Chapter 4
"Well that was interesting." Max said
"Harry was there too but Dumbledore zapped him away after 2 minuets." "Yeah. Maybe we could just say it was an American thing. To burst into fighting?" D said laughing.
"Yea right!" Max said
"Snape was definitely into you."
"You think?" max asked
"Yes he was staring at you. and why wouldn't he you are beautiful."
"As are you... You just got to show it more girl." Max said
"Yeah right. And he asked about you're scar's." D said quickly
"What? What did you tell him?" Max said sounding strict like someone on probation yet trying to stay calm.
"I said I truth about them being battle scars from fighting in a gang revenging someone u loved death."
"No specifics?"
"No way just the basic. you know I hate lying, as do you."
"Yea honesty is the best way to go." Max said remembering always telling D that.
"So class time." D said
"No remember Draco and Hermione I'm going to meet them and go cut."
"What after all this?"
"Come on I need a break especially after all this!" Max said and kissed D on the cheek "Bye later" and ran off to the dining hall and saw Hermione coming out. "Frizz!" she yelled
"Max your OK? We were all worried." Hermione said
"I am fine you ready to have fun?" she said smiling her usual evil little smile.
"Sure where did you want to go?" Hermione asked, and Max smiled at the question and winked her eye.
"You'll see, Now where is. Draco Yo! Come here." She yelled
"Max! O my god that was interesting. Never seen a fight like that and the way you pushed McGonagall and Snape back Ha but are you All right?" he asked laughing and worried at the same time
"Fine, you ready to go?"
"Where?" He asked
"Come on." Max said "Spike, what way is the door?" She asked because she knew she always gets lost.
"Spike?" Hermione asked smiling
"Yeah because 3 reasons he dresses in all black like someone I know named spike, has same hair color, and he spikes his hair."
"Yeah Max come with me" and he led he to the main door. She opened it up and they walked off and down to the lake. Then max took off her shoes and pants and shirt until all she was wearing were small thin blue see through to her black thong shorts and a bellybutton shirt.
"Max what are you doing?" Hermione asked
"Come on it's hot and I feel like swimming it will be fun and," she said, " I can se some waves were going to surf."
"Surf?" Draco asked
"It's a muggle thing they do on water but we don't have boards even."
"No problem, Frizz you are good at magic stuff and I got this," she got out of her pants pocket on the ground a piece of paper obviously ripped out of a book with a spell. "This is the spell of sports all muggle and non muggle so say it and at the end say 3 surf boards and were good."
"Where did you get this?" Hermione asked though it was obvious.
"The library books.. They have some good shit so do it."
"Incanted Sportiest avado Leo Conjure me the 3 surf boards to grant my plea!" and then three surf boards popped out. One black one with bright red, that one max took, one black one bright green that one Malfoy took, and one black and white striped and that Hermione grabbed.
"Now I would teach you bit the spell makes what you conjure teach you itself I read it in the book so lets go!" Max said as Hermione took off her robe but was wearing T-shit underneath but left her jeans on. Draco took all off but his silk black boxers. "Like the boxers spike." Max said winking at him and laughing as she ran into the water. The two ran in after smiling and couldn't believe what the hell they were doing.
They surfed for hours and then swam. Max did some tricked they loved and they all had fun. Hermione even did a little spell for more waves. It was getting late and dark they had been out for hours.
"Max it is almost dinner time!" Hermione yelled
"I'm not hungry!" max said swimming around.
"OK but in 10 minutes we go back in before it gets cold! It's already dark" Hermione Said.
"Yeah, I agree with Hermione! Though this was great," He had said her name. Her first name not Granger! It must have just slipped out she probably didn't even notice.
"Watch this!" Max yelled, then she stood up on her surfboard and screamed "LIFES A BITCH! AND SO AM I!"
"What the hell do you think you are doing, Malfoy, Granger, and Max!" Snape yelled and Hermione and Draco quickly looked at him terrified and got out of the water while max just rolled her eyes and got out.
"We were in the water swimming and surfing." Max said
"You three skipped three class's! What were you thinking!"
"Umm well.." Hermione mumbled
"We were just," Draco added.
"I asked them to come, and I wanted to have fun surf and hang out."
"So you are the idiot behind this!" Snape said
Max could tell Hermione and Draco were going to say something but she gave them a look of shut up. "I wanted to have and so I did just because you don't seem to ever have fun, or a life doesn't mean you have to ruin others all the time." Max said smiling.
"Malfoy, Granger return to your common rooms at once. Max you stay here!" He said and Draco and Hermione grabbed their cloths and ran back to the castle.
"You will never disrespect me in front of other people like that ever again," Snape said to her harshly as he walked closer to her. Then he was face to face with her. "You will learn to keep you're mouth shut! And learn to keep that attitude to yourself."
"Or what?" max said staring straight into his eyes no fear.
"You don't want to know. Another week's detention for this! And if you do not want me disciplining you because when I am done you will be sorry."
"I'd like to see you try" max said and she got closer to him and whispered in his ear "Bring it on." Then she walked over to her cloths held them and head back to the castle.
"You are not going into the castle wearing that?" Snape said firmly. Noticing the small shirt and short pants she was wearing. She looked amazing. but completely inappropriate.
"Well I'm wet so I cant put my cloths on over it." Then Snape whisper something and she was completely dry. "Cool thanks." And she was taking off her shorts first.
"What are you doing?" Snape asked, "I thought you getting dressed?
"I am I only wore these shorts to swim.I know the view is great but could you please turn around." She asked smiling and he opened his mind to answer but decided to just turn around and realized he was looking at he and it was weird. She got dressed and walked back into the castle.
