Chapter 3

Seshiri sat on her bed in a daze. Tasuki. Bastard. Once again you've left me here to rot. Left me here in this gods forsaken place to sit here and wait until it's my turn. This is the second time it's happened. Dammit Tasuki, you and I are running out of chances!

There's only so many times that we can find each other when we're reborn!…. dammit. And the worst part of all this is that I actually have to try and stay alive for Nanuri's sake. She's never gone through this before, I know what it's like. Gah. Dammit. What the hell did I do to deserve this…

Tears ran down Seshiri's cheeks as she thought. I remember what it was like the first time. I was so alone, no one to turn to.

Once again, here I am, sitting here asking myself 'what if I jus died right now. What if I just ended it all here.' Then I wouldn't have to wait. But I have to be strong. I have to show everyone that I can go through all this shit more than once. I have to-

A knock on the door interrupted Seshiri's thoughts. She quickly wiped away her tears, "Come in.." Gurase opened the door and stepped in quietly. "How you doing?" She asked in a hushed voice.

Seshiri shrugged, trying to force a smile. "I'm not doing so bad… all things considered…. Like Nanuri said, I'm used to it by now."

Gurase shook her head, smiling. "Baka. You may fool everyone else, but you don't fool me.. No matter what you tell yourself, or anyone else, you are not ok. This is tearing you up inside isn't it? You just don't want to admit it."

Gurase walked over to where Seshiri was sitting on her bed.

"You want to be strong." She sat down. "Well guess what Seshi-chan. You aren't strong. You aren't some sort of Superhuman who can do all of this stuff, go through all of this crap, and not be sad…. It's ok to cry…"

Then Seshiri let it all out. Sobbing she leaned against Gurase. "Gurase. How could he do this to me?… AGAIN?…" Gurase spoke soothingly.

"Seshi-chan. I know it's gotta be hard, but think. Maybe it's not his fault. Obviously they were murdered. What we have to do is figure out who the hell did it and why."

Seshiri threw up her hands. "Yokoshima obviously! Why else wouldn't he want to kill them? He's probably going to kill us all off one by one!"

Seshiri sobbed, laying down on the bed. "We were going to be married! We were GOING to be MARRIED! And not even a day after he proposed-… he…. He was…"

Gurase shushed Seshiri. "It's ok Seshi-chan. It's ok.." She hugged Seshiri, talking to her like she was a frightened deer. "It's ok…" Seshiri sat up again, wiping her tears.

"So how's Nanuri…? Is she doing any better?" Gurase shook her head. "Still crying, but not as hard as before. I can't be in there long because those sobs will give me a headache!"

Seshiri shook her head, sighing. "Poor Nuri-chan…" Gurase nodded. Seshiri sighed again and looked over at Gurase. "Arigatou, Gurase-chan." Gurase smiled. "No problem. Just if Hotohori dies and I go all psychotic, please try to talk me out of totally destroying the world!"

Seshiri laughed. Hm… I'm getting kind of hungry.. I still haven't had a bite to eat! Images of Tasuki's broken body flashed across her mind. On second thought I'm not so hungry….

Looking around the room Seshiri frowned. "Where are Tomo and Soi?" "They're all downstairs. Chichiri forced them to stay down there, not wanting them to come up and disturb you."

Seshiri smiled. "Kaeli and Chichiri would have been a cute couple…" Gurase nodded. "I don't think Nanuri and I can set them up.. not right now… we've got kind of a lot on our minds." Gurase laughed. "Yeah. And of course the fact that it is SO morally wrong means nothing to you?"

Seshiri straightened up. "Of COURSE it doesn't! Who do you think I AM?" Gurase laughed, standing up. "Well, I'm going back down. Do you wanna come?" Seshiri raised an eyebrow. "Only if they promise not to stare at me like I was a freak. The last time Tasuki died they ALL looked at me like I was contagious with a fatal disease or something.."

Gurase laughed again. "Well I'm SURE this time they wont, they'll know better." Seshiri shrugged and stood up. "Do you think I should go see Nanuri?" Gurase shook her head solemnly. "I don't think so. Let her cry it off for a while before you go in there. She's pretty pissed off that you slapped her!"

Seshiri smacked her forehead. "I was only trying to get her to her senses!" "Well it worked! You made her stop crying for a few seconds! Be proud! No one else has been able to do that!" Seshiri stared at her. "You serious?" Gurase nodded. "Yeah. I'm sure YOU were exactly the same."

Seshiri shrugged as they walked out the door. "I just don't like this whole thing." "What whole thing?" "Their death! Everyone said WE walked off with them and we DIDN'T…. It's too fishy…" Gurase sighed. "Seshi-chan. Are you trying to tell me they AREN'T dead? Because that will only be making reality hurt more! Life ISN'T like an anime show ya know!"

Seshiri nodded. "Yeah… you're right…. No reason to cloud my judgement and make the truth seem to hurt less." Gurase walked her down the stairs past Nanuri's room. "Damn…" Nanuri's sobs could be heard through the thin walls. "She's been going like this for HOW long?" "Since you went upstairs." "Daaaamn a few hours then."

Gurase nodded solemnly, sighing. "I'm just glad Hotohori wasn't with them!" Seshiri laughed. "Yeah well, BE happy!"

As soon as they reached the downstairs the people that were gathered there turned to stare at them. Oh Gods. Not this again! Soi and Tomo walked over to her. "Hey! Seshi-chan, you ok?" Seshiri smiled. "I'm all in one piece." "SO is it ok if we go in the room tonight?" Soi asked, none too politely.

Seshiri chuckled, nodding. "Yeah, sure why not." Soi smiled and hugged Seshiri. She whispered, "I'm sorry about Tasuki…" She pulled back and walked over to them small bar.

Seshiri looked around. "Where's Miaka and Tamahome?" "They went upstairs." Nakago answered, looking over at her. She nodded. Looking around the room, she thought.

Let's see…. Hotohori and Gurase are there cuddling. Miaka and Tamahome are upstairs. Nanuri is upstairs sobbing. Nakago is right there eating, Soi is having a few drinks with Tomo. Kaeli. Hm. Kaeli and Chichiri are talking quietly and- SHIT Ashitare is down here. Dammmiiit he's giving me a look! Fuck I don't wanna go over there! Tasuki isn't around to protect me!

