Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Nine: Make my day a little brighter
After the Nurse let me go I hid in the Foyer until Lunch. I can't believe I chose this over going home before the nurse let me go she called my mom and my mom asked me if I wanted to come home and go to the doctor's office I said no I couldn't handle any more bad news But I knew she make me go after school anyway. I had to change into my Panthers sweater since my other shirt was ruined.
"Manny Oh my god I was so worried" Emma screamed running over to me
"Oh hey Em sorry I didn't mean to worry you" I said staring at nothing in particular but just staring off
"So what happened are you okay" She asked
"Yeah I'm fine just a little nose bleed" I said playing with my hands
"Manny don't down play it for me it wasn't just a little nose bleed Manny there was blood everywhere it's because of your Cancer isn't it" I looked up at her and looked around quickly like their was people all around but I couldn't take chances
"Emma Please not here" I said in a near whisper
"Then where Manny you never want to talk about it but you have to you care more about what people think of you then…..then your life" She yelled
"Yeah and Emma what else do I have huh when your like me that's all you have left what people think of you cause when I die.." I started but Emma cut in
"If you die Manny you don't have to give up because if you really care what people think of you they'll think Manny Santos the girl that gave up on life which is pretty pathetic" She said with a tears in her eyes
"Em can we just stop talking about this please" I said not willing to challenge her
"Manny it's just…..Never mind come on we're already late for lunch" She said getting up
"Em I don't know about…" I started
"Oh no you're coming to lunch besides you have to eat to keep your strength up" She said grabbing my arm
"Okay Mom" I Said with a little smirk
"Besides Jimmy seemed a little weird about you" Emma said giving me a "What's that all about look"
"Whatever we're just friend besides he's with Hazel" I said walking out the foyer with Emma
"Hey Manny" Someone called from behind me
"Em Please tell me that isn't who I think it is" I sighed
"Just keep walking Manny come on" She said pulling on my arm so I called walk faster but I could hear the person start to run towards us yelling for me to stop
"What do you want Craig" I said stopping and turning around inches away from him
"Can we talk Manny please" He asked
"Actually Craig we were on our way to Lunch" Emma cut in
"Please Em I just need to talk to Manny for a minute" Craig Pleaded
"Craig…."
"Em give us a minute It'll only be a second" I Said
Emma looked at me and then to Craig and sighed.
"I'll be right here" She said putting her hands on her hip
"Alright thanks Em" Craig said pulling me to the side
"What do you want Craig" I asked again
"Calm down I'm not hear to bring you trouble or to cause you grief I just wanted to see if you were okay"
"I'm fine Craig not that you would really care"
"I do care Manny really and I always will I was really worried when I heard about what happened" He said putting a hand on my shoulder
"Why no one else does"
"Sure they do people just feel for Paige that's all"
"Yeah I know everyone feels for Paige but no one cares about the truth" I said looking away from Craig
"Well what's the truth then"
"Just forget it okay I'm fine that's all you wanted to know so you can leave now" I said turning to walk away
"Manny wait" He said grabbing my arm
"What" I asked sighing
"You and Jimmy you guys aren't ….you know because Hazel is a nice girl and she doesn't deserve that"
"So am I Craig and I wouldn't do that to her she's my friend or at least civil to me"
"So was Paige and Ashley" Craig said before walking away I couldn't believe he said that he was just like everyone else how could everyone hate me
"Manny are you okay" Emma said looking at me I was close to bursting into tears but I sucked it in
"Yeah I'm fine" I said taking a deep breath and walking into the cafeteria as soon as I entered all eyes were on me and people started snickering and talking I felt like running back out but I just went on line with Emma behind me and got my lunch and sat down Emma began chatting off about what I missed in class I stared out the window It was raining today day was so gloomy .
I looked away from the window and looked at Emma who was smiling and talking I smiled back and kept nodding and l looked away again and Saw Jimmy he smiled at me and for awhile for that second Today didn't seem so bad as corny as that sounded he made it a little brighter it felt good to be a little corny again.