"You will go to dinner and then straight to detention and no going anywhere else." He said firmly
"All right but I'm actually not hungry so I guess I should go to detention now?" she asked.
"Fine, but are you sure I didn't see you eat much today?" he said. "I just do not want complaining of hunger." He added quickly.
"I'm not hungry." She said
"Fine come with me." He said and they went down to the dungeons and into his office. You shall file these papers." Showing her a large stack of papers. "Into 4 groups by the date at the top left corner." Then he went and sat at his desk. She sat on the ground and started working. The office was so small because of all the ingredients everywhere. "If you get thirsty there is water over there." And he pointed behind him.
"Thanks" she said and decided to get something to drink. She got herself water finished drinking and put the cp next to the sink in case she got thirsty again. She turned around and Snape was right there he had stood p to get an ingredient. He looked down at her but she was quite tall and was almost his height. She wanted to kiss him but she held it back because to her it was clear he wasn't interested.
"Excuse Me," he finally said and she moved out of his way and back to separating the papers. He wondered about her, about her life she acted so unafraid and very different from any other student and her scars. "May I ask you a personal question?"
"Ask away." Max said thinking it was probably why duos she behaves like this or something.
"The scars on your back some look more recent then others which have fully healed and just are left marks. I was told you were tortured when you were in a gang a couple of years ago. But some of the more recent scars look like they were in this year may I ask where did they come from?"
"Those, were by my dad mostly he would get pissed off and do that. I started living with D after it got bad but he came after me when he was mad. I dealt because life is like that there are the people with great happy homes and the people with the bad families you just learn to deal."
"I do not understand how a father can do that to his own kid." Snape said
"Who knows? I swear they should sterilize some people. He was a stupid basted and I don't care about it." She said, "Things are better now. I am away from him and here with my best friend."
"How do you think so positively on things?" Snape asked
"ME? Positive no I mean my motto is Life sucks then you die I am so not positive. I am just realistic. I had hard years thinking my dad was right I was dirt and let him hurt me and now I'm stronger and I will never let anyone hurt me like that again." She said strongly
"You are not dirt, in fact I think you have some talent if you decide to use it. Instead of being an idiot and wasting it on surfing hath naked and skipping class." Snape said.
"My reality check is in the mall." Max said laughing and thought she all most saw on grin on Snape. " Do you ever smile really smile not smirk?" she asked him
"I. well I do not very often because I don't seem to think there is anything to smile about." He said.
"I understand that," she said "May I ask you a personal question?"
"You can ask but I may not give you a answer."
"Where you ever tortured?"
"Why would you ask that?" he wondered
"I see in your eyes the same thing is see in the mirror the same eyes of someone who knows that pain but it has happened to you a lot more I can tell."
"Yes, I have." He said though he didn't know why he admitted it to her.
"Do you also have scars?" she asked
"Most of it were spells but I do have some of the same marks as you on my back and chest form whippings."
"May I see?" she asked but had no clue afterwards why she did. Suddenly he undid his robe and lifted his black shirt to show her.
What am I doing? Snape wondered why am I showing her. Then she stood up and walked over to him and touched them
"Do they hurt?" she asked gently.
"No. They have healed like yours." He said and pulled his shirt back down. She looked into Snapes eyes so cold and dark. She kissed him and surprisingly he kissed back. He sat onto his desk knocking things over and grabbed her hips onto him. Their kiss was long and powerful but suddenly broke when he pushed her back.
"NO! You are a student and I am a teacher this, this cannot be."
"Come on Snape! Stop it with the rules what is your heart telling you to do?" she asked
"Detention is over for tonight! Come back same time tomorrow good bye max," he said so coldly she shivered. He must not care for her like she thought but just going with his male instincts. She left and walked away and went back to the common room and straight o bed, even though she couldn't sleep.
*What was I doing? * Snape asked himself * She is a student and I am a teacher * He sat back onto his chair. He still had her taste in his mouth and he craved it. He wanted her so badly but knew he can't. * I want her though and she wants me. She's so delicious and beautiful but what is she doing with him! She's young and he is not some handsome guy in his 20's. What does she see in him! Probably nothing it was just an intense moment and she got caught up that's all. *
*O my god! Now things are going to be so awkward! I just don't want to think about it! * So max got up and put her mix CD she made herself in her CD player. It was the "AHHH" CD she made for when she felt this way. Then she pressed repeat on the first song. It was "I'm just a kid". She put it on very loud and laid in her bed listing. And singing along "Woke up it was 7 I waited till 11 just to figure out that one would call I think I got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them what's another night all alone when your spending everyday on your own and here it goes!" then she started screaming her favorite part "I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me." "And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed Staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time, I had good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And their going to leave me here on my own... and here it goes... What the hell is wrong with me? Don't fit in with anybody how did this happen to me? Wide- awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep cause every night is the worst night ever. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world Nobody care cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me Tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cause I'm just a kid tonight!" Then Max walked up and turned off the CD player and just laid in bed like she usually did because she never really slept. Then she heard someone a couple of beds down come in. She was crying and sounded really upset. Max sat p and saw it was Hermione what was she doing? O my god.
"Hermione!" max screamed and put out her hand had the scissors come to her out of Hermione hands and into her own. There was blood on them. "What the hell are you thinking?" Max said
"What! O I was just."
"I saw what you were just doing and I have seen it before. It is dangerous! How long have you been doing this?"
"No. This was my first time I just I don't know."
"It's OK I wont tell anyone just promise me never again!"
"Of course never again" Hermione said and what she meant was never again will I get caught. Max went back to her bed. She was back to thinking about Snape and her mind completely slipped from Hermione. It was her first time, and it happens people slip but she wont do it again.
