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The song Belongs to 3 Doors Down. It's called Let me go.
Summary: During the heists Leon has a girlfriend. However, the girl has no idea what's happening. It's told and based on the song Let me go by: 3 Doors Down.
The song in the story, (other than the one from 3 Doors Down) is called Forever Yours by: Nightwish. It doesn't belong to me.
And no matter how hard I try
I can't escape these things inside I know
I knowww..
When all the pieces fall apart
You will be the only one who knows
Who knows
Let Me Go- 3 Doors Down
Let Me Go.
Chapter 5: You Will Be The Only One Who Knows
I was breaking slowly and painfully. You don't often hear a man admit that he's breaking, but I've come to figure out that I'm not just any ordinary man. Just like Crimson wasn't any ordinary girl. Is it bad to keep a secret away from the person that you love? I know that I've asked about a million times but I'm not getting a straight answer. When I had that conversation with Crimson she said that everybody makes mistakes. Well, am I making a mistake in not telling her that I'm a criminal? Am I really a criminal though? I know that I'm breaking the law but does that make me a criminal? Of course it does. I love the team and at first I loved what we were doing, but lately I wanted all of this to end. Not everyone has a fairy-tale ending. Only the good people get the fairy-tale ending. Crimson will most likely get her fairy-tale ending. And I will be stuck playing the role of the bad person. Isn't that just great? (I'm joking if you happened to miss that.)
It seemed to me that everything was slowly falling apart. I knew what I had to do and I was going to do it before Race Wars started. All I had to do was find the right time to do it.
Time. I've never really thought about before. It was something that would always be there. I had no matter for it. But like so many other things I found out that Time was also something that I had taken for granted.
We were lying on the bed. We didn't do anything; we were just lying on my bed on top of the covers. He head was on my chest and I had my arm around her waist. "What does time mean to you?" I asked her.
She looked up at me, "Time, is a strange concept that not many people can describe."
"How is it strange though?"
"If all Time ever meant to you was what the clock read than you're not taking its meaning as serious as it deserves to be taken."
"It's just Time though." I told her. Was Time really as important as she made it out to be?
"Maybe now to you it's just Time to you, but to other people Time is an enemy or a friend."
"Time can be an enemy or a friend?" I wondered. "It's just a concept like you said."
"I also said that it is a strange concept. Along with being strange it's complicated." At my confused look she elaborated her opinion. "For instance Time can be an enemy when it's too precious. Imagine two people, they were both desperately in love when they were in high school but they moved to separate parts of the country for their careers, only to meet each other years into the future. They're both taking a walk in park, oblivious to the fact that they're both at the same place at the same time; they lock eyes with each other when they realize that they've bumped into each other. It's then, that for them, Time has stopped and all they can do is look into each other's and remember the love they had for each other. They than find out that they only have a couple of hours before they have to leave. Those couple of hours are full of the both of them reminiscing. When they have to leave they mentally curse Time for its irony."
I scoffed, "It sounds like a movie." It did, didn't it?
She sighed and sat up on the bed. "Don't be mad at me for bringing this up." She warned. "When you received the phone call saying that your mother had died in a car accident, didn't you feel that Time just stopped? And even after you did receive the phone call, you hailed a taxi to take you to the morgue where your mother's body was held. Didn't you feel while in the taxi that Time was against you? It took your mother away from you without having a life that you could've had with her? And when you arrived at the morgue couldn't you just feel that again for the second or how many times in one day Time stopped when you saw your mother's dead body on the cold metal? On that day Time was your enemy because it took away your mother." I winced. Ouch. That really hurt and stung me real deep.
"Time Leon, is something we can't even begin to explain because it takes on different meanings at different times. You can thank it for giving you enough time to spend with your friends or you family, yet, you can curse it because it gave you so little time." She took a deep breath and began to speak again, except this time it was more in a whisper, "Time, like any other thing on this earth is something that we take for granted. Time Leon, can separated into two categories…"
"The real and the make believe." We finished together. She smiled at me and I noticed that she had tears in the back of her eyes. I hugged her and held her close. My mind reeling over what she had just said. Time was an important thing. Time was something I was running out of. Time is something that I had less of when it came to Crimson. It occurred to me that this time coming, Time would probably become my worst enemy once more.
I walked into the Living Room where Vince and Jesse were. They were sitting on the floor, near the T.V. playing a video game. I'm pretty sure that it was Grand Theft Auto. I looked at them, they were close to Crimson and I had to tell them what I was about to do.
They would probably be pissed but it was the day before Race Wars and I had to tell her sometime. "I'm going to tell Crimson."
"Tell Crimson what?" Vince asked, not paying any attention to me.
"I'm going to tell Crimson about the trucks." I told them.
That got their attention. Jesse's controller dropped from his hands and Vince was staring at me with his mouth nearly hitting the floor. "Why in the name of God are you going to do that?"
"Because it's tearing me apart. I look at her and I feel like I'm betraying her." I explained to them.
Jesse shook his head and looked at me. "Leon, do you have any idea what she's going to do? She's going to leave." He said.
A part of me already knew that. "I know, but Jesse don't you get it? I have to tell her."
"You're making a mistake Leon." Vince told me.
"I made mistake in not telling her in the first place. After everything that I've done to her, I owe her this explanation. I know she's going to leave, and I am probably making the biggest mistake of my life, but if it can save her from me, from what's going on inside my mind every time I lie to her than I'll do it. I don't want her to be there when something goes wrong. I want her to be safe." I tried to tell them.
