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The song Belongs to 3 Doors Down. It's called Let me go.

Summary: During the heists Leon has a girlfriend. However, the girl has no idea what's happening. It's told and based on the song Let me go by: 3 Doors Down.

I dream ahead to what I hope for
And I turn my back on loving you
How can this love be a good thing
When I know what I'm goin through

In my head there's only you now
This world falls on me
In this world there's real and make believe
And this seems real to me

Let Me Go- 3 Doors Down

Let Me Go.

Chapter 4: Dream Ahead To What I Hope For

The heists were getting more frequent and they were taking over my mind. I was worrying so much, that sometimes I forgot there was someone who could take all of the confusion away. When I look back on it all I realize that Crimson was always there for me. I was getting more restless, Race Wars were coming up and the pressure was on. Dom and Brian had a run in with Johnny Tran which made things about fifty times worse. Vince was still grouchy and sometimes even Crimson couldn't get through to him. Letty was getting worried, somehow I could sense it. Mia was so love-struck that we couldn't get her back down to earth. Jesse was still car crazy but even he was getting more and more fidgeting. And me? Well…I wasn't hanging around Crimson much. The end of her senior year was coming up and she was finishing up exams. That would mean that she would be graduating in less than a week, and I promised her I'd be there.

Have you ever broken a promise? It killed me. I was so into Race Wars that I forgot about her graduation. I was reminded of it the morning of the graduation ceremony and then I just forgot. If I claimed to love her so much, how could I forget about her ceremony? Her fucking high school ceremony. That shit doesn't happen everyday.

It was another day that would forever be stuck in my mind. Vince and Jesse came into my room. "Leon, what time are we supposed to be at Crimson's high school?" Jesse wondered.

I looked at them. For a moment I was confused, but than I remembered Crimson asking Vince and Jesse to come along too. She invited the whole team but only so many of us could go. "She said around twelve, to get good seats and all."

They nodded. Vince looked at his watch. "It's ten thirty already, I'm going to go take a shower and get ready." He said.

"I call the shower after Vince is done." Jesse called.

I nodded to them. "Go ahead, I've got to go to the garage and fix some things up. If I'm not here by twelve, I'll meet you at the school."

Vince nodded his head and went to the shower while Jesse was a little bit hesitant. "Leon, why don't you just wait to fix whatever you need fix after the ceremony?" Jesse suggested.

I shook my head at him. "I won't get too carried away Jesse don't worry." I reassured him.

I remember when Jesse and I first joined the team. The only thing I wanted to do was to get known. Who wouldn't? And get known we did. We were all known throughout the illegal racing circuit. Anything we wanted, we could have at the snap of our fingers. Than Crimson came along and shook my world. I don't think she did it purposely, but was it coincidence that she came when we were just hitting the high on the heists. Or was it something much stronger, like Destiny, or perhaps Fate? Was it in fate's plan to make my life this way? Did I deserve what happened to me? Or did I do this to myself?

Looking back on the day of the ceremony I can't help but think that I was the one that pushed Crimson away. I broke my promise to her. The only thing that she believed in so strongly that you could feel it radiate off her was her trust in promises. Her mother and father, God rest their souls, while they were alive never once broke a promise to her. Reese never once broke a promise to her. Vince and Jesse never once broke a promise to her. Me? I Leon Strong was the only one to ever break a promise to her. The worse thing is, is that when I broke that promise to her, I think I broke her.

I was in the garage and my cell phone was turned off. Letty and Dom went out to lunch, which was rare, but I was happy for them all the same. It had to be past two o'clock and the music in the garage was blaring, when I felt myself roughly dragged out from underneath my car. "What the fuck?" I screamed over the music. Jesse went towards the stereo and turned it off.

"Do you have any idea what time it is?" Vince asked. I knew he was pissed. He was going red in the face.

"It's half past two, what's the big deal?" I was clueless. I still regret everything from that day that I did wrong.

"What's the big deal! The big deal Leon is that you missed the ceremony!" Vince roared.

The ceremony that's when it all came into place. I was the biggest asshole known to mankind at that point. I felt like shit ran over twice. Vince looked like he was ready to pounce me and Jesse looked like he was disappointed in me. Hell, I felt disappointed in myself.

Vince stormed out of the garage leaving just me and Jesse. He looked at me with such disappointment that I felt like crying. "I told you that you should have waited till we came home. How could you of forgotten Leon?"

"I don't know." I answered.

"We called your cell and the garage nearly fifty times until we finally gave up. You should of seen Crimson's when we told her. We made up an excuse for you Leon! We told her that Dom needed more help than we presumed with Race Wars coming up! I've never lied to her before. Vince has never lied to her before! Leon, you should have seen her face, she was heartbroken!" With that he stormed out of the garage, leaving me alone to dwell in my misery.

