Title: "Collections"
Self-explanatory. Just my one-shots all compiled together...
Chapter Title: Will you miss me? (Written: Friday, April 1, 2005)
Chapter Summary: It's a letter I would picture Johnny writing to his parents. I got the idea for it as I read Johnny's letter to Ponyboy. This was my first post here on this site... it got taken off because I put a Thank You note to those who reviewed as a separate chapter... before it got deleted, it had fourteen reviews. As I say this, I don't mean to sound uptight about popularity or anything like that, I'm just mentioning information that has been lost...
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Dear Mom... Dear Dad,
Why did you hate me...? What... what had I done...? You never hugged me... you never kissed me goodnight--why did you detest me so?
Dad... remember, how at night, when I'd come home... you'd set down your beer, stand up... and reach for your baseball bat--do you... do you remember that? ... Why? Why did you do it? Did it please you...? Did you take pride in the fact that you made me miserable? That every day, after all that you put me through, I'd still hope that you loved me? That at night, sitting on my bed, I'd dream that you would suddenly realize that you loved me and never meant to hurt me?
Mom... you only cared about yourself... you'd sell me--and dad for that matter, up the river just so you could get you filthy hands on more clothes and make-up. Why did you come to the hospital that one day? Did you want to yell at me some more? Did you want to release some frustration? ... Mom... you know... some part of me... really wanted to believe that you actually cared about me... Did you? Did you ever? Did you finally come to see that you loved me too? Is that why you came? To tell me that suddenly, you felt sorry and ashamed for hurting me...? To tell me that all this time you never meant to be so cruel to me? Did you...? Or was I wrong...?
Answer me something... if I die... would you cry for me...? If I died here in this hospital--maybe tomorrow... Would you care--enough to cry for me...?
You don't deserve to be called parents...
You don't deserve... to be called human...
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