Ashitare tried to beckon Seshiri over to him but she turned around and walked over to Soi and Tomo. "Ugh. It's trying to call me over again." Soi quickly looked back at Ashitare before turning around again. "Ugh he's staring at us!" Soi said quietly.

Seshiri stared down at the drink in Soi's hand. "I REFUSE to turn around and look at him!" Tomo nodded. "Wise choice. I do not see why anyone would want to look at him anyway…."

"Hey, you guys will stay with me right? To make sure he doesn't try to I dunno eat me alive again? It's not like I have Tasuki's tessen or-" Seshiri stopped in mid-sentence, thinking.

Soi looked at her. "Nani? Something wrong?" Seshiri stood up quickly. "Tell me, what did they do with the bodies?" Tomo stared at her. "They already buried them." "Dammit!" Seshiri yelled, slamming her fist on the table.

"I don't suppose-… no, he never goes anywhere without it… but I might as well check…" Seshiri jumped to her feet.

"Oi! What's wrong?" Soi asked, puzzled. Seshiri looked over at her. "Soi. Tasuki never goes ANYwhere without his tessen…" "So?" Tomo asked.

"Well I don't exactly remember it being on that body…" Soi stared at her. "But then it's in his room." "I'm not sure… That's what I'm going to find out." Seshiri raced up the stairs, two at a time.

Soi shrugged and followed her up, Tomo pursuing.

Seshiri pushed open the door, looking around. "Well this is where he was sharing the room. Who was he with? Chiriko, Chichiri and Tasuki." She answered for herself. Soi and Tomo watched as she ran about the room, throwing clothes all over the place searching.

She soon came back to them, rubbing her hands together. "It's not here…. Hmm… how very peculiar…" Tomo stared at her blankly. "What?" "It's not here! His tessen isn't here!" Soi raised an eyebrow. "Maybe he DID have it, you just didn't notice."

Seshiri looked down, frowning. "Well yeah I suppose that's possible… I was a little busy.. But no! I'm almost positive that…" Tomo put his hand on Seshiri's shoulder. "Come on Seshi-chan… let's go back down." She sighed. "I'm NOT crazy! I swear to SUZAKU I didn't see it there!"

Soi shrugged. "You WERE distracted. You could have missed it." Seshiri sighed. "Yeah. Well let's go back down…"

When they got downstairs Gurase walked over to them. "Hey what happened?" "I could have sworn Tasuki didn't have his tessen with him." Seshiri tugged her earring absently. "And he never goes anywhere without it. And it's not in his room…" Gurase gasped. "But that's…" "Yeah I know, kinda.. well REALLY weird.."

"But." Soi interrupted. "We think that he had it and just Seshiri didn't notice." Gurase frowned. "Gomen, if I hadn't been busy fainting I would have been able to verify what you say." Hotohori walked over, putting his arms around Gurase.

"What's wrong?" He asked. "Nothing." Seshiri said, smiling at him. He raised an eyebrow. "And I'm expected to believe that?" "Yes." Gurase said, grinning. He shrugged. "Well ok then.." He kissed the top of her head and looked back up.

"So, Kaeli says that we are still moving out tonight. She said it was best for us to get on the move before Yokoshima strikes again." Seshiri rolled her eyes. "Hey, be right back I'm going to go talk to her."

Seshiri got up and started to walk over to where Chichiri and Kaeli were talking. "But- Kaeli.." She shrugged. "I'm sorry Chiri-san… I just think of you as a friend…." He sighed, standing up. Seshiri stopped walking and listened. "Well… I guess that's that. All we'll ever be is friends." He said. Picking up his mask he turned and walked away, going upstairs.

Kaeli sighed, slamming her fists on the table. "Dammit." Seshiri walked over. "Ok, spill!" Kaeli looked over to her. "Chichiri is just a friend…" "But he likes you more than that?" Kaeli nodded. "I COULD learn to love him. But. But I wouldn't be able to do that. Koran was my best friend, and even though it was hundreds of years ago I wouldn't be able to do that…"

Seshiri rolled her eyes. "Kaeli! Get a hold of yourself! She's been dead for a couple hundred years! SHE cheated on HIM!" Kaeli sighed. "I know I now, but it seems as though yesterday-" "I don't think she'll mind Kaeli…. So… do you like him?" "No.. I don't.. I never really thought about him.. like that…"

Seshiri sighed. "Well he's a good guy. He'll be sad for a while, but get over you soon enough, don't worry about it…." Kaeli smiled gratefully at Seshiri. "Thanks for the reassurance." Seshiri grinned. "Noooo problem! Now, are you seriously making us move out?"

Kaeli nodded. "It isn't safe here." "It isn't safe ANYwhere!" Kaeli frowned. "Yes but we have long overstayed our welcome." She gestured over to Rachia who was watching them as she talked to a small group of people. Suddenly they all turned to look at them, staring with large eyes.

Seshiri smacked her forehead. "Good point.." She glanced nervously back at the people staring at them. "Well where are we going to go?" "Earlier today, after the murder, I used some of my powers to disguise myself until I was transparent, and I walked right into the palace."

SD Seshiri's jaw dropped. "NO WAY! YOU CAN GO INV-" SD Seshiri caught herself, lowering her voice. "Invisible?!!??" Kaeli grinned, nodding. "Yeah. One of the advantages of staying with Taiitsukun." "So what did you figure out?" Seshiri leaned in to hear.

"There was a meeting being held of the Empress, who was the ruler, and her advisors. They were speaking of a darkness that had moved to Sairou. People dying, becoming demons, zombies, animals attacking randomly. Even a drought that lasted a few days. There was a plague that went around for a short time as well…"

Seshiri stared at her. "Do you think it's Yokoshima?" "It's to suspicious NOT to be.." "It COULD be a trap…" "Yes, but he's going to kill us off anyway. I take it Taiitsukun failed to mention the fact that this was a suicide mission?" Seshiri stared at her. "She… must have forgotten.. to mention that…" Kaeli shook her head, closing her eyes. "Well, it's a suicide mission. None of us are supposed to make it out alive. She doesn't expect us to be successful in our mission."

Seshiri frowned. "Then why in the HELL did she send us?" Kaeli smiled. "Might as well try. As long as we have a tiny chance, we need to take it." "Even if there's 99.9% that we WONT even live?" Kaeli nodded.

