(A.N Boo! Thankoo for the reviews for the previous chapters -) I loof them. And it will get better...I hope. I just have to hurry up and write them! Sowee there all taking so long...if I get some encouraging reviews I'll hurry up : D)

"Right, use anyone of the spells I've taught you to kill her." Ciaran said with a smile. I looked at the girl. I couldn't kill her could I? No. But what will happen if I don't? I didn't move not knowing what to do. In the last month Ciaran had taught me everything he knew. I listened and forced my self to do as I was told. But I had never been asked to do anything like this. I looked at the pathetic child. Where had Ciaran found her? She didn't look like she had eaten in a good while or like she has ever had a shower, where she had been living I didn't want to know but I couldn't take her life.

"I can't" I said it was barley more than a whisper I'm surprised Ciaran even heard me.

"I think you will." Ciarans smile slid off his face.

"I just can't do it." The girl looked terrified she could have only been about 14, probably run away from home.

"You will or I'll get that seeker in here and you can kill him instead." My eyes filled with tears. Nobody had mentioned Hunter to me since I got here. I had tried not to think about him too much to try and avoid braking down completely. But I couldn't of course. I never stopped thinking about him, not really. I have to do this. If I didn't he would kill Hunter. I had closed myself to the last if my feelings and just do it. Forget my fear. I whispered to harsh words, putting all my pain into them, my anger at Ciaran for doing this to me.

The girl collapsed dead at my feet. I knelt down and touched her skin she was icy cold.

"Well done, that was beautifully done. A shame you had to be like that before." His words didn't even reach me. The girl's eyes were still open I closed them I couldn't stand her staring out at me, her killer. I ran upstairs away from her. Ciaran called after me but I barley heard him. Is this it? Have I finally surrendered to him now? I've given up everything now. Theres nothing left for me to loose. I can't ever go back now even if I found a way. How could Hunter ever understand. How could he even look at me if he knew. Every time I touched his skin I would remember the icy coldness of hers. I had killed someone. I had really killed someone, I promised myself it would never get to this, I thought I would have got away long before now, I didn't know how, I just thought…I thought Hunter would have come and saved me. That's what I thought. Had he just abandoned me here? Forgotten me? Am I not worth the danger and the struggle it would take to save me? He hasn't even tried. Well its too late now, I can't be saved, I've gone beyond that. All these thoughts swirled in my head confusing me.

Tears roll down my checks, nobody's going to come, especially not Hunter. The darkness inside me has just been biding its time, now it's claimed me. I can't hide anymore. I look down, blood covers my hands, and there wasn't any blood when I killed the girl but my hands were covered in it. I ran to the bathroom and scrub viciously at them with soap. It made no difference. The lies I told myself are coming apart in front of my eyes. I'm not who Hunter told me I was, I never could be good. If I could have been that part of me is lost. The blood on my hands is proof of that. That part of me is dead now.

All because of Ciaran, did he know how much pain he had caused did he care? Would he if he knew? No, he wouldn't care as long as he got what he wanted. Not anymore, I'm not going to be his puppet, not anymore. I had killed a girl now, I was as pathetic as I used to be. I have found the strength inside of me, to do it. I would find the strength to go on and get my revenge on him.

I went into a deep meditation. I search my own mind for the binding spell on me. I had tried this before, it wasn't too hard to find but I couldn't brake it. Not this time, I was going to brake it and then it would only be a matter of time. I would figure out the best way to put him through what he has put me though. I would take revenge for me and for everyone he's ever hurt. It's not going to be easy but I have that to live for. And I'll enjoy it when I do. He will pay for what he's done.

The binding that protected Amyranth from me broke. It no longer held me here. All that held me here now was revenge. I would learn everything I could off him and then make him suffer forever. I surrendered to the darkness that was consuming me and the last of me died.

I looked in the mirror, the same Morgan I had always been stared back at me. I looked so much the same yet but the evil inside showed through. I couldn't look at myself. My long brown hair looked so much as it had done for the last few years. I grabbed at it with my fingers trying to rip it out. It didn't, I grabbed the scissors from the shelf and cut huge pieces of my hair off until it hung just above my shoulders unevenly. I still looked the same! I threw my fist at the mirror. Shards of shattered mirror flew across the room sharp as razor blades. My hand was bleeding mixing with the blood that already covered them. I ran it under the water this time the blood washed off easily. I dried my hands and tied my hair back. I would go to the hairdressers later and get it done properly. I left the mirror. I could have fixed it by magick but I didn't want to. I didn't want it there reflecting everything I didn't want to see. I saw me, the real me, I saw through all the lies my life had been built around and for once saw the truth.