Max got some books from the bottom of her bed she stole COFF mean borrowed from library and looked for a sleeping spell. Then she found it "Just wave your wand 2 times and say Sleeporatis" *sounds easy * Max thought and did it and immediately fell asleep.
Snape just had too much on his mind so he took his regular sleeping potion and fell into a deep sleep.
Snapes Dream
He answered his door and she was there wearing the same low jeans and shirt. She walked in and he wanted her more then anything. She sat on his bed and looked straight at him. He walked over and kissed her as she kissed back. It was intense and became more and more blurry. But he felt her beneath him and he craved her. He made love to her and wanted her to never leave. He kissed her more as he made love and then after hors they stopped. He held her in his arms "Never leave me" he said softly "I never will I'm yours Severus I'm all yours." And he held her tight and kissed her. Suddenly he heard BEEP, BEEP, BEEP.
Suddenly he woke up by his alarm clock. He had to get ready for breakfast. He dreamed about her about Max and he wanted her. He knew it but couldn't admit it she was a student A STUDENT he reminded himself. He couldn't help but crave her but though best if he stayed away from her. So tonight he would give her detention in the potions lab while he stays in his office away from her. He did not want to make any more mistakes.
Max's Dream
There was a large bed all black with silk covers and silk blankets. Snape was there and got in and kissed her. He then went farther and made passionate love. She wanted him so much in her dream. He was what she wanted. Then he let go of the kiss "Max I have to tell you something I.MAX! MAX!"
"What?" Max said suddenly waking up.
"Come on Breakfast were already late." Hermione said
"Coming, Coming wow that sleeping spell worked great."
"What spell?" Hermione said sounding very worried
"The Sleeporatis one why?" max asked and she saw black robe in her closet and she wore it and wasn't the biggest fan of it but no big.
"That is a very strong one! If you wanted a sleeping spell you should of asked me!" Hermione Said
"But you were at dinner and I wanted to sleep" Max answered and Hermione realized she slept so well she forgot about last night.
"If that spell didn't have any side effects it must mean you have a big sleeping problem." Hermione said
"Yeah ever since I was 10 I slept maybe a hour or less a night. Sometimes go days no sleep. I was never a big sleeper" Max said
"Wow, I love sleeping I would hate that schedule of sleep" Hermione said smiling. "You look good in a robe."
"Thanks, it's not me, but it's all right" Max said as they headed down to Breakfast.
*Breakfast*
Today Max decided to sit with Draco at the Slytherin table.
At the Gryffindor Table D sat between Harry and Hermione, Ron in front of Harry with Ginny in front of Hermione and empty sit in between.
*D look I'm going to sit at the Slytherin table today all right you stay there I want to get to know more Slytherins*
*Ok no problem. but I'll see you at lunch? *
*Probably *
"Max isn't coming today she said she wants to sit with Slytherins and get to know them better."
"O when did she say that?" Ron asked because she didn't see her talk to her all of today
"A minute ago. The whole talking to each other through minds thing."
"O all right" Ron said thinking it was a little bit weird how they can do that.
All during breakfast Max wasn't hungry she took a lot but just played with it. She tried not to look at him but she wanted to so badly. So she looked up and saw him there and then he looked straight at her. Their eyes met and she began to sweat a little. She couldn't handle this wanting him having him there but him not wanting her so she looked away and looked down.
All during breakfast he sat there and ate with his nice manners but she was the only thing on his mind. He watched her and she didn't eat just sat there staring down. Then she looked up and at him. He saw her eyes and her face. He starred at her lips, as he wanted to taste them once more. The stare was intense and he thought she was gorgeous but he saw she wasn't too happy she acted almost heartbroken. Then she looked away and went back to staring at her plate.
Max really wasn't hungry and today she didn't have any class's until after lunch. She had transfiguration and then Defense Against the Dark arts. She heard there was a new teacher young a woman who just got out of year 7 but was an expert. Transfiguration was the teacher McGonagall the one she trough back so she hoped she wasn't too mad at her. "Spike, I don't have class until after lunch so I'm heading out. Going to try and catch a few Z's get some sleep." She said lying straight to him.
"Ok, have fun" Draco said and she got up and left the dining hall.
She could feel Snape watch her leaving but she needed time to think and somewhere private. She knew in D's house she would go to the roof so she decided to try to find the roof of Hogwarts. After walking for hath an hour she found the astronomy tower and walked to the top. She sat there and thought about everything. About what D had said to her about getting colder and always falling for the wrong guys, doing stupid things. She didn't want to get colder but after everything that she has been through how can she see life in any other way. "Life sucks!" She screamed but no one was around to hear it. She loved being so high up looking down at the sad world. She stood at the edge and just starred. Then she got off and sat down. * All I want to do is cry, let it all out get rid of this feeling. But I just can't I cant cry anymore. I wish I could just not feel anymore. *
"GOD! Why are you doing this to me! What did I do wrong to deserve this@ I hate, I hate," and then she realized who she rally hated "I hate me!" and she just lay down on the ground and didn't know what to do! *I don't know how to handle this. I thought I could handle anything but my best friend is slipping away I have no one and I haven't felt truly happy forever. I just need this pain to stop. * She thought to herself and got up. She looked at the edge and at the door. Both lead to being better but going through the door means a lot of hard work and jumping off seems so easy all she has to do is jump and she'll be ok. But if she has learned anything the easy ways out aren't the right way. Plus she didn't deserve the easy way. What would everyone say, D I can't jump I still have D and I'll definitely loose her if I do. Then as she walked to the edge and looked down. She couldn't do it NO! And ran to the door and as she ran it opened up and Snape was there.