"Oh I feel reeeeeaaal safe going on THIS mission!" Seshiri groaned. Kaeli laughed. "If human kind is doomed anyway, we might as well try in a desperate attempt to save it." Seshiri shrugged, but still had a gloomy expression on her face. "Yeah your reasoning makes sense… but STILL… I want to get back home… I have a family this time, and what would happen if I just disappeared? They'd be worried…"

Kaeli smiled slightly. "Yeah… well… we leave tonight. You might want to go and talk to Nanuri… get her prepared to leave." Seshiri nodded and stood up. "See ya Kaeli, nice talking to you." "Yeah, ja ne!" "Ja ne."

Seshiri walked over to the stairs. Kaeli isn't so bad once you start to talk to her. I guess she IS right though, making us leave as soon as possible. But Nanuri. She wont be able to handle this. Taking slow steps Seshiri trudged up the stairs.

She stopped in front of Nanuri's door. I guess she's stopped sobbing, it's all quiet… but-what if??? Would she be so stupid as to???

Seshiri burst open through the door, looking around. Nanuri sat on the bed hugging a pillow. Seshiri relaxed. Good. She ISN'T so stupid as to kill herself… Seshiri walked over to her.

"Hey." "…Hey…." Seshiri pulled up a chair and sat across from her. "You ok?" Nanuri shrugged. "I guess…" Seshiri sighed. "Nanuri-we have to leave tonight…" Nanuri nodded. "Ok." Seshiri stared at her blankly. "Are you ok?"

Nanuri looked up at her calmly. "What the hell do you think?" Seshiri chided herself. "Yeah, stupid question…" Seshiri looked around uneasily. "But we do have to leave tonight. So-" "I'm already packed." Seshiri looked down at the pack resting against the bed."

"Nanuri-" "It's ok. I'm fine. It's all good." Seshiri gave her a quizzical look. "Are you trying to convince me that? Or yourself?" "Oh that sounds familiar." Seshiri nodded. "Nanuri, you're hurting real bad, and I know what it's like. Right now you're saying you're ok because you are afraid. You don't want to admit to anyone, or yourself, that you are scared stiff. Don't pretend. It only makes everything worse."

Nanuri looked Seshiri in the eye. "You're right Seshi-chan. You're always right." "ME? RIGHT?" Chibi-Seshiri shook her head. "You're joking right?" Nanuri chuckled. "Good point." Seshiri smiled. "Hey Nanuri, come downstairs. Everyone is really worried about you. And we're leaving tonight."

Nanuri looked behind Seshiri. "Well what time is it?" "It's about 4 or 5." "And we leave?" "At 7." Nanuri sighed. "I'm not sure if I want to face them all… I'm not sure if I CAN face them all…"

Seshiri stood up. "Oh come now, this is what happened last time except roles were reversed! I'm going to drag you downstairs whether you like it or not!" Seshiri grabbed Nanuri's wrist, pulling her up. "Come on baka, let's talk about that kid of yours."

Downstairs Gurase, Nanuri, and Seshiri all sat at a table gossiping. "Well, Kaeli said she only liked him as a friend." Seshiri said, sipping her sake. Gurase nodded. "Yeah, and after you talked with Kaeli I went up and talked to Chichiri! He said he doesn't like her anymore, but I don't believe a word of it. You just don't stop liking someone immediately after they turn you down."

Nanuri took a big swig of her Nuriko Special and nodded. "I agree, I think he still likes her, and deep down she really likes him." Seshiri grinned. "Exactly what I was thinking!" "Oi me too!" "Well DUH we DO share a brain ya know!" Seshiri snorted. "Share??? SHARE???"

"Hey it's not MY fault you took the mush that we never use in real life!" SD Seshiri leaned over and whapped SD Nanuri. "BAKA!" SD Gurase laughed. "Well I think SOMEone is feeling a little better!" SD Nanuri got back up grinning. "Yeah, for now. Once this Nuriko special wears off I'll be sulky and sad with one hell of a hangover!"

Gurase raised an eyebrow. "Are you SURE you should be drinking with that baby?" Nanuri blinked. "Oh shit you're right!!! Uh… be right back!" Chibi-Nanuri jumped up, racing to the bathroom.

Chibi-Gurase cringed. "Well I think that Nanuri IS feeling a lot better. Despite the Nuriko Special." Seshiri laughed. "Yeah, which is a really good thing." Hotohori walked over to the group and sat down in Nanuri's chair.

"Done gossiping?" He asked, watching both of them. Gurase nodded, "For now, until Nanuri gets back." "So shoo!" Seshiri said, swatting at him. "Hey! Don't swat at my Hori-kun."

Chibi-Seshiri got Bambi eyes and big eyelashes. "Heeeyyyyy!!! Don't swat at maaaiii Hooori-kuuun!!!" SD Gurase jumped on SD Seshiri and began whapping her repeatedly. "AND DON'T MAKE FUN OF ME EITHER!" She shouted, laughing.

Hotohori stood up and took a step over to Gurase. "Well Gurase come over to me when you guys are done gossiping." He kissed her cheek. She grinned up at him and kissed him before quickly turning back around.

As Hotohori left to go sit with Chichiri and Tamahome Seshiri straightened herself up. She deepened her voice and said, "Ahem… Wellll Gurase come over to meeeeee when you guys are doone gossiping!"

SD Gurase whapped Seshiri again. "BAKA!" Nanuri stumbled back over, slumping down in the chair. "Oi. I'm tired." "Well we can't sleep, we're riding tonight!" Nanuri groaned. "Dammiiiit…. I shouldn't have had that Nuriko special…"

SD Seshiri patted Nanuri on the back. "Gah, no worries! Remember?" Nanuri leaned forward groaning. Gurase sweat dropped. "Baka…." Kaeli walked over to the table. "Konban wa."

"Konban wa Kaeli-chan!" Seshiri said. Kaeli smiled. Well minna, we're all setting out. Gathering our remaining things. Mitsukake is out gathering the horses up."

Gurase nodded. "Arigatou Kaeli! Ja ne!" "Ja ne!" Kaeli walked away to tell the others. Tamahome walked over to them.

"Geez. It's impossible to gossip with everyone coming to us!" Seshiri said, rolling her eyes. Nanuri looked over at Tamahome. "'Sup Tom my homey?" Tamahome stared at her for a few moments before saying. "……Just wondering if any of you guys needed some help with packs and saddles and stuff."

Gurase shooed him away saying, "No, no we're fine, nice thought though." Tamahome shrugged and walked back to where Miaka was standing.

