Nikki's Notes: Thanks so much for the reviews! I just wanted to tell y'all that this chapter is just plain SouMi (ALONE!) Yay!
Well, some are asking if I'm a Hentai, well, not that much. I just love Sou and Misao being together! (giggles) I know Soujiro and Misao's characters are a little OOC, but in this story Misao provokes Soujiro into letting his emotions out because she was pretty interested in him. Sou likes her too so he does what she wanted him to do. Hope nobody would flame about this ;)The next following chapters may have lime on it. You've been warned! Hope you enjoy this!
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He wasn't open to any emotions. Not until Meiji has framed him and he ended up in the hands of the most unlikely savior. As he sat on the grassy riverside, he thought how great the things he missed were. Eighteen years of existence were already too long for a poor creature like him to miss the feeling of joy, or pain, if that is what it is. Too many emotions had been concealed inside. It would be insanity to keep them forever. This time, luckily, is a great opportunity. He turned his head sideward to catch a glimpse of her ever-bubbly face. She had calmed down a bit from a while ago but she was still happy as ever. Somehow her honest smile made him envious that she had been doing it without lying to herself. Exactly, why does she smile like this?
Was it the calming presence of the river?
Was it excitement from seeing the fireflies?
Or was it just a feeling of fresh fun that they had always shared since he came to her life?
He was so busy thinking of her smile that he didn't notice her face him. "Hey…", she whispered with a happy face. "You okay?"
That night had been different from any other moments that they have shared together. Though they were always happy, that night they were seriously silent, as if they had ran out of words. The time that they have been there, waiting for the fireflies wasn't that long but he felt that he was waiting for her to speak for something that feels like eternity.
As if sensitive of his feelings, she moved closer to his lap.
His heart skipped a beat. Every time that she came close, it was usual for it to behave that way. But he didn't understand. Was it because he didn't want her near? Or did he want her closer? He scratched his head as he finally realized what kind of game they were playing: an exploration of unknown feelings. At least for him.
"Tell me if you're getting bored. Damn fireflies. They always come around late when I want to see them the most.", she groaned in a whisper. He smiled to himself and looked into her eyes.
"I'm not searching for fireflies but I feel exactly the same way."
Her grumpy facial expression turned curious, a face that of a wondering child. "You do--?"
"Just when I wanted to know what lies beneath me, it wont show."
She turned her head into the river. Grabbing her long braided ponytail, she wondered out loud, "I'm not surprised by that. But I do want to know you better."
He sighed at her words. Sadly, he averted his gaze to the moist grassy ground. "I would really want that."
The water was still for a moment. To him, it seemed that the world has stopped. Even her face was frozen. The only thing that kept running was the thought in his head. What he really wanted to say was, I want you to know me, but I still have to find myself before I can show you. And if we explore it together then….
"Someone once told me,", she continued. " that the things that we spend our lives looking for are just right before our eyes."
Silence reigned over them. Solemnity surrounded all over.
"You cant see the fireflies, but in reality they are there. All you need is to seek the light coming from them, and that's when you're convinced that they are truly there before your eyes for you to appreciate."
He smiled at her now. What she said was rather deep. He could sense a meaningful thought from her quote, but he wasn't really sure what it is, and if it is for him. At first he was afraid to ask, but it was now or never. He collected more confidence before he finally asked her, "What are you trying to tell me?"
"I'm saying that what you are looking for in you is right there, long before you even planned of searching for it.", she poked at his chest lightly. "You need to let it shine out for you to see and for me to see it, too."
Her words struck him like a spear. Never had he heard her speak such thoughtful quotes. He felt gladness, knowing that her witty remarks are right for him. What she was saying was pure truth because it made sense to him. Once, a person told him that not everything he believes is right. But it seems that every time she speaks, she could lift the weight of the world in his shoulders.
"Look, here they are.", she called out softly. He saw the dark, cold surroundings become bright and cheery. The fireflies were like city lights glistening at his every turn. This river truly is a magical place.
"Take a look at that.", she said, pointing to the shrub beside him. He turned and saw a couple of fireflies by the tall grass inches beside his lap. They look lovely to him, like two lovers meeting in the middle of the night.
"A while ago, you never thought they were there. You notice them now, do you?", she smiled.
"They must've heard what you said.", he kidded.
"No. they must've wanted you to do what I said."
He faced her with a serious look. Tonight, it seems that she wants him to let out every single concealed emotion that he had kept within. Did she want him to cry his heart out? Did she want him to burst out angry? Did she simply want him to be himself while she—
came extremely close and rested her head on his shoulder?
"No one ever did this to you, Sou.", she said, closing her eyes. He sat firmly, obviously uncomfortable. But he dared not to push her away, not because she might get mad, but because he wanted her to do more.
Now, she reached to his chest with a hand and caressed it with her palm. His heart skipped a million beats.
"As far as I know, the last time you cannot hide your emotions any longer was when we were having our friendly duel right there.", she pointed at the body of water before them. He knew she was speaking the truth.
Her thighs made him hold his breath. When water spilled all over her, she caused him to slow down. He wanted to do it one more time, to make her totally wet as if she dove on the sea, but she postponed the duel by tearing his pants. Now, when she was staring at his thigh that time around, did she actually feel the same way? Did she want more? Is that the reason why she gave him a rather discontented look than a triumphant one from winning?
She released soft breathes at his neck, causing him to hiss slightly. She played with his earlobe and gently whispered, "I'm unarmed. Take me on."
With a single arm, he pinned her to the ground. He effortlessly won over her, her hands lying on the ground wide spread. She bended her legs closer to him. Their eyes met for something that seemed like eternity before he said with a naughty, devilish grin, "You wanted this."
Right after he spoke, he pressed his lips onto hers, making her gasp for more air due to the pressure. He pressed harder, never thinking of pulling back. His hands pinned her more tightly to the ground as he enjoyed every bit of their contact. As long as their lips locked their tongues battled and wrestled inside. She placed a hand on his head and ran down her hair. For a long minute, they continued to do this. After that, he released his firm kiss and placed his two loving eyes on her.
Her lips felt hot from his kiss. She could still taste his sweetness in her mouth. Somehow, she was frustrated that he stopped too early but when she saw a pair of loving crystal eyes looking at her form above, she was rather contented.
He began losing his grip onto her hands. She could move as she wished but she preferred to stay pinned. Is she waiting for more?
"When I'm ready to give you all… will it still feel that good…?", she asked.
With an innocent smile he tucked her bangs beneath her ear. They remained on the ground with him hovering above her like an angel watching over a child.
"It will be better."