I don't want Seto to think I'm doing this to get his attention. Because I'm not. I'm doing it because I want to do it. It's not his fault or anything, it's just that, I can't even explain it. Hew been gone for two weeks now. I miss him, I miss my brother. I whish he could come home and totally leave my father in Paris. Leave him somewhere. If he were in Paris, I would see him when I went to Paris, and it would ruin the city for me. So maybe he could leave my father in like, Dublin. It sucks there. And the women are ugly. The women in Paris are beautiful. I miss my brother. Damn it Mokuba, don't cry. You can't cry. I want my brother to come back. I'll never do it if he would just come back. It might as well be forever, it might as well be never.
Razor blade. So shiny, like a Blue Eyes. Just as deadly. No, I can't do it. I threw it across the room. I hate myself. No, don't cry Mokuba, damn it don't cry! You can't cry. You have to wait for Seto. I hate my self, I hate my father. I hate it all. I want to die. My room, so cool. I love my room. I love that picture of Seto. It looks so natural, so, it's the side of him that I see all the time, that no one ever dose. I love it. I love my brother. Where is he when I need him?
"Seto." Who am I talking to? He's not here. I ran out of my room, down the hall. "SETO!" Where am I running? What am I doing? "SETO! BIG BROTHER! I NEED YOU NOW! WHARE ARE YOU?" My tears taste bad. They taste salty. I hate the taste. "SETO I'M SORRY! I'M SORRY I'M CRAZY, I'M SORRY SETO! PLEASE, I NEED YOU SETO PLEASE!" I want to die. More than ever before. You just don't understand. Lying here, in a ball on the floor of the hall, I need him, and he's a world away. I need him, so bad right now. "Seto."
"What are you doing?" Seto.
"SETO!" He's so tall, if I'm lucky I'll be as tall as he is one day. I'm so short now, not really short, just I don't know, not tall. But Seto, He's so tall.
"What's wrong now Mokuba?"
"Never leave me again, I need you to be here for me, promise you'll never leave me ever again." Me tears soaked his shirt. "Never Seto. I need you. With out you I'm dead. Never Never."
"Mokuba." He was gone. I feel to my knees.
"No. Come back. SETO!"
I hate this smell. Like a hospital, but different. My eyes feel like they weight a ton, I fight to open them, but I can't. I can't do it. I tried to speak, nothing.
"Save your energy." It's Seto. I tried so hard to speak, to whisper his name, nothing. He hushed me. "Mokuba, I'm sorry I left you alone for so long. I'll never forgive myself." What happened to me? What happened? "I love you Mokuba, I just want you to know that, I'll never…" He's crying. He's balling. Why? He's loosing it. He's loosing it because I lost it. I knew I did, somehow. I'm not sure how. "I don't know what to do. I don't want to leave you here, I've lost you before, and I don't want to loose you again. But your life is in danger, and I don't know what to do." I want to open my eyes so bad. But I cant. I want to cry. I love you Seto. He's holding my hand, I summon every ounce of strength and squeezed it. "Mokuba, I'm so afraid."