Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Twelve: I Promise Not Kept
I can't believe I overslept over Jimmy's house the last thing I remembered was us watching "Napoleon Dynamite" and then that's it I got in the house around about like 2 a.m. I had to sneak in through my window. I hope Jimmy got the letter I left him. He was so sweet to me yesterday we talked about so much I almost told him about….
"Manny what's the answer" I shook my head and looked up Mr. Simpson looked at me and shook his head
"Next time pay attention Ms. Santos"
"Sorry Mr. Simpson" The bell rung and I gathered my things and walked out of class
"Manny wait up" I could hear Emma yelling from behind me I turned around and bumped straight into Ashley
"Sor…Oh wait its Manny Slutos never mind" She said kicking one of books that had fallen I rolled my eyes and sighed I bent down to pick up my books
"Forget about her Manny" Emma said helping me pick up my books
"Whatever I'm use to it everyone hates for the second year in a row"
"Not everyone hates you let's just go before we're late for gym" As I got up to stand I felt a sharp pain in my side
"Shit" I said grabbing my side
"Manny what's wrong do you need the nurse?"
"No I'm fine let's go Mr. Armstrong will kill us if we're late again" I said brushing the throbbing pain in my side off
"Manny are you sure you don't look so…." I quickly cut her off
"Em I'm fine let's go"
"Alright" Emma said sighing staring at me as if I was a sick puppy about to be put under.
After Gym in the locker room
It seemed like today gym was so hard I kept running short of breath and the pain in my stomach kept getting worst. I waited till everyone left the locker room to get change I didn't want them to see the scars I was starting to get on my stomach. I felt that sharp pain in my stomach and cringed running over to one of the stalls. This is worst then when I was pregnant now all I do is throw up blood 24/7.
"Manny I think you need to get some help" I heard Emma say on the other side of the stall
"Em I know, I know sometimes I just can't wait till its ove…"
"Manny don't okay I mean help like Chemo" I opened up the stall and looked at her
"Em I can't you wouldn't understand" I said shouting
"But you're not thinking about anyone but yourself not how this is affecting anyone sometimes I can't even sleep thinking with if something happens to you and what about your parents I think your being so selfish" Emma screamed back in tears I opened my mouth but not a word came out only tears flowed down my cheeks
"What are you two yelling about" I heard a voice yell Inside in was Mr. Simpson
"Come in Dad no one's in here" Emma yelled in Mr. Simpson came in looking at us confused
"Em are you okay you we're suppose to meet me upstairs ten minutes ago Liberty told me you we're down here and why are you two crying"
"I just never thought a person could be so selfish as if to let not only herself suffer but the people who love her most suffer too"
"What do you mean, what's going on?" Mr. Simpson asked Emma looked at me and closed her eyes and blinked back some tears
"I can't take it anymore Manny" She screamed I looked at her in horror I prayed she wouldn't tell
"Emma you promised" I yelled
"Yeah well I can't I just can't Dad Please tell Manny she should go through Chemo she's really sick with Liver Cancer and the doctors said she'll die soon but tell her if she goes through chemo there's a chance she'll survive dad tell her please tell her" Emma said in tears Mr. Simpson eyes grew wide and I looked at Emma with tears in my eyes
"You see why I didn't tell you earlier" I said running and pushing past them how could Emma do this to me