Hello one and all. Your friendly neighborhood azarathgirl here with the dailt update.
Disclaimer: Raven's turn
Raven: Doesn't own Teen Titans.
Me: At least Raven has the decency to just stand there, unlike Robin.
Raven: Okay ...
I Was Lost
"I don't know, Raven. I could have been anything." Bruce began. "But don't worry about it, you're goig home tomorrow anyway." That wasn't a good enough answer for me, and I could tell it wasn't a good enough answer for Robin either. "I don't care if I'm leaving tomorrow! We need answers." This is obliviously getting us nowhere. Robin looks from me to Bruce and back. From what I can tell, Robin has become more calm natured over the past five years.
I sit down out of frustaion. Calm down, Raven. Okay, so it was a rattled elevator. No big deal right? Then why do I feel likesomething was going terribly wrong? Why do I feel like someones after one of the three of us?
Robin puts his hand on my shoulder. "Raven, calm down. It was probably just a malfuntion." Malfuntion! What happened to Robin the Boy Wonder; aka Mr. Parinoid - About - Nothing? I really do know I shouldn't be freaking out about this, but I am. I can feel deep down in my gut that that incident wasn't just coencidence, but an attack, either on Robin or me. But who konws that Robin is here?
I slowly lurk up to my room. I seriously need to consider going back to Titans Tower with Robin. As much as I love them all, I don't know if I can handle it. Robin, I can tell, really wants me to go back. But if I go back to being a Titan, what will happen? I'm twenty - one, and still have never had a proper boyfriend. Going back to the Titans could ruin my chances of ever being happily married with a family.
My head keeps spinning with these thoughts. Robin intterupts them by knocking on my door. "What!" I say in my classic monotone. This slightly angers Robin. "Don't get an attitude, Raven." he says, coming in the door. "I have every right to get an attitude, Dick. Something's wrong, I can feel it in my gut.Robin knows better then to get on my bad side. But seeing the look in his eyes, I sigh. "I'm sorry, Richard." What am I going at?
"Are you going to back with me?" Robin suddenly asked. He knows I've been thinking about it. "Richard, I ... I... no." I don't want to dissappoint him, but I just can go back. My life doesn't revolve around the Titans anymore. I can go back to that life! I just can't!
I see the poor, sad look on his face. "Robin ..." I start, but he cuts me off. "I don't want to hear it." he says in an almost growl like voice. I get up from my spot on my bed and walk to him as he starts walking out the door. "Stop right there, Richard Wayne Grayson!" I exclaim at him.
He freezes in the doorway. "What Raven! What! You leave whenyou're sixteen and don't even bother to tell us, and then five years later when I'm asking you to come back, you say that you can't leave our life behind! Well you know what Raven, it's bull shit! I know you could, Rave ..." I cut him off. "RICHARD WAYNE GRAYSON, I WILL NOT TAKE THIS FROM YOU! WHAT MAKES YOU THINK YOU CAN YELL AT ME FOR CHOOSING WHAT I WANT TO DO WITH MY LIFE!" He knows me all to well. He doesn't, however know about the riddance of my father. But from past experiance, he thinks I'm going to let him loose.
"Fine, Raven." he whispers. "Do what you want with your life. But don't ever excpect to see me or any of the other Titans ever again." I glare at him. "Get. Out. Now." I say as nicely as I can manage. He glares right back at me. Richard leaves. And I can't wait until I leave this house. Or at least leave this man for the rest of my life.
Later that day, I'm packing my bags, when Robin walks back in. I turn my back from him and roll my eyes. "What on all ofmy fathers domaindo you want?" I ask, venom dripping from my voice. He somehow has the nerve to sit next to me on my bed. "Raven, I'm ... I'm sorry. You're right. I have no right to tell you how to run my life." I look at him. "Robin, you are my best friend. But I just can't be a Titan again. At least not right now." He hooks on to my last words. "But nonethless, I can't go back to that."
He looks at me, and takes my hand. I suddenly look up at him. "Robin, what are you doing?" Realizing what he's doing, he drops my hand. "Raven, I ... I.. just, you know where to find me if you ever need me." I nod. "Hey, Robin? Can you not tell the others?" He nods. "Raven?" I nod. "Can you give me your phone number?" I smile. "Sure, Richard, sure."
I move over to the table and grab a notebook and a pen. I scribble the numbers 557 - 666 - 0958. I tear the piece of paper from the notebook and hand it to Robin. "Call me, k?" He chuckles. "No, Raven, I didn't ask you for your number so I could just not call you." I playfully slap his shoulder. "You are ridculous, Dick, very ridculous."
Dick gets up and walks out. I turn back to my packing. I look up to the dresser and see the old picture of David and me. I grab it. Will I ever get a proper boyfriend? Will I ever get married? Will I ever have a family?
"Bruce! We're leaving!" I yell, luggage in hand.Bruce, Alfred, and Dick come scurring down the hall. Alfred grabs my bags and takes them out to my car. Bruce scoops me up and gives me a great big hug. "I'm gonna miss you, kiddo." I smile. "I'll miss you too, Bruce." It's Dick's turn to give his goodbye. He comes and gives me a friendly hug. "Will I ever see you again?" he asks. I look into his deep green eyes (A/N see footnotes). "Yes, Robin, yes you will." I don't know how, but I know I will.
Before I turn out the door and leave, I decide something that's probably not the best idea. I turn to face him, and give him a kiss on the cheek. Then I turn back to go out to the door, leaving a very shocked Richard Grayson in the doorway of Wayne Manor.
"Anna, it's your turn to drive." I say, rousing my good friend. "Wha ... huh?" she says. "Your. Turn. To. Drive." I spell out for her. She finally gets the message, and we both get out of the car. I slowly start to dose off as we reach the freeway. I really am glad my apartments three hours from Wayne Manor.
Footnotes:
Thanks for all your reviews, they mean alot. I'd thank you alll individually if I wasn't lazy and didn't have a head ache.
I said Robin had deep green eyes. I know this isn't true, he has blue eyes. But in earlier chapters, I had said he had green eyes, forgetting he had blue.
This is not the end of the story. This is the beggining of the middle.
Later,
AZARATHGIRL