Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Seven: Friends
I sat on the edge of my bed staring into the mirror. Friday was horrible never thought so much could go wrong in one night I still shake a little at the thought of what if Mr. Simpson and Spike hadn't come in that room. But Most important finally telling Emma I had Cancer it's taken me so long and I know she's hurt that I didn't tell her before I just hope she didn't tell anyone. I mean I know Emma and I know how she is, she has her own mind and she does what she thinks is best in a situation but she doesn't really think about what's good for the Person in that situation.
"Manuela are you okay, you can stay home from school today I'll jus..." My mother said coming into my room ready to drive me in
"Yeah I'm ready mami" I said glancing into the mirror one more time and grabbing my backpack
The ride to school was pretty quiet as we got closer to the school thoughts of Jimmy flooded my mind I hadn't spoken to him since I was mean to him Friday. Even after all he did I was still so selfish. The car stopped and I looked at the school and took a deep breath and stepped out waving good-bye to my mother feeling like a toddler wanting to grab onto my mother's ankle never letting go until she dragged me into school.
I walked in and the vibe in school just felt different it as if all eyes could right through me and never everything I was going through though I tried to put on my best act. I walked down the hall hoping to see Jimmy and not to see him at the same time. If I did see him I could apologize but what if after what I said he never wanted to speak to me. I was so lost in thought that I bumped into something hard like metal or something, I looked down and saw it was Jimmy and I had knocked his books out his hand. Nice Santos great way to apologize.
"Oh I'm so sorry Jimmy" I said bending down to pick up his books
"Don't okay I can get it myself" He said a little bitterly
"No let me I'm sorry" I said picking up a book
"NO! I can do it myself Okay" He screamed causing me to jump and drop the book I looked at him and at the students who were now staring at Jimmy as if he had gone crazy and started to walk away. "I knew it he hates me" I said to myself but when I got about two inches away Jimmy called out to me
"Manny wait okay I'm sorry" He said rolling over to me I moved back and sat down on the foyer steps "Listen Manny I didn't mean to scream at you"
"No I deserve after the way I treated you" I said feeling guilty and ashamed all over again "No this has nothing to do with Friday I just don't like people feeling that if a book falls or I can't reach something they have to rush over to me like I'm an infant I hate that people pity and baby me I mean my own girlfriend does it" Jimmy complained to me and for a second I thought I almost say a tear fall down "I just wish I could make all this go away" He said as if I could relate though I could it's like he knew something
"Why are you telling me all this I mean not that I don't like talking to you it's just why not Craig, why not Ashley or Marco why me?" I asked
"Because when I was talking to you that day in the park I don't know I just thought you could relate not in the same way but just you know understand where I was coming from never mind" He said starting to wheel away
"I do understand where you're coming from but just why me and why not someone closer to you"
"After the shooting I realized that everyone needs someone and when I heard that rumor about you being Pregnant and everything I thought you could use a friend but even after you told me it wasn't true something told me you still needed a friend" Jimmy said stopping
"Yeah I can use a friend now but it seems like even you Mr. Popularity could use one too" I said smiling lightly
"Yeah I can even me Mr. Popularity" He said smiling back
"Alright Friends?" I said holding out my hand
"Friends" He said shaking my hand
Then someone shadowed over us and Jimmy mad and angry face I quickly turned around and saw Spinner.
"Um…Jimmy can you excuse us Please" He asked quietly Jimmy just looked at him angrily then looked at me
"It's okay Jimmy I'll see you later okay"
"Alright" He said wheeling off I watched him until he went all the way down the hall