"Max, what is it, what is wrong?" Snape asked worried and eh realized he was little too worried.
"Don't let me jump, please no," she said holding him and crying.
"Everything's ok you'll be ok." He said realizing what's he meant. She was going to jump, she wanted to jump, and she was going to kill herself. He walked her back to his room, and made some tea. He put a blanket around her and watched her sit there so upset.
"Thank you" max said as he gave her tea. "I am so sorry I totally broke down on you." She said taking the blanket off and sipping her tea.
"It's all right, I mean if you fell on the edge again you should talk to someone. May I ask what caused you to be so upset?"
"Everything is just falling apart. My best friend D was right about me I am getting colder every day. I just can't see the world like she does. I have been through too much and she knows it but I can't seem to put it behind me. I always do the stupidest things like skip class to swim, and dating guys who do drugs and steal cars."
"Drugs?" Snape asked shocked "Do you do Drugs?"
"Used to I started with methane, went to cocaine, then I just smoke marijuana but now I don't anymore I just smoke cigarettes."
"You smoke Cigarettes?" he asked surprised
"Hell yeah I couldn't make it through a day without one. Bad habit but the nicotine relaxes me."
"I haven't seen you smoke?" he said
"I do just at night out my window and in the morning. God I need one now." She said whispering the last part. Then Snape murmured a spell.
"You can smoke one now if you like," he said "I just put a spell to keep the smoke from coming inside."
"Thank you," She said and she took out her pack of Newport's and lit one. She inhaled and breathed out and she was relaxing finally. "My life is heading no where and no one cares about me. I am useless I just hate it so much." She said looking down as she smoked.
"Hate what?" Snape asked
"Myself." She said simply and took another puff of her cigarette and then ashes it.
"You shouldn't hate yourself." Snape said
"Look who's talking you aren't exactly the greatest guys to talk about loving yourself."
"Why not?" Snape asked
She looked at him and put out her cigarette "I think you hate yourself even more then I hate myself. You don't seem to realize you are brilliant, you can make potions which is probably a gift, and yet you seem to look at yourself so horribly and try to cover it up by being nasty to your students." She said harshly standing up. "So this I your room?" max asked going off topic.
"Yes, this is where I live." He said. She looked around the kitchen was small and the bathroom was large and gorgeous with a bathtub like a little pool. The rest of his house was black messy with books and ingredients everywhere. Then she saw his bed it was big and looked like it was comfortable enough. She sat down on it and saw it was firm. She sat up and crossed her legs, which she usually did when she wasn't sitting at a table. He saw her look around his room and then sit on his bed.
"Your room's nice." She said "but it doesn't look like you entertain people here often." She said smiling.
"Well I like my privacy and I don't usually allow people in here." He said. Then she laid back on his bed and bounced.
"Ha a bouncy bed! Nice come bounce with me."
"I think I'd rather not" Snape said
"Come on," max said sitting up and she stood up grabbed both his hands and pushed him on. But usually the person let go of the other persons had and landed next to her but he didn't let go and landed on top of her. She breathed hard and felt him breath hard also. She touched his face gently and then kissed him.
He couldn't believe it he was on top of her and she was kissing him. He kissed her back just as hard. She started taking his robe off and he started unbuttoning her robe. Then he realized what he was about to do. He couldn't he wouldn't. "No," he said firmly "we can't its wrong."
"What is it with you!" she screamed "You build me up, you knock me down, provoke a smile and make me frown. You chew me up and spit me out. Enjoy the taste I leave in your mouth. You look at me I look at you neither of us know what to do. Immobilized by the thought of you, paralyzed by the sight of you, Hypnotized by the words you say. But you don't seem to have made up your mind. So call me when you do! I would give you more Snape if you would just take it!" max yelled and left.
"Dammit!" Snape yelled and threw his lamp at the wall as it shattered to pieces. Then he sat on the bed, it was still warm from her. He wanted her so badly but he couldn't. He knew he was just blaming the rules when in reality he was terrified. She was beautiful and young and he was old what did she want from him! He was scarred of falling in love because he was already starting to.
Max ran outside and down to the area near the lake. She wanted to be alone. Then she was thinking of her favorite song I'm Just a Kid and thought about why she loved the song so much and realized because it was her exact life and feelings towards life. "What's a another night all alone. When you're spending every day on your own. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare!" she sang out. "Bastard! That man is, first he is all kissing me and unbuttoning me the next he's yelling at me to leave! Who the fuck does he think he is!" she said so mad at him. She wanted to kill him and rip his throat out but she also wanted to hold him and kiss him. She hated this feeling! Then suddenly an owl swooped over her and dropped a letter. "It's from Dumbledore, wonder what he wants."
Dear Max,
I wanted to ask you if you would perform something for the school at dinner this evening. Because we have decided to allow you and Danielle to perform anything you may like. I have heard you have a lovely voice and wanted to know if you would give this evening some new entertainment from your point of view. If you agree and shall sing you can choose any three songs you wish and Danielle has agreed to accompany on the keyboard.
Please send a message back with my owl.
Albus Dumbledore
Headmaster of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
What should I do? Perform of not. Actually, sure I will it could be fun and I know exactly which 3 songs.
Dear Albus,
I'll perform tonight at dinner
Max
Then she handed the note to the owl and pets it. "This will be fun." Max said as she walked back to her common room to prepare.
"Well that was interesting." Max said
"Harry was there too but Dumbledore zapped him away after 2 minuets." "Yeah. Maybe we could just say it was an American thing. To burst into fighting?" D said laughing.
"Yea right!" Max said
"Snape was definitely into you."
