Disclaimer: Not mine, never has been and never will be.
Fade to Black
Sara
I'm afraid.
Not so much of this situation, but more of what Nick will think when he hears what I said. My words must have reached the press by now and if I didn't lose him this morning, I must have lost him now.
He has been so patient, annoyingly patient and this morning when I found myself stuck in an irrational thinking pattern I just couldn't cope with Nick being Nick.
I wanted to hurt him. I wanted him to say the words I drove him to say eventually, but when he said them they hurt so much more than I could have imagined.
"I'm not sure if you just don't want this baby, or that you just want to get rid of me as well."
I realize that my words must have hurt him just as much.
"Maybe that's just it maybe I just don't want you or your baby. Tell me Nick, do you want me?"
Silence.
"Oh Sara."
"Just don't."
My cell phone rang. Grissom wanted me to come in. Nick knew what he wanted from me. He always seems to know and he hates it when I let Grissom treat me like a puppet on strings. Letting him decide how to run my life, letting him run my life.
"Sara, you can't do this. You can't leave it like this."
I didn't answer him, I just turned around and gathered my stuff.
"Fine. I don't know why I bother, I don't know why I care about any of this."
He left before I could leave him in all the misery I created.
I tried to convince myself I was going to be better of without him. I think I succeeded, I almost did, for a second.
TBC