Chapter 10

I wasn't too good when it came to funerals whenever I went to one I always got really emotional and felt it was my fault, and since it was partly my fault Hernam was dead I thought I might lose my head a bit.

I had gotten up just before dawn and walked to the burial grounds the air had a cold chill in it and the wind was whipping at my hair.

It was unlikely anyone was up at this time Hernam's burial wasn't supposed to start for another 3 hours.

Hernam's body was already in a trench but the dirt hadn't covered him over. I roamed around the mounds of dirt they each had names, how they died and the date of death on a white cross, nothing else. It didn't seem like much, some words and numbers summing up their whole life.

And then the horror of it kind of hit me. Hernam was sort of my captain not really a friend but he had taught me how to use a sword and a bow when nobody else would, he took his time to show me and Noah how to keep ourselves alive.

And now in about 2 and a half hours he would be under the earth, under six feet of cold heavy soil, separated from me by six feet and by eternity. How could it be possible? I had never considered for a moment it might end like this. I thought Hernam was indestructible always so strong and sure and now he had left.

I stood there looking at what would soon be Hernam's grave for what seemed like 10 minutes when I felt a hand on my shoulder. I jumped and for one stupid second I thought it might have been death I was in a graveyard and did tend to lose my head a bit.

I turned around to see Lancelot looking at me worried and a little guilty. He tucked a piece of stray hair behind my ear as I felt a tear run down my face, I don't think I was crying for Hernam I didn't really know how to act and crying felt like the only sensible thing to do.

Lancelot pulled me closer to him and I cried silently into him I drew away from him when I heard people approaching, Lancelot turned around to see the knights, Noah and a couple of villagers walking towards us. I wiped a tear away and stood up a little straighter I didn't want them to see me cry but had a feeling they already knew.

I turned to face the grave not wanting to look at the knights in case I burst out crying again. Everyone moved around the outside of the grave. I felt someone take and hold my hand firmly I think it was Tristan but was feeling a bit emotional so I didn't want to look my head was spinning as they started piling dirt onto Hernam.

The villagers left when the burial had finished along with some of the knights I took a weary step towards the grave and felt my knees buckle I was never good at funerals especially when it was someone I had know for so long.

I fell on my knees at the side of the grave silent tears were falling down my face I could feel everyone watching me. I looked up at Noah who had knelt down on the opposite side of the grave to me he kept my gaze but didn't say anything just looked anxious.

It was then that I began to get a bit more stable at least it wasn't Lancelot or Noah or Tristan that were 6 feet under the ground it could be a lot worse, I stood up and gave a weak smile to Noah who stood up as well.

I turned and started walking back to the village the second I stepped out of the burial ground area it felt like the air had changed and my thoughts got a lot clearer.

"Move your feet more." Galahad called at me as I ducked Noah's sword

It was late afternoon and Noah and I were sparing, Galahad was giving advice I think they were trying to keep my mind of Hernam but I would probably be over it by tomorrow I appreciated it all the same.

"Move your feet Jess." Galahad called for about the fifth time.

I swung at Noah who dodged around it and aimed a strike at my side.

"Jess move your…" Galahad started to say again before I kicked him in the shins.

"Yes?" I smiled at him

He laughed as I inspected my shoe there was a large rip on the bottom of it I took it off and handed it to Noah

"My shoe broke! I need you to fix it." I said smiling

"Do I look like a cobbler to you?" he said inspecting the shoe.

"If I say yes will you fix it?" I asked taking it back and slipping it on my foot.

"All right I should go, I borrowed this sword from Tristan and promised to get it back by two hours ago, so if I leave now it's sooner than I planned." Noah said smiling and walking off towards the bar.

"Are you ok?" I asked laughing at Galahad who was rubbing his shin.

