Sessol Seeker: I'm really happy that my fic evokes such emotions. And do have a sibling elder brother and understand that siblings don't really like sharing things they like. xD in my case we often argue about computer xD"
1) 'I'll' is not mine.
2) All those mistakes also aren't mine. ;P
3) If somebody would be such a good person and let me know that there are more than 4 people reading this fic I'd be thankful. ;
4) Enjoy, although I consider this chapter as boring but important!;.
THE SCENT OF THE SEA
CHAPTER 4
I hear a weird sound.
Like a humming of the waves.
And this scent...so familiar...
This scent...
I slowly open my eyes.
And I see...the sea.
A day is cloudy and only now I realize how cold it is.
I'm laying on the sand and it's cold.
Cold...
and lonely.
I lay and remember why I woke up here.
I remember last night.
I feel everything I felt yesterday. Yesterday's joy and yesterday's sadness.
I feel numb from the cold and the sand is sticking to my face. I don't care to wipe it out. I don't care to move. I lay like this for some time and let my tears flow freely down my face.
Finally I get up and slowly make my way to my aunt's place.
I look like a crap. My clothes are crumpled and dirty with sand, my hair are messy, my eyes are red and puffy from crying. That's why I'm not surprised by strange looks others give me.
When I finally reach my destination I quietly enter the house, take my shoes off and head to my room. I ignore my aunt asking if I'm hungry.
I shut the door to my room and just stand looking at it.
What should I do now?
Should I act like nothing happened?
Could I face him just like that?
Should I even stay here?
Maybe I should just pack my things and leave?
Go back to Negotoura and forget about him? Just like he wanted me to?
But why?
Why do you reject your own feelings, Hitonari?
Why you want me to forget?
Thoughts like that don't leave my head for the next seven days. During this time I don't do anything else. I hardly eat, drink or sleep.
I look like a ghost.
Yama comes to visit me two...no, three times.
He says they've been worrying about me. I don't care.
My aunt is worrying about me also.
She finally gets fed up with me and throws me out of the house for a day.
I wander here and there and visit old places.
I go to see my old house.
I stay in front of a block of flats I used to live in and once again memories come back.
Now I see how Sumire always tried to gain my attention.
Why couldn't I fell in love with her?
Everything would be so simple then.
Why do I fell in love with you instead, Hitonari?
Why do I love you?
-Akane? Akaneee!
I wake up from my thoughts.
-Sumire?
-What brings you here?
-I just wanted to see how my former house is doing.
-Ah...So, why aren't you seeing our pack anymore?
It was really straightforward question. Something you usually don't expect from her.
I fell silent and try to give her a hint I don't want to talk about it.
-Is it somehow connected to Hiiragi?
I'm taken aback.
How does she know?
-Why do you ask?
-Well, he also hasn't been coming since that day at the beach. Did something happen?
-Should it?
-You were staring at him all day long back then and you left soon after he did. I thought...
-Then you apparently think too much!
-Don't you want to talk about it? You know you can trust me. I'm you childhood...
-Sumire, I don't want to talk about it with anyone!
I know that I make her feel bad but it's mine and Hitonari's problem.
-Do whatever you want! But I care for you and I don't want you to get hurt. Nor do I want Hiiragi!
-What! Him! Hurt! Are you insane! He is the one hurting me! I...I would never ever hurt him, so don't you dare...
-Well, it's just what Saeki said!
-What are you talking about?
She sighes.
-You do remember that Yama visited you?
I nod.
-Kanemoto went to Hiiragi. Twice. But at both times nobody opened the door. He said that he was quite sure that Hiiragi was home but simply didn't want to answer. And then, it was three days ago I think, Saeki said she had met him at a supermarket.
I try to look indifferent but Sumire knows better than that and continues talking.
-She said that she had approached him but he hadn't seen her at first. He had seemed lost in his thoughts deeply. He had been worn out, his eyes had been terribly red and puffy. Just like yours...He just said that he was alright but he had a few things he needed to think about.
So it did have an impact on him also...
-Saeki said he had been asking about you.
No way.
Don't do this.
Don't do this to me, Sumire.
Don't say anything anymore, don't make me hope for nothing again.
-When she answered she had no idea because she hadn't seen you for a few days he fell silent. Next he quickly said a 'goodbye' and nearly ran away.
Fool.
I am a fool.
Because I start to hope again.
The rest of Sumire's words don't reach me.
I consider what I should do now.
Should I continue like this?
No.
Should I run away to Negotoura?
No, at least not yet.
Is it worth trying again?
Probably yes.
Because if what Sumire said was true then maybe he will act differently now?
I spun around and run in a direction of Hiiragi's flat, ignoring Sumire's angry screams.
One last time...
I swear.
One last time I will let myself being a fool.
Because if being a fool means having you by my side I can be a fool for the rest of my life.
Thinking this I end up in front of Hitonari's door. I reach out my hand and push a doorbell.
I hear soft ringing and light, slow footsteps.
I always used to have what I wanted.
And I was always doing what I felt like doing.
So in order to get rid of me either you'll have to kick my ass or give me a good reason.
The doors open.
I tense.
-Akane...
We look each other in the eye.
-Come in.
TBC
O.O
Hm...this chapter was definitely a strange one.
And a bit boring also. oO"
But don't worry, wait for the rest.
I DO not like Sumire. But when I was thinking about a person who would be suitable for this scene I only saw her. Because she is one of the people who know Akane best after all - there's no point denying it. xD"