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"Speaking" Thinking Reading/Writing :"Speaking in another language":
Title: Traces of Mistakes
Author: Leenie Chan
Chapter two: It was only a kiss
Harry immediately pushed Ginny away at the sound of his name being screamed out in an angry fury. Ginny squealed and fell backwards off his lap and onto the hard carpeted floor, her arms fraying in all directions as she fell. Usagi stood rooted to the spot in horror as Harry turned around. It hadn't just been her imagination.
"Usagi—I can—it's not what you—" Harry moved towards her, scrambling over the back of the couch to get to her.
The blonde stepped back, swiping furiously at the tears falling from her eyes. "How could you?"
Harry, aided by his seeker skills managed to catch Usagi's wrist before she could retreat. He held her tightly, pulling her towards him despite her struggles. "Please—you have to listen to me—Usagi!"
Usagi shook her head, trying to squirm out of his grip. She felt as helpless as the golden snitch when it was locked into his palm. "No. Let me go Harry I don't—No! How could you—Let me go!"
"Usagi—"
"I SAID LET GO OF ME!" She screamed, her free hand moving so fast it made contact with his face and he was unable to block it off. Harry stumbled at the sudden shock of being attacked by Usagi, and released her from his grasp. She gave him one more murderous look before fleeing upstairs to the girl's dormitories.
The music had come to a sudden pause, and the talking and laughing had turned to tense silence after witnessing such a scene, starring Hogwarts's most promising couple. Nobody dared open their mouths, and they held onto their breath tightly, their eyes watching the shocked Harry fingering the burning sensation exploding from the fierce red handprint across his left cheek.
Hermione's voice broke through the silence, and she pointed her wand at the wireless stereo system, "Come on everyone, that's enough for tonight. You'd think we'd won the house cup by this party," She waved her wand again at the punch bowl, "If McGonagall comes up here who knows how many points we would lose."
Grumbling and complaints met Hermione's voice as the students slowly began to shuffle towards their dorm rooms. Soon all that was left in the worn old common room was Harry, Hermione, Minako and the present Weasley's including Fred, George and Ron. Harry stood rooted to the spot in horror, Usagi's eyes filled with tears flashing painfully through his mind.
How could he have ever allowed himself to hurt her like that? What the bloody hell had he been thinking? It wasn't meant to happen like that. It wasn't even meant to happen! He wouldn't ever cheat on Usagi…
But he did.
He would never even dream of hurting Usagi the way he had hurt her just then. She had been his first serious relationship, and he'd blown it big time. He'd never felt the way he felt about Usagi about anyone before. The only other person that had come close to the closeness he felt with Usagi was Sirius. It tore Harry to pieces to know he may have just lost both of those things now.
It had always been Usagi that he'd been able to talk to since his first year. It was just something about that bright blonde girl who always was hidden behind him that made him realise he could trust her with anything. She didn't hang out with him, Hermione and Ron though. She had her own friends, interestingly enough from each of the three other houses.
After Sirius had fallen through the vile, Harry couldn't describe how he felt inside. It was just so unbearably painful no words could never come near to the agony his heart felt. But once he'd returned to Grimmauld place, Usagi had managed to help him find the light in the darkness. She had the talent of being able to listen to someone and know exactly what to say to make them feel better.
But back then, Usagi was in a relationship with Mamoru Chiba, a boy who used to be in Ravenclaw but graduated from Hogwarts two years ago. And that's when Harry realised how much he cared for Usagi. That's when he realised that she was the one he wanted to be with. She was the one he wanted to win the war against Voldemort to protect. It was all for Usagi.
And he'd just killed her.
He betrayed her.
"What the hell were you doing?" Minako was the one to break the silence as she took a demanding step towards the boy-who-lived, "How could you do that to her?"
Harry hid his face in his hands. What the hell had he done? "Minako—I—it wasn't what it looked like. It was nothing. I don't even know what over came me. It was nothing."
"Neither do I, Harry! Merlin! Why did you let it happen?" Harry hung his head to the ground, unable to handle the stares he was attracting from his friends any more. "Do you know what you've done to her?"
"Yes." He answered in a small voice, "I broke her."
"You bet you broke her. You just broke her heart Harry!" Minako snarled, all traces of the kind girl she usually was disappeared, "She gave up Mamoru for you, and this is how you repay her! How dare you use her like that!"
"I never meant to hurt her, Minako! I don't even know what I was thinking! I would never cheat on Usagi, I would never hurt her like that. She means the world to me and so much more."
"Well it was quite clear you weren't thinking about her!" Minako retaliated. "She wanted so much to be with you tonight!"
