THIS CHAPTER IS VERY R RATED…THERE IS VERY GRAPHIC VIOLENCE AND IF YOU DON'T THINK YOU CAN HANDLE IT, DON'T READ IT.

Tragedy

"It's a boy," said the healer with a smile.

Ginny smiled and sighed in content as she saw Harry smile.

Harry and Ginny decided that they need professional help in order to conceive but since they decided 'no more healers', they went to a muggle clinic.

But when they got to the doctor's office, the doctor immediately recognised Harry and told them that he was actually a healer that was fired from St. Mungo's after the first war when Fudge passes a new law ordering all of the healers with half-human relatives to be fired.

Healer Lou told them that his brother had been bitten by a werewolf when he was ten, causing him to be fired by the ministry.

When healer Lou heard of Ginny's incapability to conceive, he frowned and did a few tests. After a couple of minutes of testing, which caused the healer's frown to deepen, healer Lou asked Ginny if, during the labour, she was administrated with a potion.

Ginny nodded and the healer sighed. He explained to them that the healers sometimes administer a potion that could stop the witch's fertility for a couple of years. He said that it was administrated only in case of danger to the mother and that he can't see anything wrong with Ginny that would justify administrating the potion.

He gave Ginny the needed prescription to the fertility potion and Ginny happily thanked him. Two weeks later, Ginny discovered that she was pregnant. Due the growing threat of Draco Malfoy, Harry and Ginny decided not to tell the others that she was pregnant until they asked.

But it was inevitable the family to notice Ginny's growing belly and after some persuasion, Harry and Ginny gave up and told them, making the seven months pregnant Hermione grin knowingly and Molly dab her eyes on a handkerchief.

When asked, the healer told Harry and Ginny that Floo was perfectly safe while pregnant but apparation wasn't since it could rip the baby away from the placenta.

"When is he due?" asked Harry who was holding two years old James.

"You are five months pregnant, correct?" Ginny nodded "I would say sometime around March, maybe even late February."

"Great, thank you very much Healer Lou," said Ginny, standing up and shaking the healer's hand.

"No problem at all, Mrs. Potter," said Healer Lou.

"Ginny, please," requested Ginny with a smile.

"Only if you call me Alex," Healer Lou said, grinning.

"Ok, Alex, thank you very much," said Harry and shook healer Lou's hand.

"Oh! I almost forgot!" said healer Lou, smacking his head. He took a small ball from his drawer and handed it to Ginny "Please, Ginny, if the labour starts, squeeze it and I'll come immediately."

Ginny smiled and nodded "I'll see you Alex."

Both Ginny and Harry walked out of the clinic with broad smiles. Harry was holding James on one arm and holding Ginny's shoulders tight to his body on the other.

"I'm so happy," he said quietly.

"I am too," said Ginny and kissed his cheek.

"Daddy!" called James and diverted his parents' attention to him. "Done!"

Harry smiled and put James on the pavement, holding his hand. James walked wobbly as Ginny called a cab.

As the cab drove them to the muggle town that was the closest to Godric's Hollow, Ginny leaned on Harry's shoulder, looking at James that was sleeping on Harry's other shoulder. Harry didn't seem to mind that both of his shoulders were occupied since he was sleeping.

Ginny reflected on the last couple of months that were both exhausting and exhilarating for both of them. Finding out she was pregnant brought them both to tears and when Healer Lou told them it was fine and even recommended to have sexual relations, both of them celebrated it in long hours in bed.

But Harry's job was demanding and she knew he was starting to tire from it. If Ginny was honest with herself, she selfishly thought, she wanted him to stop working altogether. But she knew Harry wouldn't stop working. He was not one to sit all day at home and do nothing. He needed something to do.

As Ginny pondered about what job would satisfy Harry's needs and still make him be around the house a bit more, the cab stopped.

"That'll be 37.25 pounds, ma'am," said the driver.

Ginny nudged Harry "Harry! We're here!"

Harry lifted his head and looked groggily around. "How much is it again?" he asked the driver.

The driver looked annoyed "37.25 pounds and it'll be more if you won't pay up," he said rudely.

Harry handed him the money and stepped out of the car, followed by Ginny, whom was holding sleeping James.

As Harry held the door open for Ginny to come in, he sensed something was wrong in the house. He put his hand out to stop Ginny from entering.

