Anyways as always don't own YGO Blah, blah
A/N: There is a large time gap but there is a recap within this chapter but is strickly Katsuya's point of veiw. It's fairly short and there will be another time jump for next chapter.
Forget-him-not
Katsuya
As I walk down the street I look up to the sky as the first leaf of the season falls. The leaf dances and twirls through the air until it hits my head and gets caught in my hair. I brush it away and feel slightly depressed that the leaves start falling so early in the year.
I lower my head and start to look where I am going and just in time as I nearly plow over a man with blue eyes and brown hair. Alarmed I take a second look thinking that it's Seto, but it's not, the man is much too old. It'll be five and a half years to the day next week on Wednesday since I walked out of the Kaiba Mansion for the last time. I round the corner on to the street before mine.
When I left I had no idea where I was going and since I had very little money to my name I found it extremely hard to get anywhere. I ended up having to sell most of my belongings and now I only have one physical thing to remind me of the time I spent with Seto and Mokuba. Absent-mindedly I reach in my pocket and pull out my Red Eyes Black Dragon key chain. I look down and smile at it mildly then replace it back in my pocket.
After I left Yugi's house I eventually made my way to America to see Mai. It didn't take long time find her since she had made quite a name for herself. I hadn't been looking to rekindle anything, I just wanted to see her but I must admit when I first saw her I was hurt. When she walked into the room where I had been waiting for her my jaw dropped to the floor. She was without a doubt, pregnant and positively beaming. We talked and she was doing better for herself than I had thought. She had gotten married the year before on a spur of the moment type of thing. Mai told me she wanted to contact all of us but didn't know exactly how to tell us, me especially. She had invited me to stay and live with them since with the new baby they would need all the help they could get. I had considered to but in the end I left.
Tossing my hair out of my face I remember how they had looked together, Mai and her husband. For a glimmering moment when I had looked at them I didn't see them, I saw myself and the man I had just left behind. It had been strange since I was in Mai's body, breasts and everything, it would have made me wonder about my sanity but I have thought weirder things before. All the same I knew if I stayed with them that I would constantly be reminded of what I had lost.
A car beeps at me as I walk out in front of it. "Idiot, watch where you're going," I mutter about myself to myself.
Where was I? Oh yeah, I wandered around for a while until I ended up here and I got a job at a nightclub as the barkeep. Not what I would have liked to do but I was surprisingly good at it and the club even paid for me to go to school to learn how to be one. It was at the club that I met Nailah.
She had come up to the bar alone and sat there for several minutes after she finished her drink. I asked her what such a pretty girl was doing all alone in a club. A stupid and cornball line but she laughed good-heartedly. Through the rest of the night, whenever I wasn't busy I would go back over to her and we'd talk. She even stayed until I was off and closed up. I walked her to her car and asked her name. I hadn't even thought of to get her number but it wasn't a big deal since a week later I ran into her down town.
"What's a boy with such sad eyes doing sitting here all alone?" she had asked. I turned and laughed, after that we started dating. For the first time in awhile I was able to burry my hurt and thoughts of Kaiba. I told her very few things about my past and she was great about it, telling me that she knew that when I was ready I would tell her. Eventually I told her about Kaiba and Mokuba but none of the details. We married not long after. On the day of our wedding I almost backed out because of recurring thoughts of Kaiba. I ended up concluding that if I was able to shove him away when I was with her before that it would be doable again, unfortunately that wasn't the case. I was never able to completely hide him away and I still can't. All of this time and I still can't forget him.
Making a right turn onto my street I frown. My inability to forget Kaiba and to put him behind me as caused me many problems with Nailah and even more as of late. I can't blame her for her feelings; it's unfair to her for me to be thinking of someone else just as much as I think of her. He's always been a pain in my ass and has always made things difficult for me and others but even now, so far away from him and after all this time he is still messing shit up.
