Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Three: Bad News
After-school I walked with Emma and we didn't speak a word. I had the worst day possible obviously Paige had let the whole school know in less than one class period and not only did everyone hate me for thinking that Spinner cheated on her with me and that but everyone hated me for getting pregnant again although I wasn't really pregnant. We finally got to the dot and I saw Paige sitting with Hazel, Jimmy, Craig and Ashley I quickly turned away. I couldn't go in there everyone already hated me for something that wasn't true I didn't feel like having Emma find out that I lied to her too besides I had enough drama today.
"Emma I should go" I said looking at the door
"Why besides I thought you were hungry" She asked
"Not hungry enough to face that" I said pointing to Paige's table
"Manny don't worry about it I'll set everything straight I promise" Emma said grabbing my hand
"No" I Said pulling away "Please Today has been just horrible and I can't deal with anything more just let me go" I pleaded she looked into my eyes and sighed
"Alright but I'll just have to get to the bottom of this myself"
"Em I know your trying to help but please you'll just make things worst" I Said hoping she'd understand
"But Man…" She started looking back
"Please just don't okay" I said
"Ok" She said
"Thanks" I said looking towards the door and when I did I saw Craig staring at Emma and Me I just looked at him for a second and walked away waving one last bye to Emma
I really hoped that Emma wouldn't do anything to make things worst than they already were.
I walked home slowly trying to take in everything maybe I would understand more of what's happening to me. I decided to take a quick cut through the park and sit on the swings just to think. Something I didn't do much or at least that's what a lot of people would think about me that I never thought about anything But My appearance, Popularity and Boys but that wasn't true but a lot of what people thought of me wasn't true.
I think I sat there for a half - hour thinking when someone came from behind me and tapped me. I jumped so high I flew off my swing I guess the reason I didn't hear the person was because I was lost in thought.
"Um…I'm really sorry I didn't mean to scare you" Jimmy said rolling over to me and helping me up
"Thanks and that's okay" I said smiling I don't looking at Jimmy always made me smile he had this thing about him that just made you smile even when you didn't want to Maybe that was just me or that fact that I had a crush on him since I was in like grade seven
"So what brings you here" He asked
"Um….Just thinking" I said leaning against the swing pole
"Cool That's what I came here for and Oh about you and Spinner and I hold no hard feelings about you hooking up with Spin" He said I still always felt guilty that my boyfriend was the reason he was in a wheelchair that's one of the reasons I'm glad we're almost over
"Oh thanks but by Tomorrow their will be no more Spinner and Me" I said sitting down on the ground in front of Jimmy
"What? Why that loser doesn't want anything to do with the baby" He asked looking as though he was actually upset
"Um…Jimmy don't tell anyone but there isn't any baby" I told him
"What do you mean?"
"Well everyone just jumped to the conclusion that I was Pregnant but I'm not I haven't even had sex since…well you know" I said he just nodded
"Well why don't you want anyone to know you aren't Pregnant shouldn't you want people to know that it isn't true"
"It's better than the truth" I said in a whisper not meant for him to hear
"Well what's the truth" He asked and I jumped back a little because I didn't think he'd hear me
"Why are you so concerned you've only spoken like three sentences to me from grade seven to now so why care now" I asked becoming slightly defensive
"I don't know you that well Manny but I'd like to be your friend I mean you can use one now can't you" He asked and I did more than he could ever know
"I guess" I said giving him a little smile then my cell phone went off
"Hello" I said into the receiver
"Manny where are you" It was Emma
"Um…I just stopped at the park that's all" I Said she sound worried or something
"Well your mom called she said she'd like you to come like right away something about an emergency Is everything okay" I jumped up Damn I forgot I had a Doctor Appointment today he was suppose to give me back the results of my test
"Yeah um…I'm fine Thanks bye" I said quickly hanging up
"Everything Alright" Jimmy asked
"Um…Yeah I just have to get home but thanks for the Talk" I said starting off towards home
"Remember what I said" He yelled to me
I ran home to see what the emergency was My cell went off again and it was Spinner I Ignored knowing what it was probably about my suppose Pregnancy. When I finally got home I opened the door and mother and father were both sitting on the couch my mom was crying and my dad looked horrible. My mother rushed me with a hug. I had absolutely no idea what was going on but I guess I was about to find out.
"Mami what's going on?"
"Manuela Honey sit down" My dad said I did as I was told
"What's going on"
"You were suppose to come home for your Doctor's appointment" My mom choked out
"I know and I'm sorry It's just I had a rough day at school and…" But I could finish my dad cut me off
"Manuela it's alright we went and sweetie we got some bad news" My mom let out a loud cry then covered her mouth I looked over at her then back to my dad I couldn't help but cry myself
"Wha….what's wrong" I asked
"The doctor said…Manuela the doctor said that even with if you go through Chemo you'll only have a year to live two if you decided to go through Chemo" My dad said tears now streaming down his face
"What!No Please No" I cried
"Manuela I'm sorry" My mother said
"The Doctor's want to know when will you start Chemo" My dad I didn't see no point in it if I was just going to Die anyway
"What's the Point why go through all that Hell For Nothing! I mind as well be dead!" I screamed
"No don't say that Manuela we'll get second opinion we'll get a stronger Chemo treatment whatever it takes" My mom cried out holding me I pushed her off
"No…No the Hell with Chemo I going to die anyway I'll rather die without the Chemo" I said running up the steps and into my room locking the door
I began to cry into my pillow my life was crumbling right underneath me and I had no way of stopping it.