Now I Know

I walked home from school bring in my grades. Panic filled inside of me like air inside a balloon my palms began to get sweaty as the note in which I held my grades in began to get wet. I opened the door….

"Cloud, how was your last day of school today?" "Alright," I said nervously with a stutter in my voice undetected." "Here are my grades," I put my grades on the table beside my mom and quickly walked up stairs preparing for the doom that awaited me. I stood their looking at my picture and thought to myself back than I was such a good boy and now I'm a dumbass. My thoughts were quickly disrupted as I heard my Mom sigh…

I walked downstairs quietly walking over to the fridge taking my time to get some water out. I walked over to my mom holding the gallon of water in my hands. She didn't seem upset but I was.

1 week later

I came home after playing outside with Tifa I was my mom there looking at a piece of paper. She handed it to me and I stood there in horror it read,

"Your son has failed the following courses in order for him to make to the next grade he must take summer school in Social Studies. My eyes widened in fear and my mom had left. I went to my couch and stared at the ceiling in horror waiting for my mom to return. I waited for an hour feeling my stupidity when finally I heard my mom come. All returned to normal for awhile until that day….

2 in half weeks later

I sat there at the dinner table with my mom for a few weeks I had forgotten the worry about summer school but when my friend called me to say summer school has started already my stomach dropped twenty stories high and my heart began to beat harder than the Midgar church bell. The next I went to my mom telling her about the news and she told me with calm eyes that she would call the school. A few days later she did and told me that they said Summer School was over. I told my mom that it wasn't so and that my friend had already went there.

5 days later

I went by the school near the slums that day and took a summer school enrollment paper. I skimmed through reading the important parts which raised my blood pressure by a million. I had really done it; I sat down thinking about the worst for a moment am I really going to repeat a grade? Am I that stupid? These thoughts worried me even more I went into frenzy. I watched T.V. later that night looking at people thinking if I could do better than any of them now that I must repeat. It was inevitable, nothing could be done.

I had ruined my school career all because of eight months of laughter, joy and fooling around. My summer had been full of regret knowing the next year I would be with smarter people than me. Life I thought was what you make of it. Now I understood I couldn't be anything. Now I Know……………………………………………….

Fin