Chapter 9

Lying to yourself

During the ride to the ball Kagome's mind raced 'Why am I acting like this ? Its Sesshoumaru! Human hating demon lord! Inuyasha's brother! Who could I have forgotten him so easily did he mean so little to me…or is it just that Sesshoumaru has grown to mean so much to me? Do I? Could I? Be falling in-love with him?'

Soon after… They arrived at they Ball . It was a big grassy field with a platform in the middle Japanese lanterns hung from streamers and the branches of tree's. Add in the light of the beautiful sparkling stars and the amazingly breathing silvery blue crescent moon it was one of those moments you wished you had a camera to capture it and keep it forever..

Kagome had finally figured out that indeed she might be falling for the ice lord that it may not have been just lust. She tired to tell him "Sesshoumaru I need to tell you som-" "Ah. Lord Sesshoumaru so glad you made it!" the woman said sweetly then glanced to his side and saw Kagome "Who's this?" she said bitterly.

The woman was clearly 'easy on the eyes' her voice was velvety soft. She was a tall as Sesshoumaru with long flowing light blue hair, her eyes like blue endless pool's her skin a snowy white as it shimmered in the light of the lanterns her lips were a peachy color.

Even showing disgust toward Kagome made her still god like in everyone's eyes Sesshoumaru stepped in front of me "It's a pleasure Rainia I see you've done your usual magnificent wonders on the forest"

Rainia giggled sweetly "Tis my job my lord" she smiled sweetly her eyes looking seductively at him "I trust you like what you see?" "don't I always Rainia" she smiled

"Rainia this is my companion Lady Kagome" she shriveled back a little in disgust "So I take the gossip is true…this filthy disgusting excuse for a waste of air is your woman?"

'HOW HOW HOW COULD SHE SAY THAT!' Kagome stunned that something so hateful could come from that beautiful face 'she has no right!'

Before Sesshoumaru could defend her Kagome took matter into her own hands "Listen here because I'll only say this once. Your insult's don't even bother me. In fact I could careless what you think of me. Because when it come down to your probably jealous of me because"

then Kagome smiled sweetly at her "I have something you couldn't get if you wanted to which you probably do from the trashy attire your wearing"

She grabbed Sesshoumaru's hand and walked off. Leaving a very steamed wind demon standing there gritting her teeth.

'I've never seen her so upset…'he thought as her looked at Rainia's face and then looked at Kagome who smiled brightly. 'I've never seen her take a insult so well'

"You handled that -" "I know I know Sesshou I shouldn't have been so rude! but-in-all-honesty-she-shouldn't-have-been-such-a-royal-" she rambled the Sesshoumaru cut in "You handled that very well."

she stop in the middle of saying 'brat-not-to-mention-spoiled-princess' she smiled at him and threw her arm's around his neck.

And for some reason when her arms went around him. He felt this uncontrollable feeling he had never experienced before. It felt like a rush like he was soaring in the sky, he felt untouchable nothing could bring him down but above all. He felt like having her here now was the first thing in his life that ever felt like it fit perfectly. He felt happy…

"Sesshoumaru…" Kagome looked into his beautiful amber orb's "I need to tell you something…" he looked down at her.

Then music started to play a slow song "Kagome join me?" she smiled 'well I guess it can wait for a dance' "I'd love to" they walked to the middle of the dance floor.

All of the demon's were shock to see Sesshoumaru had brought a miko to a demon ball. And also because he was dancing with her. The Ice lord himself the one who would never mate.

Was gazing so passionately into this young female's big beautiful sparkling brown eye's.

Be she human or demon she was the envy of the night to all that saw her. The girls glared evilly at her as their mate's or companion's gapped over her beauty and grace as she danced her smile was half of her beauty alone.

The girls also glared because she a human miko had been chosen by lord Sesshoumaru the one they all wished to have instead of them.

But too one miko and one demon lord they were the only people in the world as they so gracefully danced across the floor as if they were merely walking on the clouds.

Kagome laid her head on his shoulder closing her eye's "I lov-" but before she got it out Rainia cut in.

"Sesshoumaru I must have a word with you" Rainia chirped ignoring Kagome "..alone if you will"

Sesshoumaru looked questioningly down at Kagome. She just smiled and nodded

Rainia lead Sesshoumaru out of the clearing and into the wood's…

Kagome stood there in the middle of the floor nervous as the demon's growled and winked seductively at her. While the female's glared.

And then she spotted a familiar face in the swarming crowd forming around her. She broke past them and ran straight to Kouga.

"Kouga you're here I'm so thrilled you're here!" she said fairly loud trying to give the demon's a hint. Kouga smiled at her "Well I am prince of northern lands after all….who did you come with"

"Sesshoumaru" she said like it wasn't anything out of the usual "Wow old ice lord's finally found someone" Kagome blushed. Kouga looked at her sharply "Where is he"

"he's in the woods speaking to Lady Rainia" Kouga stood there "Do you love him?" she nodded "does he know?" she didn't nod "if you love him then you need tell him now" she looked at him with confusion in her eye's

Then she smiled "your right! Absolutely!" she marched on into the direction Sesshoumaru went.

'I should have warned her' Kouga thought but instead he walked with her half way then waited for her to return.

Rainia looked over Sesshoumaru's should and saw the miko coming and did the first thing that came to mind she kissed him.

Sesshoumaru tried to pull away but her grip stayed she turned him toward the stunned and hurt miko just as she walked up.

She watched in horror as her love repeated itself. And her heart crumbled once again she could not speak nor could she run like she really wanted to right then. She wanted more then anything run away and forget it happened but her feet wouldn't move.

He watched her eye's water as she stared in disbelief. He watched as she tried to blink them away, as she tried so desperately to run. With his might he shoved Rainia to the ground.

Kagome her hand over heart and his mothers necklace turned at that very moment and ran to Kouga "Kagome" she turned mid step but wouldn't look at him "What's wrong with you"

She looked up at him "Nothing" she said dryly "nothing I just finally opened my eyes!" she ripped the necklace of her neck and threw it at his feet. She walked to Kouga.

He looked down at it and ever emotion in his body went haywire. His beautiful amber eyes that just minutes ago when they were dancing in their world so glazed over with joy now were with sadness.

Picking up the necklace he walked to her "are you leaving" she turned to him a single tear graced her face "do love me" she spoke bitterly

he was stunned he couldn't answer he didn't no and yet he did but his pride stopped him he would never love a human. "I don't love you"

She looked deep into his eyes. she knew he cared from his grief filled eye's but she had hear it that was the only thing that would stay and he knew it.

She looked up at him with sympathy filled eyes she walked to him and leaned into his ear "If you don't love me then why do you care so much? If lying to yourself helps then do it but one day the truth will come back to haunt you but only…after its too late for you to do anything about it"

With that said she walked to Kouga's side he picked her up bridal style and sped off with amazing speed. That night she got Shippou and her things which was her bow and arrows, her school uniform, inuyasha necklace and sword. And left with a single note on his bed.

She stayed with Kouga at his den that night until she could figure out what to do next.

A/N: Thank you for all the great review's and I'm sorry for the cliffy but this is romance/drama. So you all will have the next chapter at….. well sometime tonight or Sunday depending what mood I'm in so cross your toe's and wiggle your nose! (Oh my god that sounded so corney) until next time

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