Chapter Four- November

Oh Journal, it's nice to be inside and cozy warm again. Even if I was having a lovely time…it's a bit too crisp outside. Definitely in heavy cloak weather. Most of the leaves have fallen to the ground, making all the roads look rather cheerful decorated in red and orange. I put my hair in those shades in homage. I love nature. I love hearing it crunch under my feet. Especially in pairs, and especially when the pair is me and REMUS LUPIN!

He walked me home today from the meeting. It was so cute, he was going on about how things like appariting can sometimes make us forget about simple joys like taking a walk. He said he had to go to this part of London anyway to see someone about a job, and could he walk me home. I almost died for all the fireworks suddenly going off inside me and still trying to remain composed. Well, as composed as I normally am. Can you call that composed? I only stumbled over two sewer grates and bumped into one lamp post on our way, and I think he only noticed the lamp post.

I think I'm even clumsier when he's around. It's harder to pay attention to what I'm doing when there is someone so wonderful, so much more worthy of my focus. Huh? Sorry, I was thinking about him again. Remus Lupin walked me home! I could squeal with joy. It can't be that he fancies me, I would die from shock. I'm so insane, just a little bit of attention from him and I go off the rocker.

And he looked so dashing today. I never knew anyone who could make shabby brown tweed look so good. Today he was wearing it with a soft gray sweater, faded green trousers and an old black cloak. I love that sweater. It just seems intrinsic to him. He was wearing it on Halloween.

We had a bit of a party at headquarters. Everyone was there; it was something of a blast. The first thing we did was carve pumpkins. I made mine all goofy and cross-eyed, with a lop-sided mouth and missing teeth. It looked a little like Mad-Eye. His pumpkin he carved to resemble a bull's eye. He's mad, our Mad-Eye. Oops, that was redundant.

Molly made a cute little face on hers and she bewitched it so it would wink its eyelashes at you. It was so adorable, Arthur saw it and had to kiss her. It's inspiring to see two people so in love after so many years of marriage, and after so many children. I caught Remus smiling at them reminiscently. His pumpkin he fashioned to be the silhouette of a wolf. No big surprises there.

Sirius made a scary face that kinda looked like a dementor, Dedalus Diddle made a happy face, and Emmeline Vance made something, but I'm not sure what it was supposed to be. Sirius was in such good spirits, as he always is whenever there's loads of people around. He charmed the pumpkins to tell scary stories.

It may seem frivolous that we, the members of the Order of the Phoenix, the front line opposers of he-who-must-not-be-named in an up and coming all out war of good versus evil, were doing something as goofy as having a Halloween party. Well, it was Dumbledore's idea. He said he thought we could use a bit of levity. Madcap, he is, but brilliant. What is it that Hagrid always says? Oh yeah… "Great man, Dumbledore." We did all feel sort of refreshed after it.

Work's been ok. Scrimgeour hasn't asked me any funny questions in a while, although he still watches me rather closely. Dirty git that he is. Very close ties to the likes of Fudge and Umbridge, that one.

Last week I helped Molly get dinner ready. She let me stir the potatoes, and I didn't burn myself or spill any over the stove. I even added the correct amount of salt! She was so pleased with me, she showed me how to make pudding. Eventually, we got it all off the ceiling.

N. Tonks