"Shit, its hot here."

"Its Africa, Zinan."

"Its still hot."

"Thanks for coming with me."

"Its nothing."

"Where are we Jayvyn?" I said to him in English. Our driver is very nice. A very attractive black man with bleached white teeth.

"About an hour outside of De Aar, Mokuba."

"How long before we get to the village?"

"Not much longer." There is a village out here that we are going to. Were going to help with an orphanage. It's really beautiful. I've taken so many pictures, like a million rolls of film. And then some. F 22 at 500th of a second. He jeep stopped in front of a small building. "Here we are."

"Is this it?" He nodded. It's so small. Like this one building is the size of our garden shed. "Its so small."

"Its all they can afford." A white woman came out.

"You must Be Mokuba and Zinan, Your brother wrote to me."

"Yes, that's us." We shook her think hand.

"Come." I spent about 5 years in an orphanage, it was hard for me, I know. But my god, this place. There must be 50 children crammed into this shack. Each one of them a dark shade of brown. And each one thinner than the next. Babies were crying, children laughing. It's more than I can take. We played with the little ones out side, teaching them how to count in English and Japanese.

"What's that?" A small boy named Gamba asked to me in English, pointing to my locket. I opened it for him.

"It's a locket, this is my big brother Seto."

"Shtoe?" I nodded smiling. "That's my big brother, Razi." The boy said, motioning to a larger boy. "Dose your big brother protect you?"

"He does. Dose yours?"

"With his life. After our parents died, he promised me that he would never leave my side. That he would always be there for me, and he always will. I know." I looked at the small boy, then at his brother. I knew, that both of them had AIDS, I knew that neither one of them would live to see there 10th birthdays. I became very sad, I became, so…

"Mokuba, we have to go now." I left that place. I will never forget those eyes. I will never forget those boys. I saw my self and Seto in those eyes. I saw our lives in the eyes of those boys. I knew that no matter how much Razi wanted to protect Gamba, he wont be able to protect him against death. I though of Seto... And to think, that I once wanted to kill myself.