A/N: dude i suck at this. its all cool. just something to kill time. :D

Ch. 5-Talking ToSirius.

It seems that it was just yesterday that i had an actual conversation with like the most biggest jerk ever. Ever since we talked, James and I, I had totally different feelings towards him. I know, freaky huh? I feel happy for once. I have never been in a better mood. I love this feeling, I hope it lasts. I wondered everyday when James was going to tell Sirius about his girlfriend's litte secret. I mean, James should've broken up with Samantha already, but he hasn't! What's wrong with this kid.I mean, hello, it's already December, nearly Christmas, and he still hasn't given her up. I wonder if i should do something. No, that would make James hate me again. He's become a softie, now thatI notice it. I walk around the school grounds and I see him, pretending that is, all over that girl. It sickens me, I say. She is quite pretty I think as I continue to sit in the common room. I gotta stop doing these things. I just sit around and think to myself. I wonder what I look like to other people when i'm just sitting here. Ha! I wonder too much. What should I do to kill time. Then I remembered, Sirius. I do fancy a little chat with him.

I got up and walked out the room. It seems that my legs aren't working properly. I want to go straight, but then my legs go like the other way. So right now, I'm wandering all other the place. Oh come on legs. WORK. Gosh, I bet I look utterly stupid. What the bloody...

"Why on earth are you walking like that Lily?" a voice said.

Oh my holy crap, someone has been watching me make an idiot of myself. I thought I would be embarrassed but instead I fell to the floor laughing my head off. Man, I never laughed like this in forever. I hope other people didn't notice a change in me. I sure noticed. Of course, they'll never know that once that this Lily was angry at one point. I was always of course happy right?

"Hhahaha...whoo. Sorry I couldn't control my legs. Theres like something wrong with me." I replied back to the voice. I look up and see that it was the kid I've been lookin for.

"You're mad you know that. At least you're back to your usual self." Sirius said.

"Sirius! The man I've been looking for! I wanted to talk to you. I'm really bored." I said. They way I said it, it seemed like I was drunk or something. It was really awkward. Then I remembered...I'm still on this floor.

"Yeah sure we could talk. I wouldn't blame you for being bored. It's bloody Sunday and there's nothing to dooooo...yeah I wanted to talk to you also." Sirius replied. That caught my attention. Sirius Black wants to talk to me? I hope I didn't do anything wrong.

"Where should we go? Library? Outside? No, It's snowing..." I suggested

"How 'bout...in the Great Hall? We can check out the decorations too!" Sirius decided.

"Yeah that'll be fun"

Sirius and I walked side by side downstairs to the Hall. I feel a little lightheaded, It's cool, it'll go away as soon asI get something to eat. Finally we entered the Hall and started to look for a table to sit down. The hall was so beautiful. I look up to seen the ceiling bewitched with snow, but with the sun shining. I looked across the hall to see a really tall, 50 ft, christmas tree. It was filled with decorations and little fairies. So pretty. I smiled then I stopped as a flashback came across in my mind...

...It's christmas time at my house and I'm 7 years old. My family and I are in the living room around the hot fireplace. We're eating cookies and milk while we're opening presents. I never been so happy to be with my family. I'm in love with our christmas tree which was at least 8 feet tall. Just barely tall enough to fit in our living room. The tree was surrounded by tons of presents. Even my wicked sister Petunia was smiling about. What a little brat. But I still loved her. My older sister was out with her friends, I hoped she comes back soon, I want to give her my home-made present. We were laughing about when he heard a doorbell. My mom and dad went to open the door as I, Petunia and my older brother continued to eat our cookies.

"Mr. and Mrs. Evans?" An officer asked.

"Yes, we are. Is there a problem sir?" My mother asked.

"Yes, in fact there is. I'm sorry to tell you this but your daughter has committed a crime at the store down the street" the officer replied.

"Is there something wrong with Dana? When is she coming home? Mummy?" I asked. Oh I was such a small stupid little girl.

"What do you mean officer? My daughter would never commit a crime. What did she do?" My mum said.

"She went in and tried to steal alcohol with her friends and tried to rob the store manager. I'm sorry ma'am but she has to go to jail. But lucky for her, she's still a minor. She'll be going to juvie for at least a couple of months, possible a year! For she was holding a weapon for somebody." the officer revealed.

My mother then fainted. My father then quickly told us to go upstairs.

I remembered thinking that that incident changed what I thought of christmas. Christmas was ruined. Good thing it was only one time eh? But still.

"Lily! HELLO! Lily?" Sirius said. I quickly came back out of my trance and looked at Sirius. I noticed I was gripping the end of a table pretty tightly.

"How long was I spaced out?" I asked.

"I think just a couple of minutes cuz I went to get something and I turned around and you're just sitting there, all quiet. You kept staring at the tree." Sirius informed me.

"Just a couple of minutes really?" It feels like at least ten minutes has passed. Hmm.

"I'm really sorry Sirius, I was just...actually I don't know." I didn't know how to tell Sirius that I have a messed up mind and I tend to have flashbacks of bad memories. Having that flashback brought my mood down a notch. It's ok really, I'm pretty sure talking to Sirius will make me feel better.

"Do you want to have a little chat now?" Sirius asked then sat down across from me.

"Yeah..."

"So what's up, Lily? How's life and so forth? What about you and James? You know, I keep telling him to break up with that Sam girl and go with you. and yet he's still hanging around that thing."

"You don't like her much do you?" I said. Then I actually wondered why James didn't break up with her already, I mean obviously she likes Sirius and maybe James doesn't like her...ahh the wonders of teenage life.

"No, not really. Truthfully I like you much more than her, Lily. I mean, I think you and James deserve each other, really." When Sirius said that, I looked down at my fingers. I knew my face was getting red.

"Sirius...I wanted to talk to you about...um Samantha. I don't know if I'm even the person to tell you. Oh man James is going to kill me. You know what never mind. Forget I even mentioned her name."

"No, what about her? I hope it's something bad so I could tell James and they could break it off. Tell me, you brought it up!" He said.

"Forget it, I'm sorry..." Oh I feel lightheaded again. Then all of a sudden my head was throbbing in pain. What on earth is wrong with me today? Before I knew it I saw pitch black around me.

A/N: Will Lily and Sirius ever finish or even start the real conversation? Why did she passed out? To be CONTiNUED...