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Verdenda: Feel free to draw doji basing on this if you want. xD I'll be more than happy. xDDD And about Akane's OOCness, some time ago on my lj, replying to a comment, I said that if Akane and Hito weren't OOC they'd never get together. xD" Or at least it'd be hard for them considering they characters.
1) Of course, I'll is not mine but Asada-sensei's.
2) I'm sorry for the mistakes.
3) Please enjoy.
THE SCENT OF THE SEA
CHAPTER 5
I look at him and come in. He slowly closes the door and we make our way further into the flat.
-You want some tea?
He asks softly. I nod and sit down at the table.
Everything seems so silent and steady here.
And lonely also.
So much different from the last time I've been here.
We wait in silence until water boils and Hitonari makes tea. Then he gives me my mug and sits down at the table beside me.
Now the atmosphere becomes even more unbearable.
-I came here because I can't leave it like that.
I look at him, he seems to listen so I continue.
-I met Sumire. She told me that Saeki had met you accidentally.
-And?
-And Saeki said that you had things you needed to think about. So I thought...
-You thought what?
It's hard to do all the talking since I don't like talks like that but I have to try.
-I thought that maybe you re-thought what you had told me back then and...
-Akane, I did.
Hope? Is there any hope?
-But I came to the same conclusion. We can't be together.
-Why?
He falls silent.
-Just split it. I want to know.
I have to know.
He looks at me and I take a sip of tea because my throat feels terribly dry.
It doesn't help.
-so?
My voice is hoarse.
-When you confessed to me I was scared, because it was the first time I've realized what my feelings for you are. But I thought that for two guys to be together...That it'd completely destroy us someday. That's why I didn't answer. And I regret it now, because...I've made a decision. You remember when I told you about problems with my family piling up?
I nod and only listen, although I want to scream at him for what he said earlier.
-I decided to change this situation. I started thinking about a way to do so, because it's our last year in high school and I have more opportunities. And then my family from Tokyo visited during Golden Week. I talked with my uncle about basketball. He said that in Tokyo there are many professional clubs which I could join.
Oh no...
-And since they don't have children he said I could come to Tokyo to try my luck in professional basket, because they'd let me stay with them. Even my father agreed. And I was more than eager for this.
I stare at him.
So that's why you don't want to start anything between us now, right?
-It's been my dream for so long. And now I got a chance to make this dream come true.
He sounds pleading, wants me to understand.
Your dream will come true.
I understand...
I love you and if you want to fulfill your dream...
-But you came back. Up until now, when you weren't here and I didn't see you, my feelings subdued and I...I didn't think about 'us' because I thought there is no chance for 'us' to be anymore. When I met you a week ago I was really happy. I thought that it was a new chance. But soon after I remembered my plans...That's why I tried...
-Tokyo, hmmm? All the way to Tokyo. It's really far.
-I know. But I told you I had no idea I'd meet you again.
I want him to be happy. I'd like to make it my own happiness.
So why do my eyes water?
I want you to be happy, Hitonari.
And I don't want you to regret giving up this chance for me...
I look at him. A determined look in my eyes.
-I understand. It's a pity, though.
-Akane...
-I regret that I left. That I didn't make you talk two years ago. That's why when I came here now...
I don't end my line.
I get the impression he'll cry anytime soon.
That I'll cry anytime soon also.
-I want you to fulfill your dream. You've been working for it for so long.
I look away and we fell silent for a moment.
-I'm so sorry, Akane. I didn't want to hurt you like this...If only I had known that you'll come back...
-Tokyo is so far from Negotoura. I understand why you tried to push me away...And although...
God, I never was good with feelings but I must tell him this.
-Although it hurts like hell...I...I want you...to go to Tokyo. Because to make you happy...I can give up everything.
-Don't say it like that. It only makes me feel worse. You know, sometimes I wish I had never fallen for you. I wish we could just stay friends. Be the way we used to be.
Be the way we used to be.
Me too. I used to cherish our friendship.
You mean the whole world to me.
But I can't tell you that.
I have to put a brave face on and cheat us both that I'm fine with it.
And I'll do this.
I'll do this because I don't want to be a burden to you.
-Maybe we could try being just friends again?
-You really want this?
No.
-Yeah.
We fall silent again. I drink my tea to calm myself down. I won't cry in front of him.
-Okay. So I will be going now.
We both get up and he walks me to the door.
-Let's not get our friends involved in this more than they already are and let's start seeing them again, okay?
-Okay.
I open the door.
-Thanks for coming...
I turn around. We look at each other for some time.
Just friends from now?
-Bye.
-Bye.
He closes the door.
I walk slowly towards my aunts home.
We both are such fools.
I let go of him so easily. And I promised myself otherwise.
I am a lair.
I can't be friends with you.
And I don't think I can pretend that everything is okay.
Because it never will be.
I want to disappear from here.
I can't face him anymore.
I made up my mind.
I
reach my aunt's home and announce her news. She is surprised, because I
was supposed to stay here for three weeks. I briefly explain the reason
and she understands.
That night I hardly sleep.
I think about all the good times. About a way it could be.
I know that I'm running away.
But I don't want to be hurt anymore.
Next day I get up at 6 a.m.
Because at 7 a.m. I have a train to Negotoura.
TBC
Ups. They messed everything up!
Oh and now an explanation because maybe somebody doesn't know:
the
school year in Japan start in April, so now - during summer holiday -
our Kouzu pack is still in 3rd class. And they will be till next year.
So in the next chapter they still will be in final class. oO
Just to make sure everybody gets what's going on next time. xD
It's the fifth chapter, we are coming to the end. The next chap will be the last one.
So please, let me know how you liked this one.