"Harry what-" started Ginny.

"Something's not right," he said "Lumos"

Ginny gasped at the sight. On the wall, just above James's crib, there was a word written on the wall, and it looked morbidly familiar to the writing on the school walls in his second year. He felt Ginny shiver at the memory.

SOON

"Soon?" asked Ginny weakly "Harry, he's coming after us!" cried Ginny, fighting the urge to start sobbing.

"We're not safe here Ginny, we must go," Harry said after the initial shock settled.

"Where?" she whispered croakily, wiping a few betraying tears away from her face.

"I don't know, I'll think of something, go pack yourself and James clothes, we may not return here soon," Harry said hoarsely, kissing Ginny's forehead hard.

Ginny got upstairs to pack and Harry paced around the room. Calling the aurors will be a good idea but by the time they'll get here, Malfoy could very well kill them.

I won't let that happen.

He suddenly saw in his spirit the debate his father had, and he agreed wholeheartedly with his decision; he'd rather die than let Ginny or James die.

There is only one thing to do: wait for Malfoy and put James and Ginny in hiding until he is captured. Harry felt his heart constrict at the thought of not seeing Ginny and James for an unknown period of time.

"Harry?" came Ginny's weak voice from the stairs.

Harry turned and saw the fright in Ginny's eyes. He went over her and hugged her as close as he could.

"What are we going to do?" she whispered.

"You're going into hiding with James," said Harry, feeling very grave and sad.

"What do you mean?" Ginny broke the embrace and some angry fire started to spark in her eyes.

"I mean that you and James are going into hiding until I find Malfoy and toss his rear into Azkaban again."

"Absolutely not!" shrilled Ginny "I am not going anywhere without you Harry!"

"Ginny, you're pregnant, you are in no condition to fight!" said Harry in an ebbing determination.

"What good will it do to me to raise two children without their father?" she said, tears immediately filling her eyes "I won't be able to deal with two boys alone."

"You have your mother and your family-" protested Harry with pain etched to his voice.

"Boys need their father! And if their father won't survive, it is better that their mother won't either!" said Ginny, the tears suddenly spilling.

"How can you say that?" asked Harry weakly "What about James?"

"James will live with my mother," Ginny said in a chocked voice "But I won't under any circumstances, live without you and with two baby boys!"

Ginny burst into tears and buried her face in Harry's robes. Harry struggled to control his tears as well – he wasn't the teary type, but this was heartbreaking for him.

After Ginny sobbed for a couple of minutes Harry nudged her "We got to go," he said in a strange voice, looking at James, who was sleeping inside the crib.

Ginny picked James up and took some Floo powder. With a last glance at Harry, she cried 'The Borrow', followed closely by Harry.

"Great Merlin Ginny! What happened? Harry, you both look awful!" cried Mrs Weasley "Is there something wrong?"

"We can't tell you right now mom," said Ginny, kissing the top of James's hair "But we need you to baby-sit him for an unlimited time period."

At the curious glance from Mrs Weasley Harry elaborated "Malfoy is after us and we have to keep James safe, will you keep him for us?" he asked.

"Of course, but Ginny, you're pregnant-" protested Molly.

"We've got no time to explain mom, if something happens to us…take care of him for us ok?" Ginny said with eyes full of tears.

"But Ginny-"

Harry and Ginny kissed James's head one last time before disappearing into the fireplace, cutting Mrs Weasley's rant.

When they reached their house again, Ginny broke into heartbreaking sobs that shook her entire body. She was clutching one of James's blankets onto her dear life and Harry had to pull it away from her by force and raise her to her feet.

"We can't waste time on this Gin, let it go, we'll see him again," Harry tried to accomplish his soothing voice, but couldn't because it broke.

"Will you now?"

Harry turned around quickly at the sound of Draco Malfoy's voice. He wasn't quick enough though; Malfoy already summoned both Harry and Ginny's wands and was waving them mockingly in front of their faces.

Harry felt his heart starting to beat faster and in contrast; he was growing paler by the minute. Ginny was shaking and tried to conceal her small belly.

"No need to hide it Ginerva," sneered Malfoy as he looked Ginny up and down "You are certainly a pretty witch- for a blood-traitor."

Harry got mad- how dare he check out his wife while he was there? Harry tried to calm himself but the rage was much too stronger than him.

