Wow, got tons of cool reviews and I had this chapter written and all and I decided to post it up sooner! Umm specifics, lets see just KoumiLoccness- I was so surprised that you reviewed so positively and stuff, it meant soo much considering you really hate Polaroid of perfection. But I am gonna write it again cause I did like it, and I totally repect your opinion! (and if I was rude to you least time this was up a apoligize!)
My Baby You
Chapter 2- You're the Simplest Love I've Known
I started writing in my "Journal" about her again. I couldn't stop thinking about her, no matter what I did. I could be thinking about a board game and somehow tie it to her. I looked down at my writing.
Hey, Can you believe that I managed to fill up a quarter of this book just about her? I don't think I've written about how much I want her to love me? Only about why I want her love and how I don't deserve it.
I've only loved her, no one else. Everyone thinks I'm crushing on Hikari, but that's a cover, how could I love my best friend. But her, if I can't have her I don't want anyone else too. I know it's selfish and all but I don't care. It's just plain and simple. I love her; she's the only one that I will love. I know I won't get over her. But can you blame me. She's awesome; everything about her, her looks and personality are irresistible. I feel like that if she doesn't love me; I have no reason to live. I don't know if I'll go as far as suicide, but I'll probably consider it.
That's really a scary thought since I'm like the always optimistic; looking on the bright side, live life to the fullest kind of guy. Something would have to go really wrong in my life for people to think that I would do that. That's how much she means to me. If she was to go, I don't know what I'd do. Taichi and me, both, wouldn't be able to cope. Together we might do something drastic.
Her love is so true and pure. She never says something that she doesn't mean. Sometimes she tells me that she feels so alone with her father gone and her mother working so much. I tell her that no you'll never be alone if you're ever lonely come over I'll be there.
When will I be able to tell her that you're the simplest love I've known and the purest one I'll own, and that you'll never be alone? I don't think I'll be able to come up with the courage to do so. At times like this I wish I had Taichi's crest of courage, or Mimi's crest of sincerity so I would feel obliged to tell her the truth. Well I guess that's all I have to say about her today.
Takeru
I finished re-reading what I wrote. One day I'll write a poem for her expressing how I feel. She deserves to know, and that way if she thinks that its gross that her "lil Takeru" could like her I won't have to see her face.
But what would I write? Would I just flat out say that I like you or would I drop hints? Should I include the poem I am planning to write or no. Do I write her an e-mail or a letter? Should I sign it anonymously or tell her it's me? I just don't what to do.
But would she want to know. I mean like she wouldn't even consider going out with me so why should I tell her. I can go the rest of my life without telling her and still be happy. We could maintain this relation of pure friendship.
I just wish somehow I could repay her, but what can I do? She has done so much for me already; I'd have to be a slave to make it up to her.
I slowly closed the book and placed it back into hits spot. I turned the lights out to retire for a long nights rest. I'll need all my strength for the basketball game tomorrow. Hey do you think she'll be there tomorrow to cheer me on? Normally she does come to my matches and me to hers.
Yet again I tied my thoughts to her. You see what I mean. I started out not thinking of her but end it thinking of her. She has this effect on me, that I can't seem to get rid off, but trust me, I don't want to.
Slowly I shut my azure blue eyes and drift off into my own world where I dream only of her.
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Well that's it, hope you guys still like it! Sry it soo short but theres only so much I can say in one chapter (you'll see why) Not much else I can say! In this little authors note , but please review!
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