The Life that Never Was

By: Goblyn-Queen

Disclaimer: I don't own Gilmore Girls.

Author's Note: This is about what Lorelai's life would have or could have been if she didn't have Rory. It starts out with an argument with Lorelai and Emily in the present. By the way the title sucks I know but I couldn't think of anything better.

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Chapter 1

Lorelai and Emily were fighting again. There conversation had first been on Yale, then some how the topic changed to Lorelai and how she never went to college or even graduated high school. Lorelai didn't know what made her come to her parent's house anyway. Lorelai was in the neighborhood because of the business class she was taking then she had pick something up from her mother. They got into a conversation and here they were, arguing.

"Well I'm SORRY if I got pregnant! But it's not completely my fault! Christopher's a part of it too! But you love Chris so it can't be his fault!" Lorelai screamed. She was on the verge or crying.

"Well I'm glad you're finally taking some responsibility for you mistakes!" Emily screamed back.

"I don't know what you're talking about" Lorelai was confused.

"All the mistakes in your life is our fault. Richard's and my fault."

"I never said the mistakes in my life were your fault!" Lorelai said getting mad.

"No you didn't. But everyone knows that when your kid does something wrong it's their parents fault for not raising them better."

"Oh so now this is about you! Is that what your saying?"

"No Lorelai it's not about me! It's all about you always about you!"

"It is! Your only daughter had to drop out of high school because she was pregnant and you had to tell all of your friends, all the people from the DAR, and all the other people in the stupid clubs you're in. You were humiliated that much I know!"

"I'm not going to lie Lorelai I was humiliated. But this is not about me!" Don't tell me you've never wondered what your life would be like if you didn't get pregnant?"

"You mean if I didn't have Rory?" Lorelai was steaming, "No I haven't thought about it. I love my life. I love Rory, and I don't want it to change!"

"You were smart… brilliant, you could have been rich and successful! You were going to go to Yale like your father!"

"I bet I would have but do you really think the money matters to me? All I need is Rory she is my life! It would never be the same with out her."

"You don't think I love Rory? I do. But all I'm saying is if you've ever thought about how your life would be with out Rory?" Lorelai did right after she moved out of her parents' house but she would never admit it to her mother especially right now.

"No I've never thought of it my life is perfect right now! I couldn't imagine it any other way!" Emily shook her head.

"You are impossible!"

"Well I got that from you!" Lorelai retorted, "I'm leaving I'm not going to have this conversation anymore!" Lorelai headed towards the door while Emily followed.

"What about Christopher?" Lorelai turned around, "Do not mention him!" Lorelai was furious.

"Don't you wish he had raised Rory with you?"

'She's trying to get me mad.' Lorelai thought. "If I did want Christopher to raise Rory with me don't you think I would have married him!"

"Well you were young back then do you regret your decision?"

"My decision to leave this house? No I don't regret it! If I hadn't left this house when I had Rory she wouldn't be the same she would probably turn out like me because you'd be holding her back. She would probably rebel and do the same stuff I did. And then you'd probably hate her too!"

Emily was shocked. She didn't want her daughter to think that she hated her, "I don't hate you Lorelai. It's just you're hard to talk to and understand." Emily softened.

Lorelai started towards the door, "See you next week." Lorelai wasn't going to get over this by next week. She didn't think she would get over this at all. Today Emily had been Emily but worse than usual.

As much as Lorelai hated to admit it her mother had been right about something today. She has thought of what her life would be like without Rory. Some bad some good. But the only times she ever thought about that was when she was 16. But Emily had been right she had thought about it.

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Author's Note: The rest of the story will be about Lorelai's life if she didn't have Rory. Please Review! Thanks.