Chapter 6 secrets

Spike wondered around Sunnydale finding a place he could crash for the night he limped round a corner and bumped into Clem.

"OW!" Spike screamed. "Hey watch it-" He saw Clem. "Clem?"

"Spike? You're back? Here. In Sunnydale."

"Yeah that I am. Got a place I could crash?"

"Sure, I got a new apartment a few blocks down, come on!"

"Thanks." Spike nodded still in pain.

"So what happened to you?" T

"Got stabbed."

"Why who?"

"A bloody Razor back demon. Saved the slayers life."

"When did you get back?"

"Few hours ago."

"It's good to see you Spike, you were in a mess when you left."

"Yeah." He mumbled and had a flash back of the bathroom with him and Buffy.

"So! Where did you go?"

"Places."

"Not much for talking are you?"

"I'm still I a lot of pain from the whole stabbing." He smiled.

"Right sorry. Well here it is! Home sweet home. I won the lottery" Clem chuckled and opened the door.

"Um Clem." Spike said holding his hand up to the doorway.

"Oh yeah, come in." He smiled.

Spike looked around the posh apartment and crashed out on the leather black couch.

"Do you want anything?" Clem asked.

"No, I'm good."

Clem went down and sat next to Spike. "I got some tasty fresh kittens in the kitchen."

Spike looked up at Clem and laughed.

Clems smiled faded and concentrated on Spikes eyes. "Spike? What did you do?" He whispered.

"What?"

"I can see it?"

"See what?" Spike stuttered.

"Your soul! How did you do it?" He laughed.

"You can see it?"

"Like a shinny bright diamond!"

Spike sighed and got up off his feet. "I did it for her! I got this soul, I changed for her."

"Does she know?"

"Does she know? NO! I can't tell her I don't know how to."

"Spike I think you really should. But how did you-"

He rubbed his forehead. "I went to Africa went and found a legend, a myth! A demon, I went though three trials and they were not easy I can tell you that. I passed all three and he gave me what I wanted."

"Your soul."

"Correct!" Spike made the charade sign at Clem. "I went insane for at least 4 or 5 months." He shook his head. "But I found my way back to Sunnydale and now I'm here."

"Wow, they should have that as a movie!"

Spike pointed at Clem. "You can't tell Buffy! She must here it from me…When I get the guts to tell her."

"Doesn't meaning you have a soul you go all lovely and stuff? You just seem like normal Spike!"

"I got two sides of me, even if I am a good guy."

The next night Spike headed out feeling much better he had a good sleep and plenty of blood. He walked towards the front door of Clems apartment and Clem called out to him.

"Hey are you coming back tonight? Because I mean you can crash here as long as you like!"

Spike smiled. "Maybe." And walked out onto the streets.

He stepped outside the door and was in Main street, the first thing he done was light up a cigarette then looked around.

"Hey!" Buffy said sweetly standing a few steps away from him.

He nodded. "Buffy."

"How are you?" She stuttered.

"I'm alive." He smiled. "How did they all take it back at home?"

"I told them that there is something different about you. I know there is, I just wish you would tell me."

Spike looked up at the sky and back at Buffy. She was looking at him with wonder and confusion and decided to put her out of her misery. "Wanna drink?"

"No."

"Buffy please. The Bronze?"

Buffy nodded and they walked to the Bronze. Spike went to the bar and ordered himself a beer he looked at Buffy and shook her head. They went and sat down in a quiet part of the Bronze and Spike sipped his beer.

"So!" Buffy said brushing her hair back.

Spike stayed silent thinking about how he could tell her about his soul. He decided to tell her everything.

"You might wanna go the toilet could take awhile."

"Spike!" she said with an angry tone of voice.

He sighed. "Right, okay here I go." He rubbed his forehead. "I was a mess when I left you saw me…The things I tried to do to you." He paused and breathed in. "They haunt me, I can see it now in my head I can see the marks on you now and I can feel the hurt I caused you."

"What are you getting at?"

"And it's not just what I did to you, no it's what I done to every single person I killed."

Buffy started to realise where Spike was going.

"I did this to be a better person, so you could see me for who I really am." He paused again. "For you to love me." He whispered and looked away.

"What did you do Spike?" She started worrying.

"I went and me a soul!" He said cheerfully.

She was stunned her lips moved but no sound came out.

"You don't have to say anything I don't expect you to. I had no idea how you were going to react." He saw Buffys eyes filling up with tears and cleared his throat. "I came back to help you."

"Where did you go? How did you do it?"

"I went to Africa and I went to find a legend I went through trials, some I thought I wouldn't even life through. But I came out the winner and the demon gave me my soul back. After that I was going insane feeling all these feelings. But I met this African man who helped me, funny enough he removed my chip! Forgot to add that bit in."

"You have no chip?"

"Well it's not like I'm going to go kill anyone anytime soon!" He sighed. "And that is my story, that is how I've changed."

He got up out of his seat and walked out of the Bronze. Buffy sat still she had tears filling her eyes and just then realised how much he really did love her.

Spike kicked a trashcan and wiped away tears in his eyes. "Pull yourself together!" He said to himself sniffing.