Disclaimer: I do not own the song Perfect or The Outsiders, the are owned by S.E Hinton and Simple Plan
Hey dad look at me
Think back and talk to me
Did I grow up according to plan?
And do you think I'm wasting my time doing things I wanna do?
But it hurts when you disapprove all along
"Get outta my house!" Steve was thrown outside. Again. He sighed, he liked the Curtis' but it just wasn't the same as having your dad care about you.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
He walked along the sidewalk to the Curtis'. It would be getting late soon and he didn't want to wake anyone up. He just wanted to make his dad proud. But however much he tried he kept getting kicked out of the house anyway.
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't pretend that
I'm alright
And you can't change me
He had tried to change for his dad. He tried real hard. He worked hard at school and he worked hard at his job. It was just never enough.
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
He just couldn't be perfect. And it wasn't his fault.
I try not to think
About the pain I feel inside
Did you know you used to be my hero?
All the days you spent with me
Now seem so far away
And it feels like you don't care anymore
Steve couldn't even remember a time when his dad had even remotely cared about him. Sure, sometimes he'd give Steve a couple of bucks after he had been harsh. But it had never made Steve feel any better. When someone hurts you, it takes more than a bribe to feel better.
And now I try hard to make it
I just want to make you proud
I'm never gonna be good enough for you
I can't stand another fight
And nothing's alright
He walked into the Curtis' house and saw Soda sitting on the couch silently smoking.
"Hey Soda. You alright?"
Soda looked up at him, "yeah, I'm okay. You?"
"Yeah, I'm fine." Steve lied. He didn't want to talk about how his dad was upsetting him. Soda had enough on his mind with Sandy breaking up with him and all. He didn't need to hear Steve complain too.
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Steve sat next to Soda and Soda put out the cigarette. He smiled at Steve.
"Night!" He said disappearing into his room.
"Night!" Steve called back and he lied back onto the couch.
Nothing's gonna change the things that you said
Nothing's gonna make this right again
Please don't turn your back
I can't believe it's hard
Just to talk to you
But you don't understand
Steve tried, but he couldn't sleep. He kept thinking about the things his dad had said to him. He kept thinking about how he told Steve not to come back, and what a lousy son he was. He had tried so hard this week too.
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
It was just too late to get to know his dad. His dad would never understand how much it hurt him every time he said those things. He would never understand that Steve got enough grief just by being a greaser.
'Cause we lost it all
Nothing lasts forever
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
Now it's just too late and
We can't go back
I'm sorry
I can't be perfect
I can't be perfect, Steve thought, but I sure as hell tried.