"If she wanted so much to be with him, then why couldn't she put off her studying for one night? None of this would have happened if—" Ron came to life, defending his best friend but was cut off by Minako.
"Don't you dare blame this on Usagi, Weasley!" She sneered.
Harry fell into the seat behind him and buried his head in his hands. "Ron, it's my fault. It's all my fault, Minako is right." He whispered. "I was waiting for her by the portrait, and Ginny came up to me. She—she offered to stay with me until Usagi came back. We went and danced a bit, had a few drinks—and then—it was only a kiss. I never meant to hurt her."
"So, now its Ginny's fault? My God Harry! You are unbelievable! Take the fall for your own mistakes!" The blonde stormed off towards the staircase leading to the dormitories, she turned back to face Harry once more, "Just stay away from her. Stay the hell away from her."
Harry watched Minako disappear through the door to the girl's dormitories, but somehow knew it wasn't over yet. Tomorrow would be hell. He sighed heavily, he felt as though he'd already lost the battle against Voldemort, and he was just waiting to be killed now.
The door to Usagi's dorm slowly creaked open, and a head of red hair poked their face in through the doorframe nervously. "Usagi?" Ginny called into the room, "Usagi—I know I don't deserve your forgiveness—I'm probably the last person you want to see right now—but I just wanted you to know how sorry I am."
The blonde rabbit showed no signs of hearing the sixth year girl. Her hysterical sobbing muffled by her pillow continued to echo through the bedroom, and she made choking noises, causing Ginny to grimace at what she'd done.
"It really meant nothing, Usagi. It was only a kiss. Please don't be mad with Harry. It was my fault. If you are mad at anyone it should be me. Please don't be mad with Harry." Ginny hesitated, and chose not to approach the girl. "I'm really sorry, Usagi."
Distantly over her sobs she heard the sound of more feet coming towards the dormitory, and Ginny had barely closed the door a few seconds before it burst open again, this time by Minako. "Usagi…" Minako sighed, moving into the room and pulling Usagi's hangings to the side.
Parvati and Lavender followed her and sat down on Usagi's bed, resting their hands on the girl's back gently. Usagi gave a loud moan, followed by another sob. "It's going to be alright, Usa."
Usagi coughed into her pillow, shifting her head slightly to make certain the three couldn't see her face. No. It wasn't going to be alright at all.
"Yeah, Parvati's right. Forget about Harry." Minako rested her hand on top of Usagi's head, gently toying with the golden locks. "You can't ever trust guys… you need Harry as much as a fish needs a bicycle."
"But—I—I thought I could trust—" Usagi moaned, her sobbing increasing as she thought about it.
Lavender drew circles over the blonde's back with her fingers, sighing hopelessly, "You don't need Harry, Usagi."
Minako nodded enthusiastically, "Of course you don't! You were perfectly happy before you were going out with him."
Another tear rolled down her face. They didn't know how it felt to be with Harry. None of them had ever been in a relationship with him. They didn't know how she felt. She was in love with him. As far as she was concerned, Harry was the one she wanted to be with for the rest of her life, and now that she didn't have him, she had nothing.
Parvati had had many boyfriends over the years. None of them had been very serious at all. Currently she was dating a Ravenclaw boy; Usagi couldn't remember his name though. It had been someone her twin sister Padma had set her up with, and they'd been seeing each other for two weeks now.
Lavender Brown was also a very pretty girl, and she had also had many boyfriends in the past. Currently she wasn't seeing anyone, but she had become interested in a Muggle boy living across the road from her. She'd seen him staring at her on many occasions, and she was waiting for him to ask her out. She knew he'd ask her out these Christmas holidays.
Minako hadn't had a boyfriend that Usagi could recall, despite how pretty she was. She'd been asked out several times by people from all the houses, even Slytherin, but she'd turned them all down, claiming she wanted the perfect guy for her, despite all the time she spent drooling over the odd hot guy that wandered down the hall in front of her.
It was obvious to Usagi, Parvati and Lavender that Seamus Finnegan liked Minako. He always took any opportunity he was dealt to approach her, and attempt to charm her. However, he had yet to actually ask her out, for he knew of her history with guys, and wanted to build a strong friendship between them before he asked her out. Kind of like the one Harry and Usagi have—
Had.
That sentence needed to be made past tense.
No, Parvati, Lavender and Minako knew nothing of what she was feeling right now.
"Forget that stupid git," Minako advised softly, "You don't need him."
Yes she did.
