Chapter 13
Thursday was a normal day. I didn't have science, which meant I didn't get to sit next to Kai. Today I skipped lunch and went to the library to do some quite reading. I used to think that library's are for geeks and those clever people. But it was nothing like that. I sat in the end corner of a table and sat there reading a book about a girl at the age of sixteen that gets pregnant. And how hard it is at first. And every one knows what's best for her. And her boyfriend left her when she told him, that she was pregnant. But then at the end she has the baby and she says that it's just a total miracle. And how sweet and lovely baby's are. And she could hardly believe that it's her baby.
There was about five minutes left till the bell went and I decided to take another book out to do with pregnant girls. The bell had gone and I walked out of the library with the book on my hand because I had no space in my bag. I went to registration and then went to my fifth and sixths lesson Math's. After the lessons were over today I was with my friends, asking them if they can handout invitation card for Joe's birthday. We were all walking toward the school gates, talking and laughing out loud at each others jokes. As we were walking, I looked up, from the ground to the gates and saw Kai standing there. He was leaning against the gates, and when he saw me looking he straightened himself up. I was staring at him at first and then dropped my gaze. And then Rosa whispered something into my ears which made me smile and blush for a few seconds but I didn't do anything else. We went past Kai and he didn't even move when I went pass him. So I was pretty relieved.
A few seconds later as I was walking, when some one, grabbed my hand from the back and pulled me, and started kissing me. I couldn't even see who it was because they were so closes behind me. Then the persons grip around me went tighter. I thought about who it could be, and it can't be Kai because he seamed to be over me. And then I thought it must be Julian here to give me a surprise. And I thought, yeah it has to be Julian and no one else, so I slowly started to kiss him back. And I put my hand around his waist and the kiss went slowly deep. Then I slowly pulled away for breath and was shocked to see who really was my grabber. I started to struggle to get out of his grips but he just tighten it.
"Let go of me" I said hastily. "what are you doing Kai, let go of me"
I stared into his face in disgust and he still didn't let go of me.
"Kai, let me go. What do you want?"
He didn't even say a word, he let go of my waist and grabbed my wrist and pulled me.
"Kai, what you doing? Have you gone mad, Kai, let go of me . Where you taking me?"
And then I realized that he was taking me to the park. Were we used to go every day after school. " Kai, why you doing this?" I said almost in a little whisper. "Kai, talk to me."
And then we stopped under a tree. He looked around and then looked at me. Then I looked around, and no one was around. And then I slowly looked up at Kai. He was just looking at me very tensely. God, please help. I need to escape from here. I feel as if I'm being trapped. Then I thought of what to do. So I looked straight into Kai's eyes and said "you're right. I do still love you." At that I kissed Kai full on the lips desperately and Kai totally fell for it and kissed me back just as desperately as I was. Then he slowly let go of my wrist. And I gentled the kiss and he started kissing my neck. And I felt that I should do it now, when I felt his hand go on to my hair and took my bubble off and let my hair release. That's when I went for it, I picked my foot up and kicked him on the leg and pushed him as hard as I could and made a run for it. when I looked back I didn't see Kai behind me. So I stopped and turned around to see that Kai was on the ground rubbing his leg where I had kicked him. For a second I felt really sorry for him and wanted to go back and help him. I took a few steps towards him and stopped immediately when I saw Kai get up. I was about 6 meters away from him. "why, why did you do that?" said Kai, in a very soothing voice.
"Kai, I'm sorry, but it was you're fault. Look, I don't love you Kai. Me and you are over. Can't you get that.."
"no, I can't because I love you, can't you get that. Please Katie, I'm sorry for all I did. Can't you forgive me. We can start all over again. I'll never do any thing wrong again."
"I'm sorry Kai, it's a bit too late now, I love Julian and there's nothing you can do to change that, I'm sorry." I turned around and ran all the way home crying. Why couldn't he understand that I love Julian and not him any more. I went into my room and sat down in silent and pretended that nothing just happened it was all a dream.