Disclaimer: I own a copy of both X-Men movies, but that's about it.
Chapter 11
Kurt's been missing
Beast talked with Kitty the next day and she begged him not to tell anyone else. She didn't want everyone worrying about her and feeling sorry for her. Beast said that he would tell them nothing as long as she started coming for treatment. Kitty agreed, wanting nothing more than to get better so she could stop worrying herself.
So, that was how it was. Beast, Lance, and Kurt were the only one's who knew about Kitty's illness. Kitty was even positive that the Professor didn't know, but then again, she knew he wouldn't intentionally go into someone's mind to find out what was bothering them. She knew he knew something was wrong though, but he would never pry.
Kurt had pretty much disappeared after the little incident with Lance. Kitty hadn't seen him in almost a week; she was starting to worry.
But then, Saturday afternoon she had finally found him. He had been hiding out in the library at the institute. Kitty decided to check there since she had tried everywhere else.
Kurt was sitting on a couch in the back of the library. It seemed as if he had been living in there for awhile, which Kitty figured he probably had; leaving only for school, to go to the restroom, and to eat (which he must have been doing at odd hours because she never saw him).
"Kurt?" Kitty said, walking over to where he was sitting, staring out the window.
When he didn't answer, she sat down beside of him and looked out the window as well. The new recruits were playing baseball with no powers, which of course wouldn't last very long. Kitty smiled to herself, remembering when they all use to play baseball or some other such sport, never playing very long before using their powers.
"I'm sorry." Kurt said quietly, bringing Kitty out of her reverie.
She looked over at him again, but he was still staring determinedly out the window, refusing to meet her eyes.
"Kurt," Kitty said, putting her hand on his shoulder, "You like, don't have to apologize to me. What happened wasn't your fault. It was an accident, a mistake."
"On my behalf." Kurt added ashamed.
"Kurt please, if it's like, anybody's fault it's mine."
"Yours?" he asked, skeptical.
"I should have never let it go that far. I should have told Scott and Jean the truth. I should have made Lance tell them…" Kitty stopped because she noticed that when she said 'Lance', Kurt had shuddered. "Lance isn't mad at you, and neither am I." Kitty said in a small voice.
"It vasn't your fault Kitty. If it vas anybody's fault it vas Lance's. He's zhe one zhat started zhis whole zhing." Kurt said, appalled.
"Kurt, please don't be mad at him." Kitty said, standing up.
"I'm not angry vith him, I'm angry vith myself." Kurt sighed.
"Why?"
"I could have killed him Kitty. I let my anger get zhe best of me. I'm just…disappointed in myself." Kurt said, looking out the window again.
"Well, I could never be disappointed in you." Kitty said, smiling softly.
"But I attacked your boyfriend and I scared you. I saw zhe look on your face right before I ported out of zhere. You vere shocked and scared, and I did zhat." Kurt said, still refusing to look at her. "And zhen I ran avay." He added bitterly.
"Stop it." Kitty said abruptly.
Kurt looked at her for the first time since the incident. Kitty was surprised to see tearstains on his cheeks; it made her want to cry again.
"Stop beating yourself up. Stop blaming yourself. I've done enough of that lately for the both of us." Kitty said, then she smiled suddenly. "Plus, I need you around. Do you like, realize how boring it is when you aren't there?"
Kurt finally managed a grin. "I can imagine."
And they left the library and went outside to see if they could join in on the next game.
A/N: Real short, but I have plans (about time) and I needed to have the Kitty/Kurt moment before I could continue.