Seshiri rolled her eyes. "Oi these guys are getting annoying.. well I'm going to go pack my stuff… Gurase.." Chibi-Seshiri sweat dropped. "You might wanna help Nanuri…" Nanuri lay sprawled on the floor, groaning.

SD Gurase sweat dropped. "Hai, good idea." She grabbed SD Nanuri by the arm and began dragging her up the stairs.

Seshiri finished off her glass of sake before walking up the stairs. Well this is going to be a very interesting trip… Poor Nanuri. Heh, poor ME! Well Tasuki's gone, again. This time his tessen is gone too. That's really strange. I could have SWORN that it wasn't there.. that would mean Tasuki wasn't exactly dead.

But I'm probably just trying to convince myself he isn't dead. To have a reason to think he's still alive and breathing. Well.. Whatever…. I don't care anymore… I should probably make my heart cold against him. Because he's broken my heart in two lifetimes! I don't think I'd be able to handle a third.

Seshiri opened the door to her room and walked in. She assessed the mess and began to search around the room for her stuff. But then again it wasn't really HIS fault.. She stuffed some of her clothes in her pack.

It was Yokoshima's. It's HIS fault. Last time it was Ashitare. So I guess neither times it was Tasuki's fault… She picked up the Orange Teddy bear and looked at it for a few moments. But it still happened.

Seshiri sighed before stuffing the teddy bear into her pack. Slinging it across her back she left the room, walking downstairs. She looked around before sitting down alone at a table. I wonder where Gurase and Nanuri are… She grinned as she looked over in Rachia's direction. Walking over she leaned on the counter.

"Heyla Rachia!" Rachia jumped back, up against the wall. "Uh hi." Chibi-Seshiri grinned. "Glad to have us gone?" SD Rachia nodded. "Hell yeah, do you think I LIKE dead bodies appearing and disappeari-"

Seshiri smacked her hand on the table, gasping. "WHAT DID YOU SAY?" Rachia yelped. "I just said 'hell yeah do you think I like dead bodies appearing and disappeari-" Seshiri cut her off again. "WHAT DO YOU MEAN APPEARING AND DISAPPEARING?!"

Rachia regained her composure. "What the hell do you think I mean?! The bodies came and then all of a sudden I went to look at the damage and they were gone!"

Seshiri frowned, thinking aloud. "But Tomo said they had been buried…" She turned to Rachia quickly. "Tell me, did anyone on the staff bury the bodies?" Rachia snorted. "No! they would be talking about it and gossiping! And they would have told me! Why would I go check out bodies if they were already buried!?"

Seshiri gasped. "But that would mean they disappeared!" "No REALLY?" Seshiri gasped again. "OMG THAT MEANS THAT THE BODIES WERE THERE AND THEN THEY WERE GONE!" Chibi-Rachia stared at her. "Not the brightest in the bunch are you?"

SD Seshiri jumped over the counter and hugged Rachia. "THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU!!!!!!" SD Rachia yelled and tried to fight her off. "AAAAAHHH WHAT THE HELL? SAVE MEEE! SOMEONE!"

SD Seshiri jumped back over the counter. "THANKS RACHIA!" SD Rachia backed up against the wall, wide eyed. SD Seshiri turned and looked around, scanning for Tomo. "BYE RACHIA! HOPE TO SEE YOU AGAIN!" Rachia gasped. "Y-Yeah." SD Rachia sweat dropped. "Yeah.. again…" She laughed nervously before running through the door behind her locking it shut.

SD Seshiri blinked before turning back around. Over near the door she saw Tomo talking with Miboshi. She ran over to him, grabbing his arm and pulling him away.

"TOMO!" She hissed loudly. "Did you say they buried the bodies? Are you almost SURE they did?" He blinked at her, puzzled.

"Kakaka how am I supposed to know? I went back down to check a while after it happened and they were gone and it was all cleaned up… I just assumed that-" "You just assumed?" He frowned. "You know it's very rude to cut people off in the middle of their-" SD Seshiri grabbed his shirt and shook him. "ANSWER MEEE!"

SD Tomo yelled. "AAAH DON'T KILL ME! YES! I JUST ASSUMED THEY WERE BURIED!" SD Seshiri threw him back and screamed.

"AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!" SD Tomo fell over and cowered behind a chair. "What's wrong with you!?!??!" He asked, sputtering.

SD Seshiri twirled around the room. "ABSOLUTELY NOTHING!!" She yelled, giggling. SD Tomo stared at her. "Are you ok Seshi-chan?" SD Seshiri grabbed Tomo and pulled him up. "THANK YOU TOMO!" She yelled. SD Tomo sweat dropped. "Seshiri you're scaring me.. and I mean more than usual… kakaka..

SD Seshiri spun SD Tomo around the room, letting go so he went flying into the wall. Seshiri ignored his moans of pain and continued to dance around the room. "THIS CALLS FOR A VICTORY DANCE!" SD Seshiri yelled, making her fingers into a V for Victory.

"DOODOODOODOOOOOO" Seshiri hummed a catchy tune while hopping from one foot to another, victory dancing. Everyone turned to stare at her, horrified. SD Seshiri ran around hugging everyone. "NO NEED TO WORRY GUYS!" She yelled. "EVERYTHING'S FINE! PERFECT! WHEEEEEEEE!"

Chibi-Gurase dragged Nanuri down the stairs and stopped as Seshiri danced across her path. She dropped Nanuri and ran over to where Seshiri was twirling. "SESHI-CHAN!" She yelled, grabbing her friend by the shoulders. "What the hell are you ON?"

SD Seshiri giggled. "THE BODIES!" Chibi-Gurase sweat dropped and grumbled, "I never thought I'd see the day when dead people made people happy.." SD Seshiri collapsed laughing. "NO BAKA!"

Chibi-Gurase blinked. "Nani?" "The bodies disappeared!" "Yeah into the ground that's where they disappeared!" SD Seshiri whapped SD Gurase. "NO baka! I have enough evidence to verify that Tasuki and Nuriko AREN'T DEAD!"

SD Gurase put her hands on her hips. "Now Seshi-chan, I know it's tough with Tasuki gone but don't make the truth seem not real!" Seshiri shook her head. "NO! It's just that look, the tessen wasn't on Tasuki! It's not in his room! I'm POSITIVE that body didn't have it with him!"

