Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter two: Pregnant Again?
Yesterday was hard. I could barely sleep thinking about everything how I was going to deal now that I was sick really sick. My mother's words kept ringing in my head Talk to Emma, and the more I thought about the more it didn't seem like such a bad idea. I opened the doors to Degrassi and it was like as soon as I got there everyone's eyes were glued on me. I looked around and blinked hard "What's going on" was all I could keep thinking. Girls were giving me evil stares and whispering and snickering behind my back this hadn't happen since last year with Craig and my Pregnancy. I was totally clueless. When I finally got to my locker Paige was standing there and she didn't look happy. I rolled my eyes and sighed I just knew something was going on and Paige knew what it was.
"Um…Hey Paige" I said
"Yeah Hey Manny" She said coldly
"So um…what's up?"
"You tell me Manny"
"What are you talking about" I asked
"You know what I'm talking about" She said angrily
"No actually I don't If this is about me missing spirit squad yesterday I have a reason I didn't feel well" I said
"Yeah I know you were sick everyone knows Manny" She shouted my eyes popped out how could everyone know I mean I hadn't told anyone
"How? I mean How could everyone know" I asked
"Manny it's kind of obvious you've been missing spirit squad practice, last week you were throwing up, now today look at you, you look like you just woke from the dead your as pale as a zombie"
"I know, I know I didn't want everyone to know I can't do anything about it I mean what do you want me to do" I said
"Manny your like some kind of freak you know that you just think everyone should feel sorry for you well I don't I'm happy your getting exactly what you deserve" Paige spat at me my eyes widened I knew Paige could be Mean but that had to be the meanest thing she'd ever said to me I could feel my face turn blood red and my throat start to clump up and my eyes watering I just stared at her and before a tear could fall I ran towards the Girls Washroom
I ran into a stall and broke down. This is why I didn't want anyone to know no one cared about me they all hated me and wished I was dead but I don't know what I did that was so horrible I mean everyone seemed to be nicer to me this year.
I was still crying when finally there was a knock on the stall. I didn't answer it whoever it was I hoped would just go away, but they didn't.
"Manny I know your in here I saw you run in here" It was Emma I grabbed some Tissue and whipped my face then opened the door she looked at me disgusted Great she hated me too but how could she I should be disgusted, I was the one with the disease, I was the one that was sick.
"Emma why does everyone hate me" I cried out
"Manny everyone doesn't hate you but I mean you should have learn from the last time" She said
"What? Last time Emma" I asked confused
"The last time you got Pregnant by someone else's boyfriend" Emma said to me
"What?"
"Manny everyone knows that you were sleeping with Spinner while he was dating Paige and now you're Pregnant"
"Pregnant? Em I'm not Pregnant" I said a little angry
"Manny it's kind of obvious and this time I hope your not going to have an abortion" Emma said
"What?! So that's what you think Em I'm not even ready to have sex again, I was to scared to even make-out with Spinner scared it would lead up to sex, do you really think that I'm that easy and that stupid to have sex again and get Pregnant, Huh!" I yelled angrily
"So you mean you're not Pregnant" Emma asked
"No" I yelled
"Manny I'm so sorry I knew I shouldn't have believed Paige but Like I'd been calling you all week to see why you'd been missing school and you didn't call me back so I didn't know what to believe but that's no excuse I'm sorry" She apologized
"Em It's just…..I'm…." I wanted so bad to tell Emma but I just couldn't "Well after I broke up with Spinner I've been feeling distant that's all" I lied
"Oh it's okay Manny you were too good for him anyway" Emma said pulling me into a hug I felt bad lying to her but I'd been doing it to for nine years
Next Chapter: Manny has to make a big decision or else…. Also Emma starts to ask questions.