"Leave her out of this!" he roared at Malfoy.

Malfoy laughed maliciously "Why, little Ginerva is everything here, why leave her out?" he drawled mockingly, waving Harry's wand.

After a few seconds of silence, Malfoy seemed to have gotten bored "Let's make it interesting," he said and bound Harry in tight snake-like grey ropes.

"Now Potter, you will watch your wife beg for mercy to me…and then, you know what I'll make her do Potter? I'll make her writhe under me-"

"Shut up!" shouted Harry, disgusted and sick. How can one man be so cruel?

"As you wish," smirked Malfoy and turned to Ginny. He raised his wand and just as he shouted "Crucio" Harry desperately yelled an anguished "NO!"

Ginny screamed as the pain hit her stomach. She grabbed it and screamed with all her might. It was like hot pokers stabbing her all over her body.

Malfoy released Ginny from the spell "Liked that Potter?" he said in a sickly voice that reflected only too well how much he was enjoying it.

"Stop!" called Harry, willing to let his pride go. He just prayed that Ginny and the baby weren't too badly hurt. And that someone would come and save them. Anyone.

"Stop so soon Potter? No, I think Ginerva here is enjoying it too much…Crucio!"

Harry could do nothing but yell for help and mercy as Ginny took the curse again. She was trashing around and grabbing her stomach in pain. Harry could see through his slightly brimmed eyes that Ginny was crying.

Harry tried to use some wandless magic he learned from Dumbledore when he was in seventh year and let himself free but it wasn't working.

Ginny was screaming again and she knew that she is not going to last for much longer, she felt like the invisible ropes that were holding all of her insides is going to rip soon. And then…and then there will be no more pain.

Ginny felt that beginning of the invisible rope was starting to rip. Right in her womb. Ginny couldn't think, just had to get some air into her lungs at the slight pause in pain.

"Ah…I see I made some progress," said Malfoy with a very smug smirk. Harry felt his heart break – Ginny was bleeding.

"Ginny!" he called hopelessly, fighting the tears that were blurring his vision. But Ginny didn't answer. He struggled hopelessly against the robes that tied him.

Malfoy was cackling in vicious laughter "Potter's trying to protect his little wife…how sweet…would you like some too Potter? Like your wife? Maybe later…" Malfoy laughed again "Crucio!"

Ginny wasn't screaming anymore, the physical pain was nothing, nothing, compared to what was going on in her heart.

She didn't say a proper goodbye to Harry and James. She didn't tell them enough how much she loves them…how they are all she is.

I love you Harry she thought and that was when she felt the pause in the curse along with the feeling of something hot and sticky between her legs.

Harry's eyes widened as he saw that Ginny was bleeding from between her legs.

Malfoy killed his baby boy.

Malfoy laughed again and got closer to Ginny, picking up the bloody, premature baby who looked like a very small human being, and shoved it into Ginny's face.

"Say hello to your baby boy!" he cackled and as Ginny's eyes caught the sight of the baby she blacked out.

"Ah! Ginerva is out! Now what about you Potter? Want to see your baby boy?"

Harry didn't know what caused the enormous magical burst; maybe it was the sight of his wife bleeding and lying on the floor unconscious, maybe it was the sight of Malfoy's obvious delight over killing an innocent baby, but Harry roared as huge amounts of power released him from the ropes and made Malfoy fly in the air.

Harry, seeing that the baby was still in Malfoy's hands, quickly summoned him into his own hands before Malfoy hit the metal stairs with a gonging 'thud'.

Harry quickly put the bloody baby on the living room's table before rushing into Ginny's side.

"Ginny!" he called, shaking her gently. "Ginny! Wake up for me!"

It took Harry a good couple of seconds to realise that he was sobbing and clutching Ginny tight into his chest.

Without letting Ginny go, he tossed some Floo powder into the dying fire, which immediately caused her to flame, and call 'The Borrow'.

"Harry! Oh great Merlin! Harry what happened? Where's Ginny?" Molly's scream sounded from The Borrow.

"Molly, call the healers and the aurors here quick, please…" begged Harry before collapsing himself and blacking out.

Ginny didn't know where she is. Everything was white and when she looked down she saw she was standing on a cloud-like material that was surprisingly strong enough to carry her.

Ginny turned around; every thing was white and she started to panic. Where was she? Where is Harry?