SD Gurase raised an eyebrow as Seshiri continued. "AND to top it all off, Rachia's staff DIDN'T go clean up the mess! It just disappeared." SD Gurase though for a moment before saying, "So you're saying that.. they aren't dead?" "HAI! All the evidence points to them being alive, ne?"

SD Gurase nodded. "Well… yeah… I guess…" Seshiri grinned. Gurase frowned. "But Seshi-chan, what happened to the real Tasuki and Nuriko if that wasn't them?" Seshiri froze. After a moment she screamed. "NOOOOOOOO BACK TO SQUARE ONE!" She fell to her knees yelling.

"SESHI-CHAN!" Gurase hissed, pulling up the wailing Seshiri. "People are STARING!" SD Seshiri blinked. "When do they NOT stare at me?" Gurase blinked. "Good point…"

Seshiri sighed. "Well this bites. I don't know where Tasuki or Nuriko are. I have no way to find out either!" Gurase laughed. "Baka you give up to easily. Obviously they are in Sairou! With Yokoshima!" Seshiri blinked, putting the puzzle together.

"AH HAH! MAYBE THEY'RE IN SAIROU WITH YOKOSHIMA!" Gurase sweat dropped. "But I just said-" "Aren't I wonderfully brilliant Gurase?" Gurase sweat dropped again. "Er…. Yea.. why not.."

Kaeli called back to them. "Oi! This isn't party time or anything! Come on already! We're all waiting!" Seshiri looked around, noticing that everyone was outside.

She and Gurase grabbed Nanuri's arm and headed out. Seshiri turned back one last time to take a look inside the inn to see Rachia peeking her head out of the door. Seshiri grinned and waved before jumping up on her horse.

"So where to now?" Chichiri smiled over at her. "Sairou no da!" Seshiri shuddered. "Oh and I have such GREAT memories from that place!" She gave Miboshi an uneasy look. "What?!" He asked indignantly. "Don't look at me like that!"

All of the Suzaku Seishi glared at him. "Um.. Sorry?" Seshiri rolled her eyes. "Baka…" Kaeli led her horse up to the front. "Ok well guys we're going to have to take a boat to get there. Unfortunatly this time you guys don't have Hotohori's finest…"

Hotohori blinked. "What are you proposing?" Kaeli grinne. "I say Hotohori meets up with the Empress and gets her to support our cause." "Empress?" Gurase asked.

Kaeli nodded. "She goes unmarried." Hotohori sniffed. "And what happened to the son?" Kaeli rolled her eyes. "Died in battle." Hotohori frowned. "Well come on love, let's go talk to the Empress.."

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"Bow before the Empress!" One of the guards yelled at Seshiri. "HELL NO! I never bowed to a person in charge before and I'm NOT gonna start now!" Hotohori chuckled. "I remember that.. when everyone thought you were a Ku'tou spy?"

Seshiri rolled her eyes. "Don't even get me started on that!" Nanuri grinned. "Ku'tou spy? DETAILS!" Seshiri looked at Nanuri out of the corner of her eye. "Later! These guys look like they'll kill us if we mention Ku'tou…"

The small group of guards stood on either side of the Empress, pointing their swords at the large group. "I said BOW!" One of them growled, glaring at Hotohori. Hotohori sent him an icy look. "I am Royalty. I shall not bow."

Seshiri whispered to Kaeli, "Hey wait aren't we NOT supposed to announce who we are?" Kaeli shrugged. "The cat's out of the bag."

"What? Tama-neko is right there!" "BAKA I mean it's ok!" She whispered. "Yokoshima already knows we're here.."

Seshiri nodded. "Oh." The Empress glowered at Seshiri. "And what is so important you must talk about it in the presence of your Empress?" Seshiri glared at her. "Damn you're moody, that time of month again?"

Seshiri clasped her hands on her mouth. OH SHIT I DIDN'T MEAN TO SAY THAT! GAH I'M SO DEAD! The guards rushed forward, pointing their swords at her throat. "Eeh!" Seshiri stared at one of them pointing at her nose. "Do ya think you could point that somewhere else?"

Suddenly the Empress started laughing. "Strange one you are." What is she, Yoda!? "I find you amusing…. But you." She pointed to Hotohori. "What is this about you being Royalty?" He smirked up at her. "I am Emperor Hotohori."

The Empress snorted. "Hotohori? Another one claiming to be Hotohori. How ridiculous." Hotohori stared up at her in disbelief.

"Nani? People posing as me?" She snorted again. "Can't you tell it is me? A commoner would not have my beauty."

The Empress sighed. Hotohori gestured to Gurase. "And this is my Empress Gurase. And Chichiri. Mitsukake. Chiriko. Tamahome. And Miaka is over there." The Empress looked them over carefully. "And the others?"

"I'm Seshiri." Seshiri said, stepping forward. "And here is one of my clone's Nanuri." The Empress overlooked them. "Chichiri, Chiriko, Hotohori, Mitsukake, Tamahome, Tasuki, Nuriko. And Miaka. Big deal. So you can memorize names of myths."

Hotohori glared up at her. "If I was a myth, would I have this?" Saying that he quickly unsheathed his sword.

Gasping the guards all fell to their knees, lowering their heads in respect. The Empress stood up quickly. "That is the holy sword of Suzaku Shichi Seishi Hotohori!"

Hotohori smiled triumphantly. "And none other like it." The Empress looked them all over once more. "Never the less, I am not-" Suddenly the holy sword in Hotohori's hand glowed red, illuminating the room.

The Empress fell back into her chair, staring at the sword. "Then it is true… the myths are true.." Seshiri rolled her eyes. "No SHI-" Nanuri cut her off, clamping her hand on Seshiri's mouth. "SHUT UP! Do you want her to get pissed at you? She is seriously PMSing!"

Seshiri pulled Nanuri's hand off. "SorRY." She hissed. "But she bugs me, I dunno why." Nanuri nodded. Kaeli sighed at the two, motioning for them to shut up.

"And what is it you are doing here Hotohori-sama?" Hotohori smiled, putting the sword away. "We are on a quest." "Mission." Added Gurase. "Thing." Nanuri finished. The Empress nodded. "And that quest" "Mission!" Gurase said. "Thing.." Nanuri grinned.

