Title: Clocks
Author: Anilem
Rating: PG
Summary: After meeting Leia in ANH, Lord Vader's past come back to haunt him...
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters you recognize. Star Wars belongs to George Lucas. I do not intend to make any money out of this or any other fanfic I may eventually write.
~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~ Won't you take me by the hand Take me somewhere new Dont know who you are But I'm, I'm with you I'm with you
Avril Lavigne ( I'm with you) ~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~
CHAPTER 7: Musings of a lonely woman
I think I'll never know when it began to end... or if it really came to a definite ending after all..
All I know is that I truly, deeply loved him. no. who am I trying to fool?. even after all he did, I still love him, but I also despise him. I . I miss him so much. but I also hate him so much. I feel so lost. so lonely.
I always told myself that the decision of faking my death was to protect those I cared about, I couldn't go on living with Bail's family, with Leia, without running the risk of being found by him, and if it ever happened I wasn't sure if I would be able to keep the secret. but the truth is it was my inability of hating him and period which was the reason I decided to die to the world, disappear, hide myself.
How I can love such a monster is a question I always ask myself in my loneliness. it hurts to think of how things could have been different. it hurts to think of Luke and Leia. I do hope they're fine. I can only pray that they're fine cause from here I can't get any news.
It's not like the place I'm hidden is that secret, probably it's even too obvious. but he'd never come back here, it would bring too many memories back. besides, after Palpatine took control this is the last palce a person would wanna be. he destryed everything here, it was such a beautiful planet. noe it's bare, not even news reach this place, Palpatine has forbidden anyone to came close to this planet, so no one comes here, no one dares to live here, he used Naboo to show the other planets what would happen if they ever went against him. I manage to hide myseft here because as a former queen, a hidden place was built for me, each queen gets one, it's a place built for security reasons and also to be our last dwelling. so in the end it turns to be the perfect place to hide but I'm alone, I can't even get news about how are the things in the galaxy.but that's necessary. that is necessary. that is.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I ever went back. just yesterday this possibility fetl stronger, much stronger. I can't explain why but I just felt I needed to go back. I felt he was back. but then I realized it couldn't be, it was probably my sorrow trying to deceive me, trying to make me take the wrong decision. I must be dead, I can't go back. just can't..
I hate crying. it makes me feel so weak but I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes. I always tell myself I lost him a long time ago but I never really believed it. that's why I left my pendent with Leia. if Obi-Wan ever found out about it, he'd get very angry, how many times we had that conversation, how many times he expained to me the reason why we had to do that. but I couldn't help myself.
I think I must try to get some sleep, I haven't gotten any these days, maybe tomorrow will be somehow a little better. As I lay in my bed, I close my eyes and tell him through our old bond "I still love you", I don't know if he'll ever get it or if he'd want to listen to it, but I felt I needed to say it.. A moment later I can't expalin how but I felt I was loved back. if he answered I don't know but it felt like I had my Anakin back.
Far from there, a man closed his eyes and whispered into the lonely darkness "I still love you too" as a teardrop fell.
~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~ I'm terribly sorry for the late of it. Life has been very complicated and I was truly in doubt if I should go on with this story, but thanks to the lovely reviews I got I decided to give it a second chance. I do hope you enjoyed the chaper, I know it's short and kind of different from the others but next chapter I promise I'll try to write a little more and go further with Leia/Luke/Vader part. Thanks for reading. Please R&R
Special thanks to Hannah, Emily, JDH3, Lyra Skywalker, Garnet Turner, Jade, Amber, Marcela, Mystery_girl, Froggie, MysticAlly, Renee, T.ZS., Jenny, Devil_Bleeding, Kathy, Rose-Arwen-Padme, FuNnY cIdE, queenofdiamonts, Dead- Girls-Watch and specially to Angel Fire 123. Thanks a lot!!!