"Harry?" she called hoarsely.

"Harry is not here," said a soft voice behind her.

Ginny turned; was she seeing herself? A woman was standing there, with red hair that reached to her mid-back and her eyes – so much like Harry's.

"Lily?" she whispered disbelievingly. Lily smiled "Am I dead?"

Lily shook her head "No, but you're close to."

"Why am I here?" Ginny asked fearfully, if she wasn't dead, why was she seeing dead people?

"Because the fates decided you should be able to see your baby," Lily whispered her eyes full of tears.

Only then Ginny realised that there was a small redhead boy standing next to Lily, holding her skirt and hiding between the skirt's folds.

"Come on baby," said Lily and bent down. She turned the boy around and when he caught sight of Ginny his eyes brightened.

"Mommy!" he called. Ginny had to fight her tears as the boy ran to her. He jumped into her arms and Ginny held him close to her, hugging him tightly.

"I missed you," he whispered in her ear. His voice was so childlike she couldn't hold her tears anymore.

"Ginny, I'm really sorry," said Lily, who was watching the scene with slightly misted eyes "But he has to come back with me."

"No!" cried the child and held Ginny closer. Ginny was sobbing now and gripped her baby even harder "Mommy don't go!"

Ginny's heart tore and she felt herself kissing every bit of his face as she stood up. "I'll be back," she said in a husky voice.

"No! Mommy! Please stay with me!" sobbed the little boy.

"Baby, she can't do that…" said Lily as she got closer and took one of the boy's arms.

"Will you come back? And what about Daddy?" asked the boy as he sniffed.

Ginny couldn't answer him so Lily did "Baby, both Mommy and Daddy will come back to you, I promise. You have me and Granddaddy and Padfoot and you're having fun don't you?"

The boy reluctantly nodded and Ginny wiped her tears; at least he was happy.

"I promise Daddy and I will come back," Ginny said in a broken voice.

"Ginny…thank you for taking care of my baby," said Lily and hugged Ginny.

"I love him so much," said Ginny, meaning both her baby and Harry.

"I know," said Lily and looked into Ginny's eyes. "It's going to be ok, I promise."

Ginny nodded and felt a weird sensation in her stomach, like some of the organs are fading. "Goodbye Ginny."

It was then that Ginny felt that Lily and the boy are starting to fade. She didn't want to go yet "I love you!" she yelled.

"Mommy!"

"She's getting into shock, give her a blanket!" Ginny heard someone order and then felt something warm covering her.

"Ginny? Ginny? Wake up honey!" Ginny heard her mother's voice yell to her.

"Please Mrs Weasley, relax…" she heard the voice again.

"How can I relax?" she heard her mother's fanatic voice. "She was bleeding all over! And poor Harry!"

Harry? What happened to Harry?

"Harry?" she tried to say.

"Mrs Potter? Are you awake?" Ginny heard the voice that was probably the healer's.

"Ginny? Ginny?" Mrs Weasley said again.

"Harry…" Ginny managed to say. She was hurting all over. Her body hurt like it was stabbed a thousand times and…the baby…

"Baby…" she muttered, trying to feel her stomach, but all she felt was loose skin.

"Oh honey…" Mrs Weasley said tearfully, she saw what happened to the poor baby.

"Mr Potter is recovering a few rooms away; he used a big part of his magical energy and he is very weak at the moment."

"Baby…" said Ginny again, remembering her dream.

"Honey…Malfoy….Malfoy killed the baby…" said Mrs Weasley with a lump in her voice.

Ginny wanted to cry, to scream, but she was hurting all over and could barely move and talk, let alone cry.

"Please relax Mrs Potter, you are under a lot of stress," said the healer and thrust a goblet into her hands.

Ginny, without thinking, put the goblet on her lips and drank. It was only a few seconds later that she realised the goblet contained a dreamless sleeping draught.

Meanwhile in Harry's room, Harry was slowly waking up, and the memories started to flood him like a bucket of ice water.

He groaned as he tried to move and felt too weak to do so. Where was Ginny? What happened to Malfoy?

"Welcome back mate," said Ron's voice.

Harry turned his head slowly and saw Ron sitting on a chair next to a very pregnant Hermione. Harry looked at Hermione's stomach before he felt a gigantic lump rise in his throat.