"You think?" max asked
"Yes he was staring at you. and why wouldn't he you are beautiful."
"As are you... You just got to show it more girl." Max said
"Yeah right. And he asked about you're scar's." D said quickly
"What? What did you tell him?" Max said sounding strict like someone on probation yet trying to stay calm.
"I said I truth about them being battle scars from fighting in a gang revenging someone u loved death."
"No specifics?"
"No way just the basic. you know I hate lying, as do you."
"Yea honesty is the best way to go." Max said remembering always telling D that.
"So class time." D said
"No remember Draco and Hermione I'm going to meet them and go cut."
"What after all this?"
"Come on I need a break especially after all this!" Max said and kissed D on the cheek "Bye later" and ran off to the dining hall and saw Hermione coming out. "Frizz!" she yelled
"Max your OK? We were all worried." Hermione said
"I am fine you ready to have fun?" she said smiling her usual evil little smile.
"Sure where did you want to go?" Hermione asked, and Max smiled at the question and winked her eye.
"You'll see, Now where is. Draco Yo! Come here." She yelled
"Max! O my god that was interesting. Never seen a fight like that and the way you pushed McGonagall and Snape back Ha but are you All right?" he asked laughing and worried at the same time
"Fine, you ready to go?"
"Where?" He asked
"Come on." Max said "Spike, what way is the door?" She asked because she knew she always gets lost.
"Spike?" Hermione asked smiling
"Yeah because 3 reasons he dresses in all black like someone I know named spike, has same hair color, and he spikes his hair."
"Yeah Max come with me" and he led he to the main door. She opened it up and they walked off and down to the lake. Then max took off her shoes and pants and shirt until all she was wearing were small thin blue see through to her black thong shorts and a bellybutton shirt.
"Max what are you doing?" Hermione asked
"Come on it's hot and I feel like swimming it will be fun and," she said, " I can se some waves were going to surf."
"Surf?" Draco asked
"It's a muggle thing they do on water but we don't have boards even."
"No problem, Frizz you are good at magic stuff and I got this," she got out of her pants pocket on the ground a piece of paper obviously ripped out of a book with a spell. "This is the spell of sports all muggle and non muggle so say it and at the end say 3 surf boards and were good."
"Where did you get this?" Hermione asked though it was obvious.
"The library books.. They have some good shit so do it."
"Incanted Sportiest avado Leo Conjure me the 3 surf boards to grant my plea!" and then three surf boards popped out. One black one with bright red, that one max took, one black one bright green that one Malfoy took, and one black and white striped and that Hermione grabbed.
"Now I would teach you bit the spell makes what you conjure teach you itself I read it in the book so lets go!" Max said as Hermione took off her robe but was wearing T-shit underneath but left her jeans on. Draco took all off but his silk black boxers. "Like the boxers spike." Max said winking at him and laughing as she ran into the water. The two ran in after smiling and couldn't believe what the hell they were doing.
They surfed for hours and then swam. Max did some tricked they loved and they all had fun. Hermione even did a little spell for more waves. It was getting late and dark they had been out for hours.
"Max it is almost dinner time!" Hermione yelled
"I'm not hungry!" max said swimming around.
"OK but in 10 minutes we go back in before it gets cold! It's already dark" Hermione Said.
"Yeah, I agree with Hermione! Though this was great," He had said her name. Her first name not Granger! It must have just slipped out she probably didn't even notice.
"Watch this!" Max yelled, then she stood up on her surfboard and screamed "LIFES A BITCH! AND SO AM I!"
"What the hell do you think you are doing, Malfoy, Granger, and Max!" Snape yelled and Hermione and Draco quickly looked at him terrified and got out of the water while max just rolled her eyes and got out.
"We were in the water swimming and surfing." Max said
"You three skipped three class's! What were you thinking!"
"Umm well.." Hermione mumbled
"We were just," Draco added.
"I asked them to come, and I wanted to have fun surf and hang out."
"So you are the idiot behind this!" Snape said
Max could tell Hermione and Draco were going to say something but she gave them a look of shut up. "I wanted to have and so I did just because you don't seem to ever have fun, or a life doesn't mean you have to ruin others all the time." Max said smiling.
"Malfoy, Granger return to your common rooms at once. Max you stay here!" He said and Draco and Hermione grabbed their cloths and ran back to the castle.
"You will never disrespect me in front of other people like that ever again," Snape said to her harshly as he walked closer to her. Then he was face to face with her. "You will learn to keep you're mouth shut! And learn to keep that attitude to yourself."
"Or what?" max said staring straight into his eyes no fear.
"You don't want to know. Another week's detention for this! And if you do not want me disciplining you because when I am done you will be sorry."
"I'd like to see you try" max said and she got closer to him and whispered in his ear "Bring it on." Then she walked over to her cloths held them and head back to the castle.
"You are not going into the castle wearing that?" Snape said firmly. Noticing the small shirt and short pants she was wearing. She looked amazing. but completely inappropriate.
"Well I'm wet so I cant put my cloths on over it." Then Snape whisper something and she was completely dry. "Cool thanks." And she was taking off her shorts first.
"What are you doing?" Snape asked, "I thought you getting dressed?
"I am I only wore these shorts to swim.I know the view is great but could you please turn around." She asked smiling and he opened his mind to answer but decided to just turn around and realized he was looking at he and it was weird. She got dressed and walked back into the castle.
"You will go to dinner and then straight to detention and no going anywhere else." He said firmly
"All right but I'm actually not hungry so I guess I should go to detention now?" she asked.
"Fine, but are you sure I didn't see you eat much today?" he said. "I just do not want complaining of hunger." He added quickly.