Author: Anilem
Rating: PG
Summary: After meeting Leia in ANH, Lord Vader's past come back to haunt him...
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the characters you recognize. Star Wars belongs to George Lucas. I do not intend to make any money out of this or any other fanfic I may eventually write.
~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~ Won't you take me by the hand Take me somewhere new Dont know who you are But I'm, I'm with you I'm with you
Avril Lavigne ( I'm with you) ~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~
CHAPTER 7: Musings of a lonely woman
I think I'll never know when it began to end... or if it really came to a definite ending after all..
All I know is that I truly, deeply loved him. no. who am I trying to fool?. even after all he did, I still love him, but I also despise him. I . I miss him so much. but I also hate him so much. I feel so lost. so lonely.
I always told myself that the decision of faking my death was to protect those I cared about, I couldn't go on living with Bail's family, with Leia, without running the risk of being found by him, and if it ever happened I wasn't sure if I would be able to keep the secret. but the truth is it was my inability of hating him and period which was the reason I decided to die to the world, disappear, hide myself.
How I can love such a monster is a question I always ask myself in my loneliness. it hurts to think of how things could have been different. it hurts to think of Luke and Leia. I do hope they're fine. I can only pray that they're fine cause from here I can't get any news.
It's not like the place I'm hidden is that secret, probably it's even too obvious. but he'd never come back here, it would bring too many memories back. besides, after Palpatine took control this is the last palce a person would wanna be. he destryed everything here, it was such a beautiful planet. noe it's bare, not even news reach this place, Palpatine has forbidden anyone to came close to this planet, so no one comes here, no one dares to live here, he used Naboo to show the other planets what would happen if they ever went against him. I manage to hide myseft here because as a former queen, a hidden place was built for me, each queen gets one, it's a place built for security reasons and also to be our last dwelling. so in the end it turns to be the perfect place to hide but I'm alone, I can't even get news about how are the things in the galaxy.but that's necessary. that is necessary. that is.
Sometimes I wonder what would happen if I ever went back. just yesterday this possibility fetl stronger, much stronger. I can't explain why but I just felt I needed to go back. I felt he was back. but then I realized it couldn't be, it was probably my sorrow trying to deceive me, trying to make me take the wrong decision. I must be dead, I can't go back. just can't..
I hate crying. it makes me feel so weak but I can't stop the tears falling from my eyes. I always tell myself I lost him a long time ago but I never really believed it. that's why I left my pendent with Leia. if Obi-Wan ever found out about it, he'd get very angry, how many times we had that conversation, how many times he expained to me the reason why we had to do that. but I couldn't help myself.
I think I must try to get some sleep, I haven't gotten any these days, maybe tomorrow will be somehow a little better. As I lay in my bed, I close my eyes and tell him through our old bond "I still love you", I don't know if he'll ever get it or if he'd want to listen to it, but I felt I needed to say it.. A moment later I can't expalin how but I felt I was loved back. if he answered I don't know but it felt like I had my Anakin back.
Far from there, a man closed his eyes and whispered into the lonely darkness "I still love you too" as a teardrop fell.
~*~*~*~*~*~~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~**~*~~**~~*~ I'm terribly sorry for the late of it. Life has been very complicated and I was truly in doubt if I should go on with this story, but thanks to the lovely reviews I got I decided to give it a second chance. I do hope you enjoyed the chaper, I know it's short and kind of different from the others but next chapter I promise I'll try to write a little more and go further with Leia/Luke/Vader part. Thanks for reading. Please R&R
Special thanks to Hannah, Emily, JDH3, Lyra Skywalker, Garnet Turner, Jade, Amber, Marcela, Mystery_girl, Froggie, MysticAlly, Renee, T.ZS., Jenny, Devil_Bleeding, Kathy, Rose-Arwen-Padme, FuNnY cIdE, queenofdiamonts, Dead- Girls-Watch and specially to Angel Fire 123. Thanks a lot!!!