Nathan winced as he turned over. His head throbbed and he wanted to throw up again but it was no use considering he had puked up everything he had ever consumed his 23 years on Earth. It was late or early, depending on how you looked at it. He had been passed out for hours and when he finally came to the memories of hours earlier came flooding back. He felt like crap physically and he shuddered when he remembered what he had done.

Sitting up in the darkness, he saw her sitting across from him in a chair. The moonlight cast a pale shadow on her skin as she sat quietly awake, feet folded underneath her.

"Meg…"

She didn't answer. He knew he was in trouble. He tried to get up and walk over to her but his entire body felt like lead.

"Megan, look, babe, can we talk?" he winced.

Still silence.

"Baby, I know you're mad…"

"Mad?" she laughed bitterly. "That's an understatement, Nathan. I'm furious."

He hung his head in shame.

"Meg…"

"What? You're gonna say you're sorry?"

"I am."

"Sorry for getting drunk and humiliating me and yourself at a party our friends through in honor of our wedding?"

"I am sorry for that", he apologized sheepishly.

"Well, you should be."

"Megan…"

"No, Nathan. Look, you know how much I love you. Now I'm a pretty touch girl and I have patience and there's a lot of stuff I can put up with but the crap you've been pulling lately is more than I can tolerate."

"I know."

"You know? Then why won't you stop? Or at least explain because you've been acting like a madman the last week or so."

"It's just…it's stuff, okay?"

"Haley?"

"Don't say her name."

Megan shook her head in frustration.

"She's the reason why?"

"I can't talk about it."

"Can't or won't?"

"Meg…"

"No. Nathan, in all the time we've been together, we've been happy, right?"

"Yeah."

"You love me?"

"Of course I do."

"And have we ever had a fight?"

"No."

"An argument?"

"No."

"Well we're about to have a big one right now if we don't talk about this. We have to deal with it. We have to deal with her. Haley."

"Megan, I don't want to."

"Why not?"

"She's the reason you've been acting this way. You're still married to her after all…"

"Don't fucking remind me!"

"Why? It's true. I deal with it. I deal with it because I have to and so should you. It's a part of our lives and it's a huge part of your history and who you are."

"Damn, Meg. What do you want from me? What do you want me to do?"

"Face it! Talk about her!"

"What do you want to hear?"

"The truth."

"The truth? The truth that I loved her and sacrificed everything for her and she broke my heart? The truth that she chose a dream over me? The truth that she left me for that Chris Keller guy?"

Nathan's voice was rising and he was obviously emotional. Megan wanted the truth but at the same time it killed her to see him hurting so.

"Nate…"

"Meg, in your opinion, what is the worst thing someone could do to another human being?"

"I don't know", she shrugged. "Murder, I guess. Maybe rape."

Nathan shook his head.

"Betrayal", he mouthed. "There is no other worse sin."

She got up and slowly walked over to him, holding him gently.

"Babe, I know you're hurting. I'm sorry. I'm here for you but you have to talk to me. We have to share. Nathan, I'm not made of glass or porcelain. I promise I won't break. Okay? Whatever it is you're going through, we go through together. You don't have to deal with this on your own. I can't take it. I can't take your temper and your outbursts and you getting drunk…I can't deal with that. And I won't. As much as I love you, I won't, Nathan."

He sighed, putting his head in his hands.

"I'm sorry. I was a real sick tonight. I'm sorry for what happened. I promise it won't go down like that again."

"I hope not."

"I love you, Meg. I really do. You're right. It's a lot of stuff from my past that I don't talk about. It hurts and it's scary and it puts me in this crazy, dark place. I can't deal with it. I don't know how. It's too much. Look, Megan I know I have to change and I know I don't have to be that tough guy all the time around you but you've got to be patient with me. I'll try to work on stuff just don't get mad if it takes longer than you'd like."

She smiled in the darkness.

"All I want is an effort, Nate. All I want is to love you. And I want you to love me."

"I do", he said, kissing her cheek as he pulled her down in bed with him. "It'll be okay, Meg. I promise. We're all going to be okay."