"Yeah, besides, it's Harry's loss in the end, not yours." Lavender added, "You're so pretty, Usagi, you can get any guy you want here."
She didn't want any other guy here.
She wanted Harry.
Usagi had given everything up for him. She'd been dating Mamoru when she realized she was falling in love with Harry. Poor Mamoru knew it was coming. She was spending all her time with Harry after Sirius died and the two became closer and closer until they were inseparable. That was the worst mistake of her life. Mamoru had been so good to her. And she'd left him for Harry, the boy who just broke her heart.
The door to their dormitory opened, and Hermione slipped in. The blonde heard Hermione sigh over her sobs and listened to Hermione's shuffled footsteps as they came closer. "Are you alright, Usa?"
Nothing.
"Harry feels really bad…" Hermione whispered, "So does Ginny."
"So he should, the jackass." Minako snapped back.
Hermione let that one slide. "Come on, its time to get some sleep you four. We've got classes tomorrow."
The girls watched as Hermione left them to go and change in the bathroom. Minako got up off Usagi's bed and Lavender and Parvati followed suit.
"Don't worry about it, Usa," Minako said gently, her fingers enclosing around the hangings on Usagi's bed, "It'll all be better in the morning, just get some sleep now."
Usagi listened to her friends move around the dormitory to their own beds, sliding between their sheets and closing the hangings around their beds. They called out a final goodnight to each other before Hermione blew out the candles, and Usagi was left to cry herself to sleep alone.
The blonde rabbit groaned lightly the next morning and rolled over between her sheets. Light seeped through her hangings and she listened to the shuffling of her friends as they move around the dormitory preparing themselves for the day ahead.
Her eyes slowly open revealing bloodshot orbs. Her memory of last night was as blurry as her vision at the moment. She remembered walking through the common room, looking for Harry and then somehow ending up in here crying herself to sleep.
"Come on lazy," Her curtains were forced open and Hermione's irritably cheerful voice floated down to her. "You've got to get up and get ready."
Usagi groaned again as the blankets were stripped from her body. She balled herself up for warmth. "I don't feel so well."
"You don't look too well either," Lavender sat down behind Usagi, her worried eyes lingering on her friend.
"Well she can't take the day off!" Hermione reasoned, moving around the bed, "We're in seventh year now; you'll have so much catch up work to do."
Lavender rolled her eyes, grabbing for Usagi's hand and pulling her friend forwards. "Come on, Head girl says you have to go to classes today."
Usagi fell from her bed and landed with a loud thud on the floor. Lavender quickly jumped to her aid and helped her up. Minako and Parvati appear from the bathroom fully dressed for the day ahead. They frowned when they notice their friend beside Lavender, and Minako rushed to give her a hug.
"You're not looking too great, Usagi. Did you get much sleep?"
Said girl merely shrugged. Usagi slowly pulled her school uniform over her body and followed the girls down the spiral staircase into the common room. Usagi felt a hand wrap around her wrist as she reached the bottle of the staircase and she was stopped just before she has the chance to crawl through the portrait hole.
Harry held Usagi tightly in his grip. She looked even worse than he did. Her hair was tied back in a messy ponytail and her bloodshot eyes were underlined with heavy dark bags on her unnaturally pale skin.
"Usagi…"
"Get off me, Harry," Usagi whispered, not meeting his eyes.
"Usagi—please—don't. Can't we talk about this?" Harry begged, his grip softening around her wrist. "We need to talk about this."
She chose to remain silent.
"It was only a kiss, Usa." He had to get her to understand. He hadn't slept all of last night through his guilt. Minako's angry voice kept thundering through his mind along with Usagi's broken eyes.
A tear rolled down Usagi's face and she hung her head low. "Harry… I—I think its best if we don't… if we don't see each other any more."
Harry's fingers loosened around her and she fell from his reach forever. Her words hit him like a bludger to the head and he was falling through a thick black fog. "It was only a kiss… please let's talk about this!"
"It shouldn't have happened." Usagi whispered, "I can't trust you anymore… and I can't love you… if I don't trust you—that's all I have to say to you."
Usagi ran from the common room, swiping viciously at her tear stained cheeks as she ran out of Harry's life. Forever.
Eeep! I got a better response to that opening chapter than I've ever got before! I didn't think you'd like it that much! I hope you like this one as much as you liked the first… that it was worth the wait and it wasn't a let down in anyway!
Updates for TFaA shouldn't be too far off… I hope. Maybe some time next week. I have a few days off school next week coz I just came back from the hospital on Friday, but I really feel a lot better now… just my shoulder hurts. So we'll see what happens.
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