Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Ten: Jimmy's Problem
After the final bell rung I grabbed my bags and walked to my locker where the um… "Graffiti" was painted over during third period.
"So Manny feeling better" A voice said from behind me
"Yeah I'm fine" I said turning around to Jimmy
"Oh good I was worried" He said flashing me one of his famous smiles
"Jimmy Brooks I'll have to say that Hazel is one of the luckiest girls in the world" I said flashing him a smile myself
"Yeah well any guy would be the Luckiest guy on earth to be with you Manny and don't forget it" He said with a sound of seriousness in his voice
"Yeah well right now me being the School Slut again I'm sure they wouldn't" I said looking down
"Manny I can't understand why you won't let me tell everyone the truth I mean I hate hearing people talk about you that way your really sweet" He said frowning
"I know but you can't tell anyone you just can't I can't explain now but please you just can't" I said panicking a little that he was growing and ready to tell that I wasn't really pregnant
"I won't trust me I won't I'm just saying I feel bad that's all"
"Well thanks but here comes…" Before I could finish she was already standing in front of us "Hey Hazel" I smiled
"Yeah hey Manny oh and I heard about this morning are you okay" She said sounding a little phony
"Yeah I'm fine"
"Well that's good I can't believe someone would do that" She said flashing me a fake sympathetic look
"Haze let's just go alright" Jimmy cut in probably seeing how phony Hazel was
"Alright bye Manny have a good day" She said sounding so evil
"Bye Manny I'll talk to you later" He said wheeling away I stared as Jimmy and Hazel left and right as I was about to turn around Hazel gave me a glare and looked at Jimmy protectively obviously Spinner and Craig wasn't the only people who thought me and Jimmy were more than friends.
"What was all that about" Emma said walking up to my locker
"Just another piece of my life going down the tubes I doubt me and Hazel are still friends"
"Manny you should have figured that I mean Hazel's like Paige's little puppy and like they say dogs are always loyal" Emma said rolling her eyes
"Yeah well Paige has a lot dogs in this school because it seems like everyone hates me" I said opening my locker
"Maybe if you told everyone the truth then…" Emma started but I cut her off with a cold glare
"Em let's just go and forget about it"
"Alright we can go shopping" Emma said shopping that I loved to do shop, shop, shop
"That's cool" I said grinning
"Alright well let's go" Emma said and returned we were actually acting the way we did before everything in my life got so complicated
I think we shopped for about two hours before we both got tired and decided to sit down in the food court. We was laughing and joking like old times and for that time with her I forgot about everything. I looked around at the people seeing how perfectly healthy they looked and how I everything would be like when I was….Before I could even finish my complete thought there was a loud crash. I looked over quickly and it was Jimmy he had knocked a stand over with wheelchair people were staring and some snickering at Jimmy I knew how he felt well not entirely but to a point yeah. Jimmy looked around and started to pick it up but the Lady told him no he looked so embarrassed he quickly looked around and wheeled away.
"Poor Jimmy" Emma spoke
"Yeah I know I feel so bad" I said looking down at my food "Um…ready to go" I asked
"Yeah" She spoke up picking up her bags
After I left Emma I sat in my room staring out my window it was raining again. That was spring for you. I couldn't help thinking about Jimmy he looked so hurt and embarrassed he didn't deserve that he was too good of a person. I ran to my closet and found a Degrassi Team Number and Address book where everyone from the Basketball players to the Cheerleaders to the Hockey Players put their number and Address in to get in touch with each other.
"Jimmy. Jimmy…Here it is Jimmy Brooks 32 Smith st" I looked at the clock it was only six maybe I should see how he was doing I ran down the steps and left my mother a note telling her where I was going
I knew it was raining so I brought my umbrella but it was still really cold but something in me didn't care all I cared about was getting to Jimmy. It's not so bad that I cared about is it I mean he was a friend that's all….
I finally got there to a huge building I walked up the steps into the building and towards the elevator. I searched for the floor to press but I drew a blank I thought hard and remembered he had lived in the pent house so I pressed the highest floor with the p next to it.
It looked like something off TV. Like a star could live here it was way too good for me and I haven't even seen the inside yet. Music was blasting I don't know why but as soon as I lifted my hand to knock my heart started to race and I began to sweat a little. I knocked twice and there was no answer but the door cracked open I don't know if I should have but against my better judgment I opened the door and walked in.
I walked around exploring the apartment I was so scared that if his parents were home I'd be like arrested or something but they weren't home a common thing I've heard. I walked up to this door that said "Do not disturb" on it and was blasting music maybe I could tell Jimmy I couldn't read. I cracked the door a little and saw Jimmy struggling to work-out he was on one of those Balancers that help people learn how to walk again. He looked so tired and weak I felt so bad he didn't even make it one step before falling. I saw the anger in his eyes I opened the door a little wider to help him up when he picked up a weight and throw it at the wall punching a hole through it. I screamed from impact and tried to cover my mouth but he turned and saw me standing there.
"Manny what are you doing here!" He screamed I began to speak but he looked mad at me I knew this was a bad idea Jimmy grabbed his wheelchair closer to him and climbed in I backed away slowly I quickly started for the door
"Manny Wait" Jimmy screamed from behind me I was right at the door the music was off now
"Jimmy listen I'm sorry if I caught you at a bad time I just wanted to see how you were doing with that scene at the mall and all" I said turning around hoping he wouldn't be mad
"Yeah um….it's okay I'm use to it by now but I'm really sorry I yelled at you and you had to see me get so frustrated" He said with a little smirk
"Oh it's okay I thought you were mad at me or something because I did like just come in uninvited" I said closing the door
"No it's okay"
"So why were you so mad it's going to take some time you know?"
"I know, I know it's just I'm tired of people feeling sorry for me" He said wheeling over to the couch as I followed taking a seat
"No one feels sorry Jimmy we feel bad but we don't pity you"
"Yeah sure in school you'd think I was infant and Haze she's great but she treats like a kid instead of her boyfriend, my own friends don't even know how to act around me" Jimmy said for a second I thought he would cry but he just stared blankly at the floor
"Well I still see you the same way" I said giving him a smile hoping it would make him feel better he just looked up and smiled
"Manny you have anyway to be tonight" He asked
"No"
"How about you stay here and we'll watch some movies it can get kind of lonely around here sometimes" He said with pleading eyes and I really couldn't turn him down after that
"Okay" I said smiling back