"I'm not hungry." She said
"Fine come with me." He said and they went down to the dungeons and into his office. You shall file these papers." Showing her a large stack of papers. "Into 4 groups by the date at the top left corner." Then he went and sat at his desk. She sat on the ground and started working. The office was so small because of all the ingredients everywhere. "If you get thirsty there is water over there." And he pointed behind him.
"Thanks" she said and decided to get something to drink. She got herself water finished drinking and put the cp next to the sink in case she got thirsty again. She turned around and Snape was right there he had stood p to get an ingredient. He looked down at her but she was quite tall and was almost his height. She wanted to kiss him but she held it back because to her it was clear he wasn't interested.
"Excuse Me," he finally said and she moved out of his way and back to separating the papers. He wondered about her, about her life she acted so unafraid and very different from any other student and her scars. "May I ask you a personal question?"
"Ask away." Max said thinking it was probably why duos she behaves like this or something.
"The scars on your back some look more recent then others which have fully healed and just are left marks. I was told you were tortured when you were in a gang a couple of years ago. But some of the more recent scars look like they were in this year may I ask where did they come from?"
"Those, were by my dad mostly he would get pissed off and do that. I started living with D after it got bad but he came after me when he was mad. I dealt because life is like that there are the people with great happy homes and the people with the bad families you just learn to deal."
"I do not understand how a father can do that to his own kid." Snape said
"Who knows? I swear they should sterilize some people. He was a stupid basted and I don't care about it." She said, "Things are better now. I am away from him and here with my best friend."
"How do you think so positively on things?" Snape asked
"ME? Positive no I mean my motto is Life sucks then you die I am so not positive. I am just realistic. I had hard years thinking my dad was right I was dirt and let him hurt me and now I'm stronger and I will never let anyone hurt me like that again." She said strongly
"You are not dirt, in fact I think you have some talent if you decide to use it. Instead of being an idiot and wasting it on surfing hath naked and skipping class." Snape said.
"My reality check is in the mall." Max said laughing and thought she all most saw on grin on Snape. " Do you ever smile really smile not smirk?" she asked him
"I. well I do not very often because I don't seem to think there is anything to smile about." He said.
"I understand that," she said "May I ask you a personal question?"
"You can ask but I may not give you a answer."
"Where you ever tortured?"
"Why would you ask that?" he wondered
"I see in your eyes the same thing is see in the mirror the same eyes of someone who knows that pain but it has happened to you a lot more I can tell."
"Yes, I have." He said though he didn't know why he admitted it to her.
"Do you also have scars?" she asked
"Most of it were spells but I do have some of the same marks as you on my back and chest form whippings."
"May I see?" she asked but had no clue afterwards why she did. Suddenly he undid his robe and lifted his black shirt to show her.
What am I doing? Snape wondered why am I showing her. Then she stood up and walked over to him and touched them
"Do they hurt?" she asked gently.
"No. They have healed like yours." He said and pulled his shirt back down. She looked into Snapes eyes so cold and dark. She kissed him and surprisingly he kissed back. He sat onto his desk knocking things over and grabbed her hips onto him. Their kiss was long and powerful but suddenly broke when he pushed her back.
"NO! You are a student and I am a teacher this, this cannot be."
"Come on Snape! Stop it with the rules what is your heart telling you to do?" she asked
"Detention is over for tonight! Come back same time tomorrow good bye max," he said so coldly she shivered. He must not care for her like she thought but just going with his male instincts. She left and walked away and went back to the common room and straight o bed, even though she couldn't sleep.
*What was I doing? * Snape asked himself * She is a student and I am a teacher * He sat back onto his chair. He still had her taste in his mouth and he craved it. He wanted her so badly but knew he can't. * I want her though and she wants me. She's so delicious and beautiful but what is she doing with him! She's young and he is not some handsome guy in his 20's. What does she see in him! Probably nothing it was just an intense moment and she got caught up that's all. *
*O my god! Now things are going to be so awkward! I just don't want to think about it! * So max got up and put her mix CD she made herself in her CD player. It was the "AHHH" CD she made for when she felt this way. Then she pressed repeat on the first song. It was "I'm just a kid". She put it on very loud and laid in her bed listing. And singing along "Woke up it was 7 I waited till 11 just to figure out that one would call I think I got a lot of friends but I don't hear from them what's another night all alone when your spending everyday on your own and here it goes!" then she started screaming her favorite part "I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me." "And maybe when the night is dead, I'll crawl into my bed Staring at these 4 walls again I'll try to think about the last time, I had good time Everyone's got somewhere to go And their going to leave me here on my own... and here it goes... What the hell is wrong with me? Don't fit in with anybody how did this happen to me? Wide- awake I'm bored and I can't fall asleep cause every night is the worst night ever. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that it's not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair! Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare I'm just a kid, I know that its not fair Nobody cares, cause I'm alone and the world is Nobody wants to be alone in the world Nobody care cuz I'm alone and the world is having more fun than me Tonight I'm all alone tonight Nobody cares tonight Cause I'm just a kid tonight!" Then Max walked up and turned off the CD player and just laid in bed like she usually did because she never really slept. Then she heard someone a couple of beds down come in. She was crying and sounded really upset. Max sat p and saw it was Hermione what was she doing? O my god.
"Hermione!" max screamed and put out her hand had the scissors come to her out of Hermione hands and into her own. There was blood on them. "What the hell are you thinking?" Max said
"What! O I was just."
"I saw what you were just doing and I have seen it before. It is dangerous! How long have you been doing this?"
"No. This was my first time I just I don't know."
"It's OK I wont tell anyone just promise me never again!"