Vince shook his head, "She's going to leave and we're all going to fall apart." After he said that he left through the back door.
Jesse got up and went up to me. "She's the only thing that keeps us sane." He confessed.
I guess that they were trying to convince me not to tell her but my mind was made up. I had to tell her. If I lost my sanity, that would fine. I'd gain it back when I find out that she was safe and away from harm.
Instead of her coming to our house I went to her house. It was actually the first time that I was at her house. She was usually always over at my house. It was nice house. It looked comforting. When I knocked on the door Reese was the one who answered it.
"Hey Leon." Reese acknowledged me.
I nodded to him, "Reese. Is Crimson home?"
He nodded, "She's downstairs in the basement. Straight down the hall last door on your right." He told me.
I walked past him and walked down the hall. I opened the door to the basement and walked down the steps. Instantly, I was hit with the hypnotizing melody of the piano and a voice like none other singing along. I walked softly to the room that the singing was coming from. Her back was facing me as her fingers were strumming along the piano keys. The tune wasn't familiar to me, but the way Crimson was playing the keys made me feel as if I was actually in the song. When she began to sing her voice was as sweet as a melody.
Fare thee well, little broken heart
Downcast eyes, lifetime loneliness
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
Constant longing for the perfect soul
Unwashed scenery forever gone
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I'll be forever yours
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I'll be forever yours
No love left in me
No eyes to see the heaven beside me
My time is yet to come
So I'll be forever yours
Whatever walks in my heart will walk alone
whatever walks in my heart...
By the end of the song I had the Goosebumps along my body. "I never knew that you played the piano and sang."
She didn't jump like I'd expected her to, but it seemed like she knew I was there watching her the whole entire time. "The only people that know I sing and play the piano is Reese and my parents, before they passed away."
I nodded. "I need to tell you something." I told her. I wasn't going o beat around the bush. I came to tell her and I was going to do it sooner or later.
She turned around and looked at me. "This sounds serious."
"It is."
"Well than, tell me." She probed.
I took a deep breath. "I want you to listen to me. Don't interrupt until I'm done." At her nod I continued. "Do you remember all those time when I told you that I had to do something? When Jesse and Vince would come and get me saying that we had to go and do something? Well, remember the day when you asked me if what I had to do was dangerous?" She nodded. "I told you that it wasn't which is partly true. We've done what we were doing a lot so I knew that what I was doing wasn't dangerous, but there was always that something that could go wrong. Which is basically the other part. Crimson, what I was doing, actually what I am doing isn't dangerous because I've done it before, but even when you do something a whole bunch of times something could always go wrong."
"Leon," She whimpered, "Your scaring me."
"Please, don't interrupt. What I'm trying to say is that numerous of times I've lied to you. I've hurt you so many times and I don't want to do that anymore. We were having some money problems. The money from the races weren't enough so Dom decided to go big. Crimson what I'm trying to tell you is that we're car-jacking trucks. We're the ones responsible for the Truck Heists." I exhaled. Looking at her broke my heart. Tears were welling up in her eyes.
I was looking at her for the longest time of my life. The tears that gathered in her eyes came loose, and spilled over her cheeks. She stayed like that for God knows how long. My eyes pleaded with her to say something, anything, I just had to know that she heard.
"I'm sorry." She whispered. I don't know if that was her way of breaking things off with me or just feeling pity for me. I didn't really stay long enough to find out. I walked up to her. I saw her flinch when I cupped her face. I gave her a small soft kiss on the lips. I looked into her tearful eyes, "I love you." I whispered to her, and I fled as fast as I could. Not looking back at the crimson haired girl that captured my heart, fall to the hard-wood floor and sob.
After telling Crimson I went up to the cliff that Crimson and I always used to go up to. Everything fell apart for me. I lost the only girl that I truly loved. She knew who I was and while part of me was relieved another part was saddened beyond belief. Of all the times that I wanted to cry, I did. I finally let out the flood gates that were waiting for the right moment to set loose. I sat on the hood of my car and sobbed. Head in my heads I cursed myself for being who I was. She finally knew who I was and she would carry it for the rest of her life.
I Love You. Was what I told her. I hope she believed what I said. It was true and hopefully those three words were able to overcome the information that I leaked out.
Okay, I am so sorry that I wasn't able to update sooner but hopefully you all liked this chapter. This isn't the last chapter, there's one more and than it's finished.
The song that was in the story is called Forever Yours by: Nightwish, it doesn't belong to me like I said in the above note.
Onto my reviewers,
Scottish Lass2: I am so sorry that I didn't include you in my previous thanks in the previous chapters. By the time that I posted the chapter your review was already up and I felt so bad because I'm horrible at going back and re-doing it. Please forgive me! But I really appreciate your review and I hope that you liked this chapter.
Turquoisephyre: I'm happy that you liked this story so far. I know Leon is so mean! Hehe.
Sweetest Addiction: I am glad that you and I would get along! I am so happy that you liked Crimson. Yes, I am actually basing Crimson on me, or at least how she thinks about stuff is how I am. Am I really a good writer? Thank you so much! You really don't know how much that means to me. Thank you for reviewing. It means a lot.
Angel40689: I hope that you had Kleenex with you, lol! I updated and hopefully you liked it!
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