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ah if only...
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Chapter One : Lack-of-Sleep
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Silence.
A cool wind whipped across the road around the jeep and followed through down the street as it carried an empty piece of paper within its clutches.The silence had lingered for Sanzo's as long as Sanzo's temper usually remained; a good four hours, causing the chill in the air. Goku shivered, clutching his arms together as he ducked behind the seats in front, brown hair blowing in the breeze. He sniffed loudly, looking towards an equally anticipated Gojyo, who's expression seemed somewhat of frustration; as he had not seen any women, nor anyone beside the ugly buggers around him for the good ten minutes they had driven through this corpse of a town.O occasionally the kappa, grunted, trying to look calm, but the amount of smokes he has reaped had taken told a different story; frustration.Sanzo on the other hand, was sitting calm in the front seat, eyes closed as if sleeping, a few times one had lazily opened to see if they were going in the right direction but that was the most movement he had made.Goku frowned, realising that his head was not hurting as much as usual as the grumpy monk had not hit him at all today.
Hakkai smiled wearily. Jeep grinding to a halt. The words 'Bar' were simple enough for them to understand. Naturally Gojyo was the first out.
"Hey Heidi hey!" Gojyo shouted , kicking the door open with a heavy foot, "Ladies come to papa!...or not"
His crimson eyes widened suddenly, moving around the contents of the so called,bar. The room itself was empty, the chair and tables perfectly allined and the bar open and seemingly ready for business. Yet there appeared to be no-one else in the room, he frowned striding over to the bar sticking his head through the counter and looking down it,
"Hey is anyone there?... i could do with a frickin' drink!"
"wha... were is every buddy?" Goku suddenly asked appearing behind him, Gojyo turning to look at him and then at the other two who had followed him inside. The kappa grinned broadly, ruffling then slapping the boy's head,
"...Took one look of you and ran.."he muttered,grinning at the boy's complaining. "ah well, looks like it's self service"
"Gojyo i don't think you should..."
"why? damn bar keep ant around, an' I'm thirsty damn it. I'll pay him when he shows up, if he shows up i guess."
"get me one"
"Get one yourself priest , you have arms and legs" A gunshot. "Ah crap..alright ill bloody get you one!"
"um... isn't this a town?Aren't they supposed to be with people?" Goku mumbled ignoring the screams of Gojyo that were all too familiar.
Hakkai nodded in quiet agreement. "It is quite strange.."
"i like it... no idiots around to piss me off"
"i suppose there is that"
belch "good shit"
"Hey Gojyo is there any thin' to eat round there?"
The redhead shuffled his long frame bending around the side of the bar, crimson eyes blinking into the darkness of a drawer. He sighed. "uh..there's some beans"
A short pause, perhaps Goku's brain was gaining some kind of lag at what he had just said. Gojyo's eyes widening not at the hyperness of the usually correct formula Monkey + Food Insanity, but somehow maturity.
This was short lived.
"YAY BEANS!" Goku cried waving his hands up into the air, Ina innocent child-like fashion. Sanzo shuddered,clicking his gun, the gentle words of Hakkai whispering at him not to kill their young companion.
"Little things please little minds..." Sanzo muttered glaring.
"you say summit Sanzo?"
"nope"
"Oh okay...but something smells funny" Goku paused nose twitching, his mouth full of beans.A slightly worrying purple colour from what should be gold.
Gojyo smirked. "Don't look at me, i blame Sanzo"
"shut it kappa"
"I mean this place, it smells, like...nobody lives here anymore"
"i get that aura too, i wonder why?" Hakkai muttered.
Gojyo plopped himself down on a empty chair. Soft satin cushioning his behind.He lifted his legs up from the floor onto the table. "Maybe they went crazy and gave up drinking.."
"i think it's called saving your health..."Hakkai smiled winking at his red-headed Friend.
"yeah.. that ...shit"
"hmmm.. maybe the owner has gone out for the night, maybe we should take advantage of this situation and rest in the rooms upstairs. We can explain to the owner comes back"
"Yeah..i guess, hm? whats wrong Sanzo? you've gone... paler"
"None of your damn business, I'm going to sleep.Wake me.Die" The monk muttered turning toward a stairway, slipping his gun back into his robes. The soft golden hair swaying in his wrath. The coolness of his words causing even Goku's face to drop in a mixture of confusion and uncertainty.
There was something different about Sanzo, something darker. Goku had noticed it long before the others. Little things, such as his posture, tone and even smell had chanced.Priest Sanzo was troubled. More than usual.But Goku knew that even asking his friend what was wrong would probably be answered only in a bullet to his head.Sanzo wasn't the type of guy to talk about such deep personal things, like a wounded animal, he was better left alone to heal.
Sanzo probably didn't realise how much the three moron's downstairs were concerned. Yet neither one was willing to admit it.Pride is always a burden.
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"damn..." Sanzo wheezed hands tracing the all too familiar carvings of the hallway, fingertips drawing over the carefully carved flowers and fine oak panelling. Forehead creasing together from strain and tiredness.He was shattered, weary and down right dog tired. He hadn't told anyone, but he hadn't slept for three nights. and the price of this was taking his toll.
He couldn't feel his legs that well either. Which annoyed the hell out of him. The feeling of being weak and pathetic like some girl echoing in his masculine mind.Fainting, however inevitable it seemed would not be the fucking option.Fist clenching in turn, pulling him up straight.
He was afraid. so very afraid.
Afraid that if he closed his eyes and went into the natural bliss, the closest you can get to heaven while air is still in your lungs, the demonic images would return.
# ...help...h-elp me... i ...i don't want... STOP IT! #
He paused waving, a smile clenching his face in a vice. It was becoming normal. These screams. They would turn him insane. It wouldn't be long.
#...# wheezing
This wasn't normal. not for a priest. not for anyone.Talking to the Heavens would be idiotic. Talking to the idiots would mean humiliation.Yet somehow he craved for someone to speak to about this... demon.And how to make it disappear.
That's if he didn't kill himself first.
Don't get him wrong, there had been many night were he had placed the gun to his head. Waiting for hat gentle breeze to tip him over the edge.
(Expect what had been was a sleeping Goku who accident swung his fist out at Sanzo, causing his pillow to hit him at the back of the head and the gun out of his hand... but Sanzo wasn't complaining.Such pain had been inflicted the following morning. Such cruelty to the monkey.)
# ...# wheezing
Sanzo's legs wobbled, eyes gleaming over from what he furiously demanded was lack of sleep.Cursing as he caught himself. He paused. Was madness setting in? or was it that the voice seemed louder? For a moment he wavered. Silence again filling the air around him. Sick formed in his mouth and he glared furiously at the floor to stop it from coming up on him.
# AHHHH! #
"What the fuck is that noise!" Came a voice from downstairs; Gojyo. he scrambling of a monkey and Hakkai following him.Sanzo's neck snapping upward down the length of the hallways, legs suddenly moving into rapid lengths.He was running. Unsure and unclear as to why, but he was. The sound buzzing in his ears, the voice, the screams.
If he could find it, he could shut it up.
His gun was loaded.
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