be giving you a call around then. You will have to fill out some forms. Call me about the investments. I was your parents lawyer and would like to continue as yours." He smiled for the first time all night and gave Lizzie his card. He shook all their hands and said goodnight.

He was gone and Lizzie was left with 7 million dollars.

A/N Hey everyone! I hope you like my story so far! I would like some more reviews! Please! I should set a limit lol! Like 5 reviews and you get another chapter tomorrow! Yes that's it! If I get 5... I will get the next chapter out by tomorrow! So please! Review! I love constructive stuff! Thanks! Mandy