The Empress gave them a blank stare. "And that thing you are on is what exactly?" "Well that I can't exactly tell you." Hotohori said uneasily. The Empress smirked. "Well it SEEMED as if you were the true Seishi. But now if you can't even think up a mission-"

Chichiri stepped forward. "If you would please excuse my little interruption no da. We are after Yokoshima no da."

Hmmmm how very interesting. Kaeli is busy checking out Chichiri! HAH I KNEW IT! A hush fell over the Empress and her guards. "Yokoshima?" She asked in a hushed voice. "Yes Yokoshima." She repeated. "Only the true Suzaku Seishi would be able to defeat him."

Seshiri nodded. "Which is exactly why we need your finest boat." "Why?" She asked uncertainly. "To stop Yokoshima!" Gurase voiced. Chichiri nodded. "The rest is our business no da." The Empress sighed.

"I believe you. You shall set out tonight. After of course you all feast in the dining room. I hope you will not be alarmed that I am not there, I have a few meetings to attend."

Hotohori smiled. "Arigatou gozaimasu." Gurase blinked. "But you do know that we aren't the only ones…. The Seiryuu Seishi are with us too.." The guards and Empress stared at her. Hotohori nodded. "It is true."

Seshiri grinned, saying "Aint that nice? We get to be all buddy buddy with the Seiryuu types to get rid of Yokoshima! We can't do it without them…"

The Empress shrugged. "Well.. I … Suppose… we could feed them.. as well….."

Seshiri nodded. "Arigatou gozaimasu!" A chorus of 'Arigatou's rang out. The Empress nodded to them before shooing them out of the room.

As soon as the doors had closed on them Gurase turned around and threw her arms around Hotohori's neck. "You were WONDERFUL Hori-kun!" He smiled at her before giving her a soft kiss.

Nanuri gagged. "* cough * ROOM * cough*" Gurase looked over at her. "Hey! We've watched you and Nuriko make out PLENTY of times and you didn't have a room! Now it's OUR turn!" Nanuri grumbled and walked away to sit up against the wall.

Seshiri walked over to Nakago and tried to make peace. "Hey Nakago-sama." He blinked down at her. "I don't blame you for wanting to control the world!" SD Seshiri said, giving him the peace sign.

SD Nakago stared at her. "N-Nani?" SD Seshiri answered, oblivious. "For wanting to take over the world! Remember? In the last life?"

SD Nakago blinked, watching her uneasily. "Uh.. yeah… o-okaaay… uh I have to talk with Soi for a minute.. uh.. see ya.." SD Nakago quickly walked over to where Soi was standing.

Seshiri sighed and looked over to Chiriko, who had begun talking. "I think that it would be best to have an early dinner so we can leave tonight." Chichiri nodded. "Good idea no da! Let's go no da!"

Nanuri turned to Seshiri. "Aren't hangovers sposed to be the day AFTER you get drunk?" "Yeeah… why?" Nanuri groaned. "Because I'm having one like uh NOW!" Seshiri blinked. "Freeeeaaakyyyyyyy! Maybe the Nuriko Special is difference?" "STOP TALKING SO DAMN LOUD!"

Seshiri whispered. "Gomen nasai Nuri-chan!" Nanuri grumbled. "I think I'm going to skip dinner guys, I'll just be on the floor sleeping."

Gurase walked over to them. "I TOLD you you shouldn't have been drinking!" SD Nanuri stuck her tongue out at Gurase.

Hotohori turned a corner and looked around. "Uh… minna… I don't remember this part…" Seshiri looked around, wide eyed. "Omg you're right! This is all totally new!" Gurase grumbled. "Course they made something new, just to confuse us!"

"Any ideas Chiriko?" Suboshi asked. Chiriko shook his head. "Gomen nasai minna." Gurase blinked. "Suppose we could just walk around? Until we find a familiar place?" Amiboshi nodded. "That sounds like the most reasonable."

They all started off, glancing around them trying to figure out where they were. Suddenly Seshiri stopped. "I remember this…." She whispered to herself. "Nani?" Miboshi, who was walking next to her, asked. "I REMEMBER THIS PLACE!" She shouted.

Gurase blinked. "This IS familiar. What is it?" Seshiri turned to a door next to her and threw it open. She ran into the room, running her hands along the walls. Stopping short she examined one part. "OMG it IS my room!"

"Nani?" Kaeli asked, walking in. "MY ROOM!" Seshiri yelled. "How do you know?" Hotohori frowned. "Because, I carved my name on the wall one day while I was REALLY bored!

Seshiri pointed triumphantly at her name, carefully carved into the wall. "AWESOME!" Gurase shouted, grinning. "So you know where to go?" She asked. Seshiri nodded. "Hai!"

They all walked out of the room, Seshiri in the lead. "Ok! Now if I remember correctly… we go right…" Making a sharp right Seshiri walked down the corridor. "And a left…." They followed her closely.

Seshiri stopped in front of a door, opening it slowly. "Tah dah! The dining room!"

Chichiri shook his head. "I can't believe you remember this no da!" Seshiri shrugged. "Weeeelll! I only know things that I'd never ever need to know!"

Kaeli raised an eyebrow. "It would appear that you know something you DO need to know! You used it just now!" Seshiri blinked, taking this all in. "Woooooooaaaaaahhhhhhhhh………"

Gurase grinned at her. "Well I don't know about you guys but I'm pretty hungry so…" Gurase ignored Nanuri, laying on the floor and falling asleep. "I think we should eat now! Just to get a good start!" They cheered, agreeing.

Seshiri walked towards the door. "Hey, guys I'll be around in a few minutes. I just want to go for a walk…" They nodded before sitting down, while Hotohori notified the cooks.

Seshiri walked outside, smelling the fresh air. So many memories… I just want to bask in them for a while… Start? I should start back at our first kiss… Seshiri walked back to her old room.

When she reached the doors she leaned her back against them, looking over to the setting sun. I remember this. This is where we had the food fight. This is where we kiss for the first time. Seshiri sighed.

She opened her door slowly, noticing the door creaked. Damn.. it really has been a long time… She looked around the dim room, taking note of the dust on the counters. The unused bed. The cobwebs in the corners.

She chuckled to herself. These servants aren't good about keeping rooms clean… She sighed. I wonder why they haven't kept it clean…

She closed the door softly, walking out to the wooden railing. So many memories. Some are better than others.

She made her way to a path leading off from the walk. Stepping onto the familiar path she walked slowly toward the pond. Sitting down on the ancient rock she smiled. I remember this. Exactly the same as it was last time….

