Summary: Another year is beginning at Hogwarts and all the residents of this ancient castle can feel the tension in the air. What will come is a mystery but one thing is for certain, Hogwarts new resident will change things irreparably. SS/OC, NO MARY-SUE!
Disclaimer: Hmmmmmmmmm……nope I don't own HP……..pause for moment of sadness……….o well.
Consequences
It was never supposed to happen. There was a reason it was forbidden. Yet still I found myself falling, found myself losing control of the situation. I was diving off a cliff without a parachute. And for the first time in my life I understood freedom, and I knew no fear, for I had faith that he would catch me.
It was to be the same routine, just like every mission. I would stay my turn and when that period was over, my alter-ego was to fade back into the woodwork, becoming nothing but an apparition in the memories of those whose paths I had crossed. But something went wrong. Don't ask me what, for even after all these years I still cannot discern what happened. Yet it did and nothing can or will change that. I accept that now.
My family had warned me, "It will never work, you are too different". And it was true. We had but a few small things in common and even these things could not outweigh the differences. We were like fire and ice, never to mix, but if somehow accomplished, more beautiful then could have ever been deemed possible.
Many years ago I heard the phrase, "It is better to have loved and to have lost than to never have loved before." I doubt I have ever heard such a ridiculous sentence. To have lost love is to lose oneself. To lose all illusions, all optimism, all feeling of reality. It is the entrance to an endless void in which one is faced with the truth that no matter what happens the pain shall never completely dissipate, the scars will never disappear. Then all that you are left with is the rubble of your inner self and a few measly building tools.
It has been many years since the incident, and time has reshaped me. Once again I laugh and once again I celebrate life. But there shall forever be that hole, never to be filled, for to have loved is to give a piece of ones own soul to another and such a gift can never be taken back.
Moongypsy04….after my last story got, count them, NO REVIEWS!...I was almost ready to throw in the towel. But I am going to try again. PLEASE REVIEW!