"I'm going insane without him", She thought to herself.

She heard a knock on the door and she thought it most likely wasn't for she wrote the letter and set it on her desk.

She took the pills and swallowed the entire bottles. She was choking so she grabbed her half empty bottle of tequila and finished that up to.

SUMMER'S POV

She went into Marissa's house her mom answered they said hi and as she was walking up the stairs. I heard a giant thud. I ran into the room. It was her Marissa. On the floor passed out. Now I saw her passed out one million times before but seeing her today sent a tingle down my spine. I looked at her desk letters. One to me one to her family and one to Ryan. I called 911 I am now at the hospital. I don't know if I should call Ryan. I guess I should.

The phone rang and he answered almost instantly.

"Hello", He said unaware of the bombshell that was about to come.

"Ryan, come to the hospital right away it's about Marissa I will explain later.

RYAN'S POV

I am so stupid how I could leave her. He didn't love Theresa and now Marissa could be dead because of me. I am in the hospital parking lot. I am racing up to the hospital room and I just saw summer.

"Summer, what happened?" He said .

She told him the story.

Then, she gave him the letter.

He read the letter

Dear Ryan,

I am sorry I did this to you. I love you but this world is too much of a burden. I feel like my life is spiraling out of control

I needed you. I needed you more. I know that I should have told you what I was thinking it is just I didn't want to intrude.

You will be my last thought

I am an outsider and I can't handle it,

It is okay though. I'm sorry.

How could you know
That behind my eyes a sad girl cried
And how could you know
That I hurt so much inside
And how could you know
That I'm not the average girl
I'm carrying the weight of the world
 You were my escape from Newport, My Mom, Drinking and Drama in General.

I needed my escape. But you weren't here some nights I would

Dream you came back and we just went

In my car. I am so sorry. I am so sorry. I am so sorry.


So can you get me outta here
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive till the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Over It
I always feel like in Newport I act like someone I'm not.

Everyone sees me perfect.

Perfect Hair. Teeth. Family.

But they don't see me cry. I cry every night.

I always feel alone.

No one knows the real Marissa cooper

The Marissa cooper that cries inside.


I'm playin the role
Of the happy girl
But no one knows
Inside I'm alone
But I would never let it show
I get everyday
Too much work and not enough play
Over and over
It's always the same

I'm sorry that I did this. I couldn't do this anymore.

I needed to get out of this place.

You are the first and last person I loved.

I want to thank you for all you have done.But you can make everything OK...
Take me away
We'll jump in the car
Drive till the gas runs out and then walk so far
That we can't
See this place anymore
Take a day off
Give it a rest
So I can forget about this mess
If I lighten up a little bit,
Then I will be
Over It
Over it

I'm sorry and I love you

Love,

Marissa