"Maybe it's best that I'll go for now," Hermione said softly as she saw where Harry's eyes were. She stood up slowly and kissed Harry's forehead "I'm really, really sorry Harry," she said tearfully and walked out of the room.

"I'm sorry mate," said Ron heavily.

"Where's Ginny?" said Harry "Why am I here?"

"You used a lot of magical energy mate and it made you weak," said Ron, looking at his feet.

"And Ginny? Is she alright?" asked Harry, struggling with every word. He couldn't lose Ginny, too.

"Ginny…Ginny lost the baby Harry; she's very weak and hasn't woken up yet. I'm sorry."

Suddenly a healer entered the room carrying a goblet "Ah! Mr Potter, I see you have been woken up. Your wife has already woken up and I'm sure she won't need to be here for over a week. You however, almost emptied your magical energy, Mr Potter…"

"I want to see my wife," Harry cut the healer's banter.

The healer frowned "I'm afraid she's asleep at the moment."

"I don't care, I want to see her."

Harry was acting like a spoiled child and he knew it. He wanted to see Ginny, need to see that she is alright.

The healer sighed and looked around, as if trying to find someone to support her obvious disapproval of him going out of bed. When she could find no one but Ron, she sighed again.

"Fine, you may go and see her, but it is pointless, since she is asleep."

She conjured a walking stick and helped Harry out of bed. Harry felt a little dizzy as he stood up and took in a deep breath.

"You ok mate?" whispered Ron. Harry nodded and slowly started walking towards the door, both the nurse and Ron watching his steps.

They walked for what Harry thought was hours, but was actually a few minutes, until they reached a door in the end of the hallway. The healer opened the door for Harry and Harry saw Mrs Weasley sitting on a chair next to Ginny, holding her hand and weeping.

Mrs Weasley raised her head as the door opened and saw Harry. She let her daughter's hand go and walked towards Harry. She engulfed him in a surprisingly soft embrace.

"Oh Harry, I'm a so sorry," she whispered in his ear and kissed his temple.

"Thank you Mrs Weasley," said Harry with a slight break to his voice. He looked at sleeping Ginny and wished more than anything that he could hold her right now. She must be in terrible pain.

"Do you want to go and lie next to her?" Molly asked, as if reading his mind.

"Yes, please," Harry said.

They led him to Ginny's bed and Molly arranged the blankets so he could get in.

"Thank you," he said and looked into Mrs Weasley's eyes.

"Oh Harry…" said Mrs Weasley and hugged him again briefly.

Harry, with the help of Mrs Weasley, lay down next to Ginny, instinctively putting his arm around her stomach.

He felt his eyelids drop and suddenly felt his hand was touching where, once, their baby was growing.

He held Ginny's stomach under the blankets and even though his eyes were shut he was fighting the dry sob that was threatening to come out of his throat.

He felt that Mrs Weasley was watching him and suddenly felt her stroking his hair in a soothing way that calmed him down. He sank into deep sleep moments afterwards.

Ginny woke up and immediately felt that Harry was lying next to her. She turned around and tried not to move his arm from around her waist.

Harry, as if sensing that Ginny needed warmth, hugged her even closer and Ginny could see that Harry was frowning in his sleep.

Probably dreaming about the baby, she thought miserably.

As she was lying there, pressed to Harry's chest, she tried to remember a dream she had the other day. There was a woman and a boy there and they were both talking to her.

She tried to remember further and suddenly she remembered; Harry's mom was there…with…with her baby…

Ginny let a few tears escape as she remembered Malfoy's taunting. The blood…the poor baby was in Malfoy's hands…taunting her, mocking her…

She let a sob out and Harry tightened his arms around her. She looked up and saw that Harry was now awake and had tears in his eyes.

He held her close to him as she sobbed and sobbed at what seemed as hours and when she fell limply in his arms, exhausted, he kissed her temple.

"I love you," he said as she wiped her tears. Ginny just buried her face into his chest and kissed it as she put her arm around him.

Soon, they were both asleep. The pain was still raw, but just being there with each other, letting all the grief poor out and deal with it together, made them both feel if just a little better.

A/N: First of all, I am so so so so so so sorry about this chapter. It was horrible, I know...and after the part where Malfoy just flaunted the baby at Ginny I just stopped writing for a whole day...I am really sorry. I am also sorry about the long time of updating and for the way the chapter started, like very aburptly.

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