"Of course never again" Hermione said and what she meant was never again will I get caught. Max went back to her bed. She was back to thinking about Snape and her mind completely slipped from Hermione. It was her first time, and it happens people slip but she wont do it again.
Max got some books from the bottom of her bed she stole COFF mean borrowed from library and looked for a sleeping spell. Then she found it "Just wave your wand 2 times and say Sleeporatis" *sounds easy * Max thought and did it and immediately fell asleep.
Snape just had too much on his mind so he took his regular sleeping potion and fell into a deep sleep.
Snapes Dream
He answered his door and she was there wearing the same low jeans and shirt. She walked in and he wanted her more then anything. She sat on his bed and looked straight at him. He walked over and kissed her as she kissed back. It was intense and became more and more blurry. But he felt her beneath him and he craved her. He made love to her and wanted her to never leave. He kissed her more as he made love and then after hors they stopped. He held her in his arms "Never leave me" he said softly "I never will I'm yours Severus I'm all yours." And he held her tight and kissed her. Suddenly he heard BEEP, BEEP, BEEP.
Suddenly he woke up by his alarm clock. He had to get ready for breakfast. He dreamed about her about Max and he wanted her. He knew it but couldn't admit it she was a student A STUDENT he reminded himself. He couldn't help but crave her but though best if he stayed away from her. So tonight he would give her detention in the potions lab while he stays in his office away from her. He did not want to make any more mistakes.
Max's Dream
There was a large bed all black with silk covers and silk blankets. Snape was there and got in and kissed her. He then went farther and made passionate love. She wanted him so much in her dream. He was what she wanted. Then he let go of the kiss "Max I have to tell you something I.MAX! MAX!"
"What?" Max said suddenly waking up.
"Come on Breakfast were already late." Hermione said
"Coming, Coming wow that sleeping spell worked great."
"What spell?" Hermione said sounding very worried
"The Sleeporatis one why?" max asked and she saw black robe in her closet and she wore it and wasn't the biggest fan of it but no big.
"That is a very strong one! If you wanted a sleeping spell you should of asked me!" Hermione Said
"But you were at dinner and I wanted to sleep" Max answered and Hermione realized she slept so well she forgot about last night.
"If that spell didn't have any side effects it must mean you have a big sleeping problem." Hermione said
"Yeah ever since I was 10 I slept maybe a hour or less a night. Sometimes go days no sleep. I was never a big sleeper" Max said
"Wow, I love sleeping I would hate that schedule of sleep" Hermione said smiling. "You look good in a robe."
"Thanks, it's not me, but it's all right" Max said as they headed down to Breakfast.
*Breakfast*
Today Max decided to sit with Draco at the Slytherin table.
At the Gryffindor Table D sat between Harry and Hermione, Ron in front of Harry with Ginny in front of Hermione and empty sit in between.
*D look I'm going to sit at the Slytherin table today all right you stay there I want to get to know more Slytherins*
*Ok no problem. but I'll see you at lunch? *
*Probably *
"Max isn't coming today she said she wants to sit with Slytherins and get to know them better."
"O when did she say that?" Ron asked because she didn't see her talk to her all of today
"A minute ago. The whole talking to each other through minds thing."
"O all right" Ron said thinking it was a little bit weird how they can do that.
All during breakfast Max wasn't hungry she took a lot but just played with it. She tried not to look at him but she wanted to so badly. So she looked up and saw him there and then he looked straight at her. Their eyes met and she began to sweat a little. She couldn't handle this wanting him having him there but him not wanting her so she looked away and looked down.
All during breakfast he sat there and ate with his nice manners but she was the only thing on his mind. He watched her and she didn't eat just sat there staring down. Then she looked up and at him. He saw her eyes and her face. He starred at her lips, as he wanted to taste them once more. The stare was intense and he thought she was gorgeous but he saw she wasn't too happy she acted almost heartbroken. Then she looked away and went back to staring at her plate.
Max really wasn't hungry and today she didn't have any class's until after lunch. She had transfiguration and then Defense Against the Dark arts. She heard there was a new teacher young a woman who just got out of year 7 but was an expert. Transfiguration was the teacher McGonagall the one she trough back so she hoped she wasn't too mad at her. "Spike, I don't have class until after lunch so I'm heading out. Going to try and catch a few Z's get some sleep." She said lying straight to him.
"Ok, have fun" Draco said and she got up and left the dining hall.
She could feel Snape watch her leaving but she needed time to think and somewhere private. She knew in D's house she would go to the roof so she decided to try to find the roof of Hogwarts. After walking for hath an hour she found the astronomy tower and walked to the top. She sat there and thought about everything. About what D had said to her about getting colder and always falling for the wrong guys, doing stupid things. She didn't want to get colder but after everything that she has been through how can she see life in any other way. "Life sucks!" She screamed but no one was around to hear it. She loved being so high up looking down at the sad world. She stood at the edge and just starred. Then she got off and sat down. * All I want to do is cry, let it all out get rid of this feeling. But I just can't I cant cry anymore. I wish I could just not feel anymore. *
"GOD! Why are you doing this to me! What did I do wrong to deserve this@ I hate, I hate," and then she realized who she rally hated "I hate me!" and she just lay down on the ground and didn't know what to do! *I don't know how to handle this. I thought I could handle anything but my best friend is slipping away I have no one and I haven't felt truly happy forever. I just need this pain to stop. * She thought to herself and got up. She looked at the edge and at the door. Both lead to being better but going through the door means a lot of hard work and jumping off seems so easy all she has to do is jump and she'll be ok. But if she has learned anything the easy ways out aren't the right way. Plus she didn't deserve the easy way. What would everyone say, D I can't jump I still have D and I'll definitely loose her if I do. Then as she walked to the edge and looked down. She couldn't do it NO! And ran to the door and as she ran it opened up and Snape was there.
