Chapter 24:
(sorry the last chapter was so short, that was 'cause I typed the on my parents computer and I'm not allowed on it anymore or so says my dad…I love my mom!)
"Botan, you want to do something tonight?" Rikku asked.
"I don't know?" Botan said. "Would that be wise?"
"Yes, I think it would. I've been through something like this before, it would be wise to get your mind off him," Rikku said. "And then sometime in the near future we can find a way to kick his butt then you totally ignore him."
"I don't want to do that Rikku," Botan said. "If love makes me feel this miserable, I'll welcome it. I couldn't hurt Hiei because I'd feel guilty and I don't want to feel guilty. I don't want to ignore him…but that might be best for now."
"Okay, we skip the butt kicking and go straight to the ignoring," Rikku smiled, liking the thought.
"Would it be fine if I go on a walk?" Botan said.
"Yeah, sure. Do you want to be alone? I'll go with you if you like," Rikku said.
"No, that's okay, I would like to think," Botan said.
"Sure, just don't be gone to long, okay?" Rikku said.
"Yeah," Botan got up and walked out of the house. She started toward the park, but stopped right outside of the entrance. But she turned away.
one month and three weeks later
Every Time by: Simple Plan
It was 3AM
When you woke me up
Then we jumped in the car
And drove as far as we could go
Just to get away
Botan got up and remember that she now had a new apartment. She also had been going on dates with Koenma, because he distracted her from think to much of Hiei. Although it didn't help much.
We talked about our lives
Until the sun came up
And now I'm thinking about
How I wish I could go back
Just for one more day
She missed him so much. If she had the chance she probably jump him in the middle of the day just cause she wanted to be back in his arms.
One more day with you
At this point she didn't care what had been said. It was hard though, when Koenma held meetings where everyone had to get together in his office and most of the time she stood in the back away from everyone so she could just stare into space.
Every time I see your face
Every time you look my way
Its like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
But ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
One more day with you
If only she had the courage to talk to him and convince him that she loved him and that she'd do anything to be back with him. But isn't that the reason they're like this? Because she told she loved him when they had arrived in Makia? That's what he made it seem like. All nice and generous one moment and once they're alone outside he's all mean and angry not saying very much, just like it used to be before she got kidnapped be the Elder Toguro.
When the car broke down
We just kept walking along
'Til we hit this town
There was noting there at all
But that was all ok
Once Botan caught him looking at her and when he noticed she was staring back he looked away. Some times Botan wonders if Hiei still cares for her. She doubts it by the way he acts around her. But there might be a chance.
We spent all our money on stupid things
But if I look back now
I'd probably give it all away
Just for one more day
One more day with you
Then there'd been those flashbacks of how they'd watch TV together and fall asleep on one another. Or how they had to sleep together for that dare. She really liked that dare…
Every time I see your face
Every time you look my way
Its like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
But ever since you walked away
You left my life in disarray
All I want is one more day
It's all I need
One more day with you
Botan didn't want to cry anymore over him. She'd come home from work and watch TV and eat ice cream, preferably cookies and cream and then go to bed and cry herself to sleep.
Now I'm sitting here
Like we used to do
I think about my life
And how there's nothing I won't do
Just for on more day…
Everything's so odd without Hiei, she seemed so used to him before but know she's all alone. Once she invited Koenma over to see if he could take Hiei's place at her apartment. It didn't work out so well. He wanted to go out and do something and not watch a fighting movie and eat food. He wanted to go out to some restaurant and then take her some where nice. She kicked him out and the next day he gave her flowers at work.
One more day with you
She eventually invited Rikku and Kurama over. They plan on getting married around June after High schools over for Kurama, since Rikku doesn't go to school for she's a ferry girl.
Every time I see your face
Every time you look my way
It's like it all falls into place
Everything feels right
Every time I hear your name
Every time I feel the same
It's like it all falls into place
Everything, everything feels right
Learning about what was happening with couples in the team made Botan really depressed. Yusuke and Keiko were madly in love, it was different now being around them. They were all gushy, gushy now; normally Botan wouldn't care but, you couldn't believe how much she missed Hiei.
You walked away
It's been said the longer you're away from the one you love, the stronger that love becomes.
Just one more day
It's also been said that the more you suffer the more it shows you really care.
It's all I need
One more day with you
It was that way for Botan. She loved him farther than death.
Gone Away by: The Offsprings
Maybe in another life
I'll could find you there
Pulled away before your time
I can't deal it's so unfair
Hiei missed Botan so much, he really should have listened to his inner self, which he'd name Stan. Stan knew something he didn't, something Botan had said in Makia, but Hiei couldn't figure it out.
And it feels
And it feels like
Heavens so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown so cold
Now that you've gone away
Hiei didn't like to be around the group as much anymore and Kurama and Yusuke were mad at him. It was sad to be around your group when they're talking about marriage and are all over each other.
Leaving flowers on your grave
To show that I still care
Black Roses and Hail Marys
Can't bring back
What's been taken from me
It makes him think of Botan and she probably hates his guts right now. Once Hiei let his guard down at a meeting and was gawking at how pretty she was and then relieved she was staring and him with a refection on his own feelings. But he turned away when he should have went over to her and talked her into letting him back into her life..
I reach to the sky
And call out your name
And if I could trade
I would
Some times Hiei stands out side her new apartment, on her balcony, and watches her sleep for that's the closet he can get to her without getting nervous.
And it feels
And it feels like
Heavens so far away
And it stings
Yeah it stings now
The worlds so cold
Now that you've gone away
All he wants is to be near her again, to hold her in his arms when she's happy and than tease her. Or when she's sad so he can sooth her and kiss away her tears. Even when she's angry so she'll see reason. But just to hold her again.
Gone a way
He's shed so many tears in the past month and he doesn't want to anymore, but for that to happen he needs her back.
Yeah, yeah, yeah, gone way
And who knows when that will be.
I reach to the sky
and call out your name
Oh, please let me trade
I would
He's had Kurama and Yusuke yell at him so much that he's broke down, only to threaten them that if they told anyone that they saw him cry, he'd kill them. But they helped them and started to come up with a plan to get the two back together, of course leaving Hiei out of it…it was a surprise.
And it feels
And it feels like
Heavens so far away
And it feels
Yeah it feels like
The world has grown cold
Now that you've gone away
There is one true happiness in the world and that's to love and be loved. And Hiei wants that feeling back, or to grasp it for the first time.