What happened the last time I was on this rock.. sitting here… I was afraid of my feelings for Tasuki. I asked Chichiri for advise..

Seshiri dipped her fingers into the water, swirling them around and watching as the ripples moved across the pond.

She picked up a smooth rock from the bottom of the floor, just as she had done in the past. I wonder if there are still fish in this pond… Hmm… Chichiri would probably want to fish here before we depart, for old times sake….

Taking a brief look at the stone she skipped it across the pond. She continued to look across the pond as a hand was placed on her shoulder. "Konban wa Chichiri…" "DAAAA!" SD Chichiri looked at her. "How did you know it was me no da?" She snorted.

"You think I didn't know you'd come to fish here?!?!?" He sat down beside her and put his line in the pond. "Coincidence no da!" Seshiri laughed. "Are there any fish here still?" Chichiri shrugged. "Who knows! I'm just fishing here and remembering the past!"

Seshiri nodded. "That's pretty much what I was doing, minus the fishing. Chichiri grinned. "Da… I remember last time we were here no da. You were worried about Taiitsukun being angry because you were in love with Tasuki no da!"

Seshiri gaped. "You KNEW I meant me and Tasuki!??!" SD Chichiri blinked. "Give me a little CREDIT no da! EVERYONE knew about you two no da!" SD Seshiri fell over. "And here I was thinking I was being mysterious!"

Seshiri stood up. "Well I'm off to the gardens. Are the others done with dinner?" Chichiri nodded. "It wasn't a big thing, just a small snack to keep us satisfied. Seshiri nodded. "Ja ne Chichiri-sama…" "Ja na Seshi-chan."