A person might ask why don't I just go back to him? I can't. After everything he has done to me and put me through I can't turn around and ask him to take me back. He only used me; he never even had feelings of any sort for me. I was nothing but a pawn. I'd be an idiot to go back to him. At least that is what my head tells me. My heart, although he shattered it, tells me different. It says he did love me and I should return to him. I have Nailah now though and my heart feels loyal to her. Emotions are illogical so I do what I know what has to be best for me and stay away from him and close to her.
Now in front of my apartment I climb the stairs to my door. Opening it I immediately notice something is wrong. The first thing I think is that we've been robbed but now I realize it's only Nailah's things that are gone, not that I have anything of worth though. Quietly I walk through the apartment to the bedroom where I see Nailah closing a suitcase. I just stand there dumbfounded in the door and she looks up at me with her aquamarine eyes.
"Hi Katsuya…" she greets me. Her tone is soft and reluctant. From what I saw in her eyes I already know what she has done, or was in the middle of doing.
"Were you just going to leave without a goodbye?" I ask quietly. Her gaze falls to the floor and she picks up the suitcase.
"I-I don't know Katsuya. I just can't do this anymore." I watch her fingers tighten around the handle of the suitcase.
"Are things really this bad?" I say stepping forward and out of the doorway. She just looks at the floor. "Don't you think I at least deserve a goodbye, let alone an explanation?" Quickly she darts by me and goes into the main room that serves as our living room. "Hey wait a minute! I asked a question." She stands perfectly still with me looking at the back of her hunter green hair. Slowly she turns around and looks at me.
"Don't you think I deserve someone that is in love with me?" I can see her eyes welling up with tears.
"I do love you," I say softly and I try to come closer to her but she moves away.
"No," she shakes her head, "You may love me but your heart, and your soul still belong to him." A tear trickles down her face.
"Nailah, he is in the past, that part of my life is-"
"No it's not over!" she yells at me angrily cutting off my sentence. "Katsuya," she says calmer but with her voice cracking, "the last time we were together you said his name, not mine. In your sleep you whisper his name, not mine." She sniffs and wipes away some tears, "You're still in love with him…"
"No! You're wrong! I don't, I can't love him...I won't! You're the one I want, the one I love." I protest but she only looks at me sadly. Nailah steps forward and touches my face.
"Katsuya, this has to stop. You can't run away from your feelings forever. And I can't stay by you when I'm not the one you want." She drops her hand and I feel cool water run down my face.
"Nailah…" she turns, opens the door and then looks back at me.
"I wish I didn't have to Katsuya but I can't keep hoping that some day I'll wake up and you'll look at me the way you look when you think of him." She turned away and then turned back to me, "If you can find your feelings and finally be over him…I'll be at my mothers. Goodbye Katsuya…" With her last look at me with forlorn riveting through her eyes she walks out and closes the door with a click.
I close my pouring eyes and swallow. "You just love having my heart break don't you Seto?" I murmur quietly. Reopening my eyes I look at the closed door and in this moment I know I will never see Nailah again.
I was right, a few months later annulment papers arrived and I was officially unmarried that New Year's.
I suggest we all cry now okay? -cries-
okay enough of that. but look those few who reviewed I didn't forget you!
Katherine: Me?A tease? Never! Seriously how did I tease you? I don't know ;.; That is pretty weird -waves fingers all mystical like-
Growing Pain: -points at you and yells- SADIST! lol I try to keep things happening so people don't get bored, and I'd be bored to tears writing it. Kill Katsuya? Never! Although...I could make Seto go crazy, track down Jou and murderize him! mwha. hmm no I don't think so, I'm not that evil.
Clarity: yes I tend to also like the darker side of Seto, I like his assholish side also. As for the ending I say nothing! As for the chapter before last I know it could have been better. I kinda got bored writing it and hence got lazy. It never even occured to me to have Jou speak lol I'm a little brain dead but you are keeping me on my toes, I will do better Writing Guru -bows-
okay now thatI've weirded out everyone including myself I ask for you to R&R! If you don't I'll cry, seriously I will! ;.; thats a threat not a promise!..wait reverse that...JUST R&R!