He laughed and grabbed me around the waist trying to bring me to the ground I struggled free and ran laughing towards the bar, he was running over and stopped when he reached me. I had frozen and was staring into the pub. Galahad followed my gaze over to Lancelot he had a girl on his lap she was leaning down kissing him it wouldn't have been so bad except he was kissing her back quite passionately.

I forced myself to look away Galahad did as well and stopped me as I started to turn and walk away.

"Jess, are you ok?" He asked me holding my shoulder so I couldn't leave.

"Yes, why wouldn't I be?" I asked looking back to Lancelot who was still blissfully kissing the girl.

"What's going on?" Noah asked finally catching up and stopping next to me he followed my gaze and saw Lancelot.

Noah whistled at him laughing he didn't know that I had a thing for Lancelot I had thought he felt the same way but I guess not.

Lancelot broke of from the girl and looked in the direction of the whistle I caught his stare and he quickly pushed the girl off he tried to stand up but was obviously pretty intoxicated and was having trouble.

I turned and walked away before he could even get past the table.

"What?" I heard Noah ask in the distance

I sat on the end of my bed and stared at my feet, 'its not like we were married or anything.' I thought to myself 'nothing was official.' But I still felt let down like he should have told me. I heard a faint knock at my door.

I didn't answer I assumed it was Lancelot coming to drunkenly explain. The knock came again but this time the door pushed slowly open. I was surprised when I saw Galahad walk in. he smiled slowly and walked over sitting next to me on the bed.

"What are you doing?" he asked

"Looking at my shoes." I explained

"Okay…carry on." He said with the faint sound of laughter in his voice.

I smiled but didn't look up although I appreciated Galahad coming in to try and cheer me up.

"Lancelot was drunk." He said changing the subject pretty dramatically.

"He can kiss who he wants." I said coldly

"He wants you." He said I could feel him looking at me but I kept staring at my feet

"He has a funny way of showing it."

"Any guy would be lucky to have you."

"Thanks." I said finally looking at him.

He shrugged, I noticed he was acting a bit different but kept my gaze I felt myself unconsciously moving towards him, he started to move in closer as well. I swallowed hard in anticipation, as he put his hand on the back of my neck to pull me in closer. Our lips nearly met but were interrupted by a loud knock at the door.

I pulled back quickly as he took his hand away.

"Come in." I called standing up and walking closer to the door.

Noah stepped in with an anxious look on his face.

"Saxons." He said looking from me to Galahad

We hurried out to the wall from the top I couldn't see them but the sound of their drums were unmistakable, they would be here by morning.

The villagers were packing up there things getting ready to leave at first light I got a shock when I saw some of the knights doing it as well. I hurried over to where they were.

"What are you doing?" I asked them as they looked up

"Were leaving, our service to Rome has ended." Gawain said

"Get your things." Tristan said to me not looking up.

"I'm not leaving…Noah what?" I said looking at Noah who was packing things into a bag.

"You're coming with us." Noah said to me more as a question.

"No I'm not." I said stubbornly

"You may not care if you live or die but others do." Noah said razing his voice slightly

"Noah you can't go, I need you the team needs you." I said

"What team?" he said looking back to his bag.

"Pick a team – it needs you." I said walking over to him it probably wasn't fair to ask Noah to stay when there were about 5000 Saxons heading this way but I didn't see how they could just leave.

Tristan and Noah both looked up at me at the same time.

Forget it." I said shaking my head before either one of them had the chance to say anything.

HI sorry if this is a bit late schools started back up and its yr 12 so… yeah what do you think of my story? Thank you so much to Gryffindor-seeker I did what you said I'm not sure if it shows in this chapter but I get how to do descriptive writing a bit more now and I've got a sick English class this year so ill pay attention.

Thank you for your suggestion Dazzler420 did I elaborate more in this chapter? I added more to the funeral say in a review if I need to detail more.

Ha-ha sorry starnat my fault I guess he hadn't been buried…surprise! No only joking my bad I forgot to say he hadn't. :)

Thank you Meraculas for taking time to do that I hope you review again!