"Max, what is it, what is wrong?" Snape asked worried and eh realized he was little too worried.
"Don't let me jump, please no," she said holding him and crying.
"Everything's ok you'll be ok." He said realizing what's he meant. She was going to jump, she wanted to jump, and she was going to kill herself. He walked her back to his room, and made some tea. He put a blanket around her and watched her sit there so upset.
"Thank you" max said as he gave her tea. "I am so sorry I totally broke down on you." She said taking the blanket off and sipping her tea.
"It's all right, I mean if you fell on the edge again you should talk to someone. May I ask what caused you to be so upset?"
"Everything is just falling apart. My best friend D was right about me I am getting colder every day. I just can't see the world like she does. I have been through too much and she knows it but I can't seem to put it behind me. I always do the stupidest things like skip class to swim, and dating guys who do drugs and steal cars."
"Drugs?" Snape asked shocked "Do you do Drugs?"
"Used to I started with methane, went to cocaine, then I just smoke marijuana but now I don't anymore I just smoke cigarettes."
"You smoke Cigarettes?" he asked surprised
"Hell yeah I couldn't make it through a day without one. Bad habit but the nicotine relaxes me."
"I haven't seen you smoke?" he said
"I do just at night out my window and in the morning. God I need one now." She said whispering the last part. Then Snape murmured a spell.
"You can smoke one now if you like," he said "I just put a spell to keep the smoke from coming inside."
"Thank you," She said and she took out her pack of Newport's and lit one. She inhaled and breathed out and she was relaxing finally. "My life is heading no where and no one cares about me. I am useless I just hate it so much." She said looking down as she smoked.
"Hate what?" Snape asked
"Myself." She said simply and took another puff of her cigarette and then ashes it.
"You shouldn't hate yourself." Snape said
"Look who's talking you aren't exactly the greatest guys to talk about loving yourself."
"Why not?" Snape asked
She looked at him and put out her cigarette "I think you hate yourself even more then I hate myself. You don't seem to realize you are brilliant, you can make potions which is probably a gift, and yet you seem to look at yourself so horribly and try to cover it up by being nasty to your students." She said harshly standing up. "So this I your room?" max asked going off topic.
"Yes, this is where I live." He said. She looked around the kitchen was small and the bathroom was large and gorgeous with a bathtub like a little pool. The rest of his house was black messy with books and ingredients everywhere. Then she saw his bed it was big and looked like it was comfortable enough. She sat down on it and saw it was firm. She sat up and crossed her legs, which she usually did when she wasn't sitting at a table. He saw her look around his room and then sit on his bed.
"Your room's nice." She said "but it doesn't look like you entertain people here often." She said smiling.
"Well I like my privacy and I don't usually allow people in here." He said. Then she laid back on his bed and bounced.
"Ha a bouncy bed! Nice come bounce with me."
"I think I'd rather not" Snape said
"Come on," max said sitting up and she stood up grabbed both his hands and pushed him on. But usually the person let go of the other persons had and landed next to her but he didn't let go and landed on top of her. She breathed hard and felt him breath hard also. She touched his face gently and then kissed him.
He couldn't believe it he was on top of her and she was kissing him. He kissed her back just as hard. She started taking his robe off and he started unbuttoning her robe. Then he realized what he was about to do. He couldn't he wouldn't. "No," he said firmly "we can't its wrong."
"What is it with you!" she screamed "You build me up, you knock me down, provoke a smile and make me frown. You chew me up and spit me out. Enjoy the taste I leave in your mouth. You look at me I look at you neither of us know what to do. Immobilized by the thought of you, paralyzed by the sight of you, Hypnotized by the words you say. But you don't seem to have made up your mind. So call me when you do! I would give you more Snape if you would just take it!" max yelled and left.
"Dammit!" Snape yelled and threw his lamp at the wall as it shattered to pieces. Then he sat on the bed, it was still warm from her. He wanted her so badly but he couldn't. He knew he was just blaming the rules when in reality he was terrified. She was beautiful and young and he was old what did she want from him! He was scarred of falling in love because he was already starting to.
Max ran outside and down to the area near the lake. She wanted to be alone. Then she was thinking of her favorite song I'm Just a Kid and thought about why she loved the song so much and realized because it was her exact life and feelings towards life. "What's a another night all alone. When you're spending every day on your own. I'm just a kid and life is a nightmare!" she sang out. "Bastard! That man is, first he is all kissing me and unbuttoning me the next he's yelling at me to leave! Who the fuck does he think he is!" she said so mad at him. She wanted to kill him and rip his throat out but she also wanted to hold him and kiss him. She hated this feeling! Then suddenly an owl swooped over her and dropped a letter. "It's from Dumbledore, wonder what he wants."
Dear Max,
I wanted to ask you if you would perform something for the school at dinner this evening. Because we have decided to allow you and Danielle to perform anything you may like. I have heard you have a lovely voice and wanted to know if you would give this evening some new entertainment from your point of view. If you agree and shall sing you can choose any three songs you wish and Danielle has agreed to accompany on the keyboard.
Please send a message back with my owl.
Albus Dumbledore
Headmaster of Hogwarts School of Witchcraft and Wizardry
What should I do? Perform of not. Actually, sure I will it could be fun and I know exactly which 3 songs.
Dear Albus,
I'll perform tonight at dinner
Max
Then she handed the note to the owl and pets it. "This will be fun." Max said as she walked back to her common room to prepare.