Seshiri turned around and left Chichiri to his fish.

~~~~~~~~~*~~~~~~~~~

Seshiri looked around the garden. She backed up into the bench at sat down. Now this place. What happened here? Oh.. yeah.. hehe.. Nuriko was busy trying to catch Tasuki and I doing something! She grinned and leaned back, looking up at the willow hanging over her.

I can't believe I'm remembering all this! I'd forgotten it before! Hell I'd even forgotten about the Food Fight! Hmm..

Seshiri fell off of the bench backwards. OMG She jumped up and ran back to the willow, tracing her fingers along the carving in the bark.

"T & S 4ever!" Seshiri laughed. "When was this carved? I don't remember! Did he carve it on his own?… hehe… this is funny.. I can't believe I never saw it before!…."

Well where to next? Well.. if I can find it I'll go to where we looked at the clouds. Seshiri giggled. That was when I left him in the dust after we had gotten close enough to kiss!

Seshiri stood up quickly and raced to that spot. She leaned against the railing, looking up at the pink and orange sky.

~*~ Flashback ~*~

"Hey… I see one!" Tasuki grinned. "Really, I see lots." He bopped her. "Silly girl… up there! It's a heart!" "Nani? I can't see it!"

He held up his finger, pointing to the heart cloud. "Tasuki-san! I still can't see it!" He leaned down, so his face was right next to hers, and pointed up. "See it?"

Seshiri's eyes lit up. "Hai! I see it!" She turned slightly, leaning back a little so she could face him. "I've never seen a heart cloud before" He grinned. "I haven't either." He said, turning to face her.

They paused like that, holding each others gaze for a few moments. "…. AH! Sorry!" Seshiri jumped back, realizing how close they were standing. "Ahhhh!" Tasuki backed up, tripping over himself and falling.

Seshiri looked down at him "Sorry Tasuki-san. But uh I have to uh go somewhere, and uh be somewhere!" She nodded and ran off, leaving Tasuki on the floor.

~*~ End Flashback ~*~

Seshiri grinned, remembering. I was so embarrassed! I was afraid to face him! But I did, and everything worked out in the end. She sighed. If only I had taken advantage of these days while I still could..

She sighed. SD Seshiri's stomach growled. Food is good… I'll go have some food. But first… Let's see if I know how to get there… Seshiri grinned to herself.

Seshiri walked down various cooridors, searching. "Now…" She asked herself. "Is it here?" She stopped in front of a small door. "I think it is but I'm not sure…" She opened the door a crack. "What the hell? Why doesn't anyone live here… I guess the Empress doesn't like company!"

Seshiri walked into Tasuki's old room. She took note that it was just as dusty as hers and walked over to the dresser. She took a breath before sliding one of the drawers open, looking inside.

Omg I don't believe it… his clothes are still here! She laughed evilly. Blackmaaaail! Now.. what did he leave behind?

Seshiri reached into the dresser and pulled out an old shirt. Tasuki's? She hugged the shirt, smelling it. Yeah it's his, who ELSE would have a shirt that stank of sake? She giggled.

Placing the shirt back gently she looked around the room. Under the bed she saw the light from the open door reflecting on something.

Nani? Seshiri walked over and reached under the bed. She smirked. Figures… She looked at the sake bottle in her hand. I think I'll keep this for later…She grinned to herself.

Okay NOW for food!

Seshiri left Tasuki's room, holding the sake bottle. Closing the door she turned around. Walking she watched the sky as stars began to appear. Beautiful…

Seshiri sighed and made her way back to the dining room.

When she reached the doors she opened them, laughing at Nanuri. Nanuri lay sprawled on the floor, sleeping. Seshiri put the sake bottle down on the table and walked into the kitchens. "Leftovers!" SD Seshiri shouted gleefully.

Grabbing a plate she plopped some of the leftovers onto it. Walking back into the dining room she set it on the table and began to dig in. Nanuri sat up and glared at her. "Why do you have to eat so damn LOUD?"

Seshiri blinked at her. Laughing she said, "I eat LOUD? What the hell?" SD Nanuri frowned. "Hey! It aint no laughing matter!" Seshiri shook her head, chuckling. "Nanuri, Nanuri, Nanuri. I don't know how you are going to survive the boat…"

Nanuri sighed. "I don't understand it! I used to be able to like chug a Nuriko Special in one GULP and now…" "That was in your past life. This is a different body, it looks the same. Tell me. Back home did you ever even TOUCH a glass of wine?"

Nanuri blinked, shaking her head. "Well there ya go! Back then your body could handle alchohol. Now you've started back in the beginning."

"Psh. That sucks!" Seshiri shrugged. "Well life isn't exactly wonderful all the time now IS it?" Nanuri shook her head. "Seshi-chan.."

"Hm?" "Did I hear something about Tasuki and… Nuriko being alive?" Seshiri swallowed her food, thinking. Well yeah.. but what if I'm not right? Nanuri will be let down horribly and everything will be worse… noo.. I don't think I should tell her…

"No… Gomen Nuri-chan.." Nanuri sighed. "It's ok Seshi-chan. I've finally accepted that he's gone forever…" "Until the next life!" Seshiri added.

"Yes but what if there ISN'T a next life?" "Then we're screwed.. And in heaven I will personally KILL Tasuki!"

Nanuri laughed. "Seshiri?" "Hm?" "Were you guys going to get married the Earth way? Or the Konan way…" Seshiri blinked. "Well Konan way is just sleeping together, and Earth has a big long ceremony….."

Seshiri giggled. "Probably Konan.. but we'd have gotten each other rings just because…"

Nanuri nodded. "Yeah…" She laughed. "I can see how you guys would want to just get to it." SD Seshiri shook her head. "Er yeah Nanuri… * cough * hentai * cough *" Nanuri whapped her. "Baka.."

Seshiri grinned. "Yeah yeah I know.." She stood up and looked at her clean plate. "I like Konan food." Nanuri nodded. "I missed it without knowing it.."

Seshiri smirked. "You know what I miss?" "Uh-uh, what..?" "Special Riceballs!!" SD Seshiri shouted. "Promise to make some on the boat?"

SD Nanuri laughed. "Well If I'm not too busy throwing up, sure why not!" SD Seshiri danced around the room. "YAAAAAY!"

Gurase walked in with Hotohori behind her. "Ah!" She said, "I was hoping to find you guys here! We've been searching for everyone, and it was down to you two… It's time to get to the docks and set out."

Seshiri nodded, grabbing the sake. "Where did I put my pack?" "Left it on the horse. I got it for ya." Gurase said, holding it up for Seshiri.

Seshiri smiled and took it. "Arigatou Gurase-chan!" SD Gurase gave her the peace sign. "Noooo problem! But let's go.. we kinda need to be there… it would help.."

Nanuri stood up clumsily. "Okaay I can do this!" They watched her stumble forward. "Aren't you going to help me?!?!" She asked them expectantly. Seshiri blinked. "Oh but you said YOU could do it!"

SD Nanuri growled. "Give me a hand here!" "GeeezUZ fine!" SD Seshiri laughed, walking over and helping Nanuri walk.

Hotohori kissed Gurase. "I don't think we ever found Mitsukake so I'm going off to search for him. Ja ne." "Ja ne." Gurase answered, waving.

Gurase turned back to them. "Okay well the boat is at the docks and it will take us a while to get there… You ok Nanuri?" Nanuri nodded, standing up by herself. "Okay! LET'S GO!" SD Gurase shouted, leading the way.

"AAAH QUIETER! QUIETER!" Nanuri hollered. "Gomen nasaiiii!" Gurase whispered. Nanuri nodded. "Better." Seshiri laughed quietly at them both. "Come on…" Gurase whispered. "This way to the docks."

Seshiri nodded. "Hai, I remember the way!" Gurase led them to the docks. "So everyone else is on?" Seshiri asked.

"Hai. Just you, Nanuri, Mitsukake, Hotohori, and me obviously." Seshiri nodded. "I wonder… uh.. how big exactly is this boat? Because it will be er… kinda hard… to fit everyone…" Gurase sighed.

"Chichiri said it's bigger than the last one. Way bigger. But all of the girls will have to be in one big room, and the guys are in one big room."

"And Tomo?" Nanuri asked. "Well he counts as a girl… technically.." Gurase said, thinking. "So he'd be with us." She finished.

"Okay! Well it's going to be a cramped voyage!" Gurase nodded, groaning. "Ugh I know! This is NOT going to be fun!"

Nanuri nodded. "Do you think I could have a room to myself?" She asked. "I don't think anyone would appreciate me waking them up early to throw up…" SD Gurase and SD Seshiri turned pale.

"Er.. yeah.. I don't think anyone will mind if you have your own room!" Nanuri sighed with relief. "Good! I don't want you guys screaming at me for waking you up early!"

"THAT WAS ONLY BECAUSE YOU WERE POUNDING ON THE KEYBOARD!" Seshiri said, defending herself. "I was not! I was typing SOFTLY!" "WAS NOT!" "WAS TOO!" "WAS NOT!" "WAS TOO!"

"Oi! Guys! Stop shouting! It's night now!" Gurase continued. "And her highness needs her beauty rest!" Gurase said 'her highness' with a sneer. Seshiri nodded. "Damn straight. She is uuuugly! She definitely doesn't look anything like you or Hotohori…"

Nanuri nodded. "I think the good looks kind of died out after the genes got.. er.. less strong.." Gurase nodded. "I bet that makes sense in your own little world.." "Yeah.. Nanuri! You forget! You got all the smartness brains!"

Nanuri smirked. "Oh yeah! I'd forgotten!" They rolled their eyes at her. "Oi stop gloating!" Seshiri said, bopping Nanuri.

Finally they reached the docks. "Waaaaaaaauuuuuuuuuu!" Seshiri gasped. "It's HUGE! How can there not be enough room?" "She's smaller than she looks!" Gurase answered.

Nanuri blinked. "Well she's bigger…" They walked on board just ahead of Hotohori and Mitsukake. "Is that everyone?"

He asked. Gurase nodded. "The crewmen already put loads of food onboard." She said. He nodded. "Ok!" He called down to some of the people down on land. "OKAY!"

He shouted. "It's ok to let her go!" They nodded and untied the boat. "Let the sails down!" Hotohori called and Kaeli let them loose with her powers.

Seshiri grinned, running to the side and leaning on the rail. As the wind picked up it blew them forward with a lurch. Soon they were sailing at a steady pace. Seshiri grinned, sniffing the salt air.

"This is so great." She said to herself. "Brings back good memories… I wonder if I'll ever see Konan again…" She said quietly as they sailed away from it.

The salty breeze blew back Seshiri's hair. She sighed. Now if Tasuki were here he'd be clinging to the mask like last time… Seshiri giggled.

..Tasuki.. I know you're not dead.. you can't be… I refuse to believe it this time! Don't worry Tasuki.. I'll find you! No matter how long it takes, no matter how hard it is, I WILL find you…