Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Six: I'll keep your secrets
When I opened my eyes the sun hit me like a ray beam. I quickly covered my eyes and groaned realizing last night wasn't just a bad dream.
"Urgh!" I said tiredly
"Oh My god Manny your okay" Emma said rushing to my bed "I'm sorry I was so mean to you last night Manny I'm just glad you're okay"
"Where's Jimmy" I asked
"He left his parents came last night to pick him up" She said "I was so scared that something had happened to you especially after I acted like a jerk to you"
"Well I'll be blind if you don't close those shades"
"I opened them Manuela to give this room some sunshine" My mother said rising from her seat in the corner she sound upset and she had every right to be "Emma can you give me and Manuela a second"
"Yes Mrs. Santos I'll go get something to eat want anything" Emma asked
"No" I said Emma turned and walked out the room my mother followed behind closing the door half-way behind
"Manuela! How could be so stupid you know better than to run away and go to an adult club" My mother shouted giving me a worst headache than I already had
"Mami..My head" I said weakly
"And Manuela Alcohol you know at your age you shouldn't be drinking especially with your condition I mean Manuela the Doctors said that if you would have drunk anymore you could have died because of the Hepatocellular Carcinoma and you should start Chemo right away" She said lighting her tone
"Mami I told you already I'm not going through Chemo!" I screamed my eyes watering "Oh my god" I heard a loud scream outside my door I looked up and saw Emma Tears streaming down her face
"You have Can….c.er Manny" She said crying my mother just looked at me and got up from her seat to leave us alone
"Yes" I said in a near whisper looking away from her not standing to see her cry
"When….How?" She said stumbling over her words
"Emma that's not important" I said quietly
"Manny Please talk to me" She said crying harder
"Emma I can't just forget it" I yelled
"What! How can I just forget my best friend has Cancer Manny it's impossible so talk to me" She screamed back
"Okay What Emma, what do you want me to say" I yelled back a little more quietly and for the first time looking at her
"Just talk to me did you just find out about this" She asked sitting down next to me
"Not exactly"
"What do you mean not exactly how long have you've known" She asked
"Nine Years okay"
"What No…Manny you kept this from for nine years"
"I was scared okay Emma I didn't want people to know scared they might treat me different because I had cancer and how I could I tell you nowadays you were going through so much I just didn't want to throw nothing else your way" I said
"Manny I love you through everything even our arguments your still my best friend and I'd always be there for you no matter what I'm going through you could always get through things together" She said tearing up again "I promise I'll be there for you through Chemo" I looked away starting to tear up myself
"What did I say I mean you are going to go through Chemo therapy you have to" She said looking lost
"Emma There's no point okay I'm not doing Chemo therapy" I said tears streaming down my cheek
"What do you mean there's no point you mean it's not that serious that you have to go through Chemo I mean have you done your Chemo already that you don't have to do it"
"No Emma I'm not doing it Period"
"But Why Chemo is to help you" She now crying herself
"Emma Chemo can't help the doctors said that even if I go through Chemo I'll only have two years to live one if I don't"
"No get a second opinion go to Snake's Doctor I'll go call him" She said pulling out her cell-phone
"Emma no Okay you have to promise not to tell anyone please" I pleaded
"But Manny…"
"No Emma Please you can't tell anyone I can't deal with everyone treating me like I'm some freak" I interrupted
"It's better than people thinking you're a slut"
"I don't care about that just please" I chocked out
Emma swallowed hard and whipped her tears away. "Alright I promise"