Ahhhh I really wanted to update sooner but end of the year of school and planning for graduation stole all of my time and a little bit of my boyfriend BUT I am back now and with no school now I am sure the rest of the story will move fairly quickly. Thank you to those who have been loyal and not run away because of my inability to post e.e;;

Katherine: I thought so too o.o
Hikari: -hands you some more tissues- yeah we're going to stay sad for a bit
T.Lei: poor seto gettng slapped when he doesn't understand what he did
mandapandabug: what else can I say to you but o.O;;
medoriko: awsome I almost made two people cry!
Flame Swordswoman: Well good, don't predict! cuz I don't know what I'm going to write in the chapters I'm adding o.o
KitsuneChan8888888: you're last cuz I have the most to say/answer to you lol Why can't they stop doing stupid things? Well they are male LOL j/k but if they didn't do stupid things I wouldn't have a story. I also knew that the reason Seto and other characters had different hair and eye colors in the 1st season was because it was a different company that had the show and b/c Yu-Gi-Oh! had two different companies is the reason that the 1st part never came to America. But I felt like adding the 1st seasonor rather the alternate versioninto my story because as far as I am concerned they are the same and I think I worked it in fine. As for everything else you said :P I thanks for the info unfortunatley I already knew most of it o.o If it didn't seem that way by some of the things I said in the story it's because I needed to tork the info for the story or put it in the veiw of someone who didn't know.

Well here is a short and kinda melodramatic chapter. enjoy and whatnot u.u I wanted to base this chapter after two songs "Damned" by Eric Stuart and "Nobody Knows" by Kevin Sharp. So if you listen to those songs during the chapter you might get more of the mood.

Damned
Seto

Entering the house it's quite stillness gives me a chill and I feel panic wash over me. Without a word to anyone I walk directly toward Katsuya's room hastily. With my hand on the doorknob I stop and breathe deeply. Opening the door I see what I was dreading. His room is eerily still with all traces that was purely Katsuya, gone. Slowly I walk to the foot of his bed and stare at the Red-eyes. Looking around the room I see all the photo's are gone and then realize I smell a hint of something that has been burned. In his bathroom I find a small pile of ashes. I quickly wipe them into the wastebasket and a fairly intact piece flutters to the ground. Bending over I reach for the piece and see my own face staring back at me only part of my face in the photo has been burned off. Angry I crumple the picture and toss it in the trash.

Now in my own room I feel disconnected and my dragon above my bed is leering at me. What a fool I am, what a…weakling he is. He's run scared again over something so foolish but why does this sit on me like it does? The look in his eyes, he has never looked at me that way before. I remove my phone from my pocket and dial Yugi's but as I hear Yugi's voice say hello I freeze.

"Hello? Is anyone there?" he repeats several times then hangs up the phone. I stare at my buzzing phone and hear a rustling behind me. I turn my head to see Mokuba looking back at me. He turns his head from side to side with curiosity in his eyes.

"Hi big brother. Where is Jou?" I don't answer and look back at my phone, then slide it back in my pocket. "Seto? Where is Jounouchi?" I hear him step further into the room.

"He's gone," I answer bitterly.

"Gone? Gone where? Will he be back?" His voice rises slightly on each word. When I don't answer he comes around to be in front of me, and stares at me intently with his slate blue-gray eyes. "What did you do Seto?" He asks softly. What did I do? I DO? He left me!

"He left us, I did nothing," I reply without looking at him.

"Don't lie to me Seto!" he yells. "What did you do to make him leave?" I bite my teeth together tightly and look down at Mokuba.

"Don't question me and don't ask about matter's that do not concern you!"

"It does concern me! I like Jounouchi! He is my friend and most of the time he was a better brother than you are!" I'm taken aback and reach out and backhand Mokuba. He hits the floor and looks up at me bitterly while rubbing his cheek. I turn away from him.

"Get out." He doesn't move for a few minutes but then I hear him stand and walk out of my room closing the door behind him. Standing in my now dark room I look down at my hands and clench them into fists. Softly I speak with my clenched fists shaking, "I would have rather died then go through what you have done to me…like a fool I loved you and listened and understood you...but what did you do…You used me in everyway. What did you mean Katsuya?"

Mokuba

After I left Seto in his room I called Yugi. He explained to me what had happened with as little detail as possible. I know he held back on telling me simply because he didn't want to tarnish how I think of Seto. Now that Yugi has explained things to me I am not angry that Seto struck me. He is hurting and most likely confused and I threw salt in his injury with my words. I've been trying to stay clear of Seto for the past two days although it hasn't been hard since he hasn't left his room.

Staring up at my dark ceiling I feel unrest in the house. I don't understand why when all of the servants should have left by now. I climb out of bed slowly and make my way down to Seto's room Peering inside I see nothing and then down the hall I see the door to Jounouchi's open. I walk over and see my brother standing there.

"Seto?" I say softly. He turns to me and his blue eyes look as if they could pour over. Slowly he sits upon the floor with his head down. I come over and touch his shoulder.

"What have I done?" His voice is raspy and sad. I wrap my arms around his head in a hug and feel water drop onto my clothes.

"Don't worry Seto, we'll find him and bring him home," I say trying to sound comforting. He shifts in my arms.

"No…I've looked I can't find him."

"Then we'll look harder."

"Mokuba, he doesn't want to be found. Why does this feel this way?" I had no answer for his question. I had never seen my brother cry before or speak this way before but it soon became something I would hear often.

Seto has increasingly worse as time and has stopped eating completely since that night. I've tried to find Jounouchi on my own with the Company's resources in hopes that he would return but any lead that I had has been a dead end. I knock lightly on Seto's door to his house office; with no answer I open the door to see him asleep on his desk. Going over I tap him and see a photo of Jounouchi under his hand.

"I understand now," he says solemnly. I start then relax. Before I say a word he continues. "Mokuba, whatever you choose to do in life or be with make sure that you don't let the things that mean the most to you go or push them away." I stammer not sure how to answer when he stands and walks out of the room.

Seto

I've tried to point the finger at him because there was nothing left for me to do but what good does it do me? Where I do not understand why what I did affected him as much as it did I now understand my own feelings. It had merely been an obsession but I did care for the man. I didn't want to do what I have but I was too far in to turn back, I should have found another way. I'll never tell anyone of my loss and how it has effected me but in truth I feel as if I'm dying inside. It could have been prevented but I let my pup get away. The speech I gave about changing was pure bullshit but now I am different because now I realize I have learned to love but it's too late.

In my room I look about and everything reminds me of him. I feel detached from this world like walking dead. What I saw in him, what I wanted to save in him was what I wanted to be. I have set him free but what disappeared in him is what drove him away from me. These demons and hatred I hold have made my life into this hell. I slam my fists into the wall. I had a chance and I lost it. All I want is what my heart misses now but is beyond my reach.

Falling to my knees I fight back the emotion that wants to pour over. "Katsuya Jounouchi, look at what I've done to you. I'm sorry that I'm damned…"

Yes reveiw the weirdness! and all hail my Eric Stuart! lol XD