I was going to call Crimson that night but I figured that she would be at her Prom dance and I didn't want to disrupt her. That and I was a huge ass coward. I laid down in my bed and looked at the ceiling. Was everything that I had hoped for gone? Did my stupid mistake ruin the one chance I had at happiness? Throughout the day I didn't once think about Crimson and her ceremony, and now I felt insanely guilty. I turned my back on her. She needed me and I turned my back on her. She was there whenever I needed her, but I wasn't there when she needed me. Was our love a good thing? I kept asking myself. I had no idea. I knew what I was doing. I was a criminal, who any day now would be possibly sent to jail. I was a shitty boyfriend, who missed his girlfriend's graduation ceremony. I was a disappointment to myself. But most of all I was a coward. I had dreams yes, did I ever act on them? No. Crimson said I love you, to me so many times since that night and all I ever did was nod and smile. Never did I once say it back to her. I did love her. I still do love her, but I was afraid of commitment. Actually that wasn't true at all. I welcomed commitment; I was just scared that if I said I love you, she'd go away. My mother, the day she died said I love you before she got into her car. Later in the night I get a call telling me my mom died on impact in a car accident.

I guess you could say I was scared that something would happen to Crimson. God forbid that she dies. That would tear me apart. What would break me though would be Crimson leaving and me never seeing her again. She'd be alive but she wouldn't want to see me. Now that would break me.

The next day Crimson and Reese came around to the garage. My heart literally stopped. Not only was I terrified of what Reese was going to do to me, what was I going to say her? I'm sorry that I couldn't make it to your once-in-a-lifetime graduation because I was working on a car? No that wouldn't work. She came up to me and I could see the bags underneath her eyes. That sent me in whirlpool. Was she crying over me? Did she get any sleep at all? That didn't matter. All that mattered was her. All I felt like doing was grabbing her and kissing her, telling her that I'm sorry that I'm a bad boyfriend.

"Why didn't you come?" She asked her voice cracking. I knew she was going to cry. If her voice cracking wasn't a big enough hint, than the tears gathering in her eyes were.

"Because I'm a coward and an asshole." I told her. I became aware of everyone looking at us. Dom, Letty, Mia, Brian, Vince, Jesse, and Reese. I know Reese was glaring holes into my head just waiting for the right moment to pounce on me and beat the crap out of me.

She shook her head tears falling down her cheeks. "You're just human, Leon." My heart broke. How could she not be mad at me? I was mad at myself. This beautiful young woman standing in front of me, with tears streaming down her face could have done anything to me. She could have beaten me till I couldn't see. Instead she told me that I was human. I hugged her while she sobbed. Feeling my own tears gather in my eyes, I pushed them down. I wouldn't cry. I would be strong, whether it killed me or not.

Relationships are supposed to have complications are they not? What's the whole point of calling it a relationship if there were no complications or situations to sort out? That one day I failed her. I failed Crimson and in return I had to hear her sobs that nearly made me break down myself. And in that one moment the weight of the world fell on my shoulders again. Except I knew that, that time that feeling wouldn't go away. I knew that something was going to happen, that would ultimately break me down. Whether or not it was real or make believe.

Yay! Chapter 4! Anyways let me tell you guys something. While writing this chapter I had the Launch music videos on my chapter, nearing the end of the story, guess what song comes on? Let Me Go by 3 Doors Down. How freaking freaky is that? Anyways I nearly cried I was laughing so hard. Hehe. Sadly I'm sorry to say that I won't be updating until maybe Monday because I'm going to be away. Boo Hoo I know. 

Onto my trusty reviewers!

Lady LP: You have no idea how good it is to hear that you like my story. I'm glad that I made it somewhat easier for you writers block. I like Crimson too. She's fun to write. Leon's situation is a situation that I think many people go through and I felt that I had to portray that. It may not end up the way some would like it to be, but when does anything that we want actually happen in life? Hopefully you liked this chapter and your review was and will always be greatly appreciated. I did! I read your story, it was fantastic! Hopefully you got my review! I loved it. You keep up the great work too!

Sweetest Addiction: Writing her thoughts on the things that make life confusing is somewhat based on my idea of life as well so it made easier to put it into words! I'm glad that she isn't too different. I didn't want her to be a complete outcast but I wanted her to have a mind of her own and not follow what everyone else is telling her. I love writing Leon! I thought that it was going to be hard, seeing as I am a girl, but in fact it was much easier than I had thought. It's sort of the same except guys tend not to show it. Oh I totally agree with you on Leon. I don't care if he's rough or edgy in the movie, which just makes him more attractive than he already is! LOL! Thank you for the review!

Thank you everybody! Hopefully you all liked this chapter!