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"Are you absolutely insane?" I half hiss and yell at Carey causing a half dozen passerby's to give me questioning looks.
"Quite the opposite actually Molly. I haven't been this clear headed and sure of anything in quite a long time." I sure as hell disagreed with that option. I too shocked and dumbfounded to make any intelligent movements or suggestions.
"Carey you and I both know this is a really bad idea and I stress the word really to the highest degree possible." I am finally able to say as the while it seemed at least 30 people walked between us and around us, constantly getting bumped into and shuffled around like a small child's toy.
"Again I disagree Molly. Come on take a leap! Everything about us being together is technically as you put stupid, why stop now? So let's get married!" I have imaged proposals and weddings since I was six years old, Rick did a decent job of it though that wasn't the fantasy one I thought of and hoped for years. However this couldn't even be called a proposal. It was actually more of demand than question outside of a run down chapel stationed between two stripped clubs. Plus I couldn't actually marry him he was a fool if he thought I'd be a willing party to this plan. I did love him I had finally stopped fighting that emotion two days after our kiss. I did find myself happier than I have been in longer than I can possibly recall when I am with him. But marriage?
"What will everyone say Carey?"
"As if I actually care. I don't. See watch this. I Carey Bell love Molly Phillips!" I watch in horror as he yells it out as loud as possible on the middle of the sidewalk. Receive a mixture of responses ranging from way to go's to curse words. It's rather difficult to obtain a secret relationship if he does things like that.
"Shut up! What are you doing?" I hiss once again at him. He grabs a hold of my waist and pulls me to him softly kissing me.
"Proving to you that I don't care. I wasn't lying that night in your room. I realize that some, okay a lot of people will be upset by it, but I love you too much to care. Don't you love me that much?" Oh don't ask me that! It's a horrible pain-streaking question to place at someone's feet, because there was no right answer. I did love him deeply. I also love Jack and Fi and this relationship could tear them away from me forever. Perhaps over time Fiona would learn to accept it, but never Jack.
"God Carey you know it's not that simple for me."
"Molly think about it this way even if we tell them now or fifteen years from now the reaction will be the same. And perhaps even worse the longer we wait because all will think we are hiding something all of this time. As if we were ashamed. You're not ashamed are you?" Perhaps a bit mentally unstable for being in such an insane situation, but not ashamed.
"No Carey you know that I am not. Just completely terrified. You do realize there is a difference of telling people we are a couple and telling them we are legally married right?" I try not to laugh at the fake shocked and horrified face he is giving me.
"Really there is? Who would've thunk? Of course I know that Molly, but here is the way I figure it. What's the point of shocking the shit out of everyone twice by now separate announcements when we can combine them into one nice package?"
"Carey my love marriage isn't that simple, it's a life time decision okay ignore the stackering statistics of the growing divorce rate. Marriage is something you do when you're ready and in complete and total love."
"I am in love and I am ready, I know that I might be young but I am not a fool. It's you I want. I wanted you months ago. I want you now. I'll want you years from now and even when I am long buried beneath the dirt and the world has stopped turning I'll still want you. There are people who date for years and finally get married and just like that their union crumples into pieces of unhappiness. There are also those who only date for just a few days, marry and stay that way until of time. Perhaps I am fool but I know you and I belong in that second category." Without even noticing when it began I feel the corners of my eyes brimming with tears. I haven't found myself crying for a joyful occasions in many years, it actually felt good. He notices the tears and gently brushes them away cupping my face into the strong embrace of his hand.
"Yes." I tell him with a whispered voice.
"What was that?" He asks of me but I know he had heard me perfectly clear. I let out a laugh and kiss him yet again than find myself shouting,
"Yes I will marry you Carey Bell!" Screw reactions and hurt feelings. I deserve some happiness again, and it's standing right in front of me.