Chapter 8

Usually in my dreams, there was Johnny, and sometimes Dally. Johnny would still be well. Like nothing happened. But then something dramatic. Like a car crash or something. Then Johnny would be like how I saw him last. Burnt, confused, & scared of death. He would be mumbling something like "How could you, Ponyboy? I thought we were best friends".

Soda was shaking me when I woke up.

"Pony, c'mon pony wake up. Your having a nightmare baby. Wake up."

"S-Soda? Why are we sleeping on the floor?"

"We aren't, pony, you fell off the bed. Were you having a nightmare again?"

"Yeah."

The next day Soda said I could stay home from school. He would work half a shift, then come home earlier so we could go visit Darry. I woke up later then i usually would. I guess it was from waking up so many times during the night. I really couldn't stand being left home alone. So I figured that I would go outside until Soda came home.

I walked through almost the whole town. I passed the lot which made me cry. I remembered how me and Johnny were sleeping under that starry sky that same night. I suddenly regretted on how I left Johnny all alone in that lot when I woke up at 4 am. It seemed like a long, long time ago, even though it was only a couple of monthes ago. I past the drive-in's which made me remember that night with those pretty girl soc's- Cherry and Marcia. I don't really talk to Cherry anymore. Since Bob's death, she hasn't really wanted to talk to anyone. I guessed it would have been better to leave her alone. But anyways. I finnally went back home. It was about 2:34-about 2 hours 'till Soda would come home. I decided not to sleep because I thought I would have another nightmare. So I picked up my copy of "The Perks of Being A Wallflower" and read it. I really liked how the main character, Charlie, wasn't like all those other boys who wouldn't cry no matter what. Charlie wasn't afraid to cry.

Soda finnally came home and we ate a quick dinner. I guess we can't do too much of the cooking anymore. After a short tv dinner, me and Soda went to the hospital. At first they said that we couldn't see Darry for now, because he was going through some tests. They made me and Soda sit in the waiting room until the doctor was done.

The doctor finally came out and said that we could go see Darry now. I really don't get it because Darry was unconscious. What do we do? We came to see him and actually talk to him. I mean, I wasn't saying that I didnt want to see him, but there really wasn't any point in talking to a unconscious body. Soda just talked to him, though. It may seem like i'm crazy, but I actually felt that Darry was with us there. He was understanding everything that Sodapop was saying to him. He just couldn't respond.

I was really exausted when we got home, so I thought that I would just go to sleep. I still was afraid of sleeping. Not of sleeping. Of those nightmares I would get while I was sleeping. I had Soda stay with me that night. He also made me hot milk, just before I slept, like mom used to make.

I hoped that Sodapop was awake when I said "Soda, what will happen to us if Darry dies?"

"I really don't want to think about that right now. I've had a rough day. But even if he did die, we would hopefully have to try and not let the state know that i'm living with you alone. Until next year, when I turn 18, I'm gonna take full custody of you."

"Oh okay. 'Night." I said as I drifted off to a world where I was paralyzed by my dreams.

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Sorry I haven't updated in a while! I had all my regents and finals these last weeks so i didn't have too much time to update. PLEASE REVIEW AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK OF THIS CHAPTER! )