Living with my Fate
Summary: Girls like me didn't keep secrets like this. I could never keep a secret longer than a day so everyone might be a little more than surprised that I kept a secret like this for more than nine years.
Chapter Thirteen: Hate and Help
I closed my eyes and sat in the Zen Garden quietly that was slowly becoming my hide out. I couldn't believe Emma had really just done that why was she trying to ruin my life just like everyone else.
"Manny what the hell are you trying to pull" I heard someone scream I opened my eyes to see no other than Hazel, Paige, Ellie and Ashley in front of me
"Well Hun, Hazel asked you a question" Paige hissed
"What are you talking about" I asked
"Oh don't play stupid Manny we all know you spent the night over at Jimmy's" Ellie chewed in I grew silent
"Well what do you have to say" Hazel asked screaming it's like they were all pulling me in different directions
"Nothing I don't have time for this I have a headache" I said getting up pushing past all them and walking into the hallway
"Manny your going to talk and your going to talk now" Hazel said grabbing my arm and slamming me against the locker really hard everyone including me looked and Hazel shocked no one had ever seen Hazel get so mad before
"Haze take it easy she's pregnant" I heard Ash say
"So why should I care she doesn't care I mean she probably going to get another abortion so she can sleep with any other guy she damn well pleases" She spat at me it really hurt before I knew it I let a tear roll down "Oh Please save your damn tears WHAT WERE YOU DOING AT JIMMY'S" She screamed
"Um…Haze just come on she doesn't look to good" Paige said coming and grabbing her off of me
"I don't care" She said screaming and trying to get away from her
"Just come we've got something for her" Ashley said as they walked away looking at me so evilly
After they were gone I just slid down a locker and started to bawl I couldn't take this anymore my life was over for the little time I had on earth it was going to be Hell maybe getting it over with wouldn't be so bad after all. I heard footsteps coming from down the hallway I got up quickly what if it was someone else ready to chew me out what if it was Hazel again. I began down the hall when I ran into Mr. Simpson I looked up at him and he pulled me into a class.
"Manny are okay" He said handing me a tissue
"Yeah I'm fine…..considering Emma just ruined my life along with everyone else"
"Well I can't help you with everyone else but Emma she never meant to hurt she was only trying to do what's best" He said walking over to me
"What was best was for her to keep her mouth close" I said
"But Manny just looking at you, you're getting worst you look very fragile like if someone were to touch you would break" He said looking at me I didn't want to meet his glaze so I looked down "Manny do you know what people think" He asked "They think your pregnant"
"Of course I know what people think Mr. Simpson trust me people have made it very well known what they think of me" I Said still not looking up and letting a fresh tear roll down my cheek
"Emma and I both know it isn't true so why don't you want the rest of the school to know they'll find out anyway"
"Mr. Simpson do you know how people would see me if they knew I had Cancer they would see me as a Disability, "There's Manny the girl with Cancer" "Oh Manny Santos Yeah she has Cancer" I don't want people to see me like that I don't want people to pity me like that" I said
"Manny that's how I felt at first but yeah people are going to pity you but you'll soon find out the person who's pitting you the most is you" He said lifting my head up to make eye contact with me I just looked away without saying away "Okay Manny whatever you don't want anyone to know Emma also told me you won't go through Chemo Manny chemo is the only chance there is to live"
"Emma is just the regular New York Times isn't she" I said he giggled then looked back at me
"Manny why won't you go through Chemo" He asked again
"The doctor said I would only have……."I started but he cut me off
"One year to live if you don't take chemo two if you do Emma told me Listen you're a strong girl I can see it in your eyes and if you believe that your just how do you kids say it these days um….punking out Manny you could get a second opinion trust me Manny doctors aren't always right" He said touching my shoulder
"Well what if I want them to be right" I said just as the bell rung Mr. Simpson looked at me as if I was crazy "I have to go to class" I said grabbing my bag and heading for the door as students started pouring into the hallway
"Manny come over today for dinner your mom said it was okay just please come we miss having you I know Emma would love to have you" Mr. Simpson yelled out to me
"I….I'll try to make it" I said lying knowing I wasn't coming I walked out of class when I saw Craig coming straight towards I turned the other way and tried to make my way through the students I could hear him calling my name I quickly ducked into Mr. Armstrong class right on time I could see Craig through the Glass window looking in
I turned around to see Emma looking at me. I sighed and sat down next to her she looked kind of sad that I didn't say anything to her. All I could do was look over at her she looked at me hopeful I just gave her a little smile and she smiled back. Maybe Dinner at the Simpson-Nelsons wouldn't be so bad………..
End of Chapter: Sorry I haven't up-dated in awhile I was busy with the ending of school and just relaxing but I missed my sorry so I'll be updating more now. Hope you liked this chapter. But later on in the Story you'll another Character Struggle with their Fate or what could be their fate and…..yes it's who you think it is.