a/n: I know I haven't updated in a while. I had to take a nice vacation away from one job and then I got a little lazy with my writing. But I guess you guys can say that I'm back and refreshed. If you guys are reading my co-fic with Twilight Eyes8120 "Secret Indulgence" then thanks so much for reading it! I'm enjoying writing it, and I enjoy it even more when you guys review and tell us how funny you found it. I'm glad my perverse jokes were used for good and not evil.. If you have no idea what I'm talking about, then I suggest you go onto my profile page and go down to the page to a link to a story I am co-writing. I guarantee a good laugh.. If not a good laugh, then a chuckle at least..

Chapter four: Touch

"I lived for her and only her. Now that I don't have her, what do I have left? The only thing I can do is get her back in any way I can think of. I no longer believe in impossibilities." His eyes bore into her own as if he saw his wife in her. "Call me crazy… I don't care." He whispered before he walked away leaving her alone in the room once again.

"Cecilia." I barely touched my fruit salad.

"What was that?" Pegasus snapped his head towards my direction when I uttered the name. The clink of his fork dropping in the bowl was heard making the room sound too quiet. His eyes were wide in shock.

"Nothing." I responded, cursing silently for not catching myself before I spoke. I was also in a horrible mood and didn't want to speak with anyone.. Though it was my choice to be quiet, I truly did want to speak to someone. It was just that no one around me was who I wanted to speak with.

"No, you said something. What did you say?" Sighing heavily I leaned against the chair. My back was aching from working out last night. Dance was my only escape when I was stressed out. All my thoughts vanish with each dance step that I take. Obviously I overdid it last night. The worst part wasn't that my body hurt because I think I'm used to those achy feelings thanks to years of dance. What bothered me most was that my thoughts had not been cleared yet.

"I said I haven't seen ya." I lied. For some reason that name popped in my head. I had a day dream and the name came out of my name before I registered it in my head. "I think I'm going to go work out a bit more." Not knowing if he believed me or not I stood up abruptly from my chair. I had to go out and work out some more steam even though every bit of my body was screaming to rest. "I'll see you around.."

"Hey.." He called to me. Turning around I put on a fake smile on my face. For some reason I felt like shit. Not just physically but mentally. "Are you planning on seeing Seto today?" After contemplating for a few seconds of whether or not I should see him I nodded my head. I really didn't want to see him. I was afraid it would make my mood even worse. "Good. I want you to see him around three in the afternoon when it's not busy at his job. " He went back to his breakfast shortly after that. Holding back a scoff I simply walked out of the room.

There was something within me that told me to stay away from Seto. My guess was that it was because he did kill my lover. A lover I don't remember well. What I do remember about him are just blurry memories. I never see his face but I remember him. The flashback I especially remember was when I saw Seto outside of the grocery store. His laugh from when he was inside the car, it made me remember him. Seto's laugh triggered a memory I had of his laugh.

"What did you say to him that made Jounouchi so mad?" The girl stomped her foot on the ground to demonstrate her anger. Reclining back on his office chair he rolled his eyes.

"It wasn't bad. Just the usual shit I say to him." His attitude was lazy like. Whether or not Jounouchi was happy with him wasn't his main concern. The glare she was giving him made him sit up and look at her dead in the eye.

"I told him that if he wanted to have a relationship with Mai he would have to shave his back." As much as she tried not to laugh, a giggle escaped. The corners of his mouth twitched as he saw her struggle to keep a stern face. Covering her mouth just made him chuckle at her vain effort. The chuckle made her lose her restraint and fully laughed at the put down. As her laughing died down she managed to give him a stern look.

"Eww. That's not funny.." That's when he laughed.

His gentle caring laugh. How can a killer laugh like that? It angered me. What angered me even more was the fact that he left me with that bittersweet sound. He left me behind to see his eyes awaken with life for once. It was in the expense of myself that he looked so alive for that brief moment.

After another harsh workout session thanks to no one but myself, I cleaned up and walked the streets of my neighborhood. My outfit which contained me wearing a short jean skirt and a white tank top with a pink jacket made Pegasus raise an eyebrow. Pegasus insisted that I take a car or something to make myself more discrete. That was Pegasus code for make sure a guy doesn't stop and try to kidnap you. Though my feet protested, I wanted to walk instead. Seto didn't know who I really was so it wouldn't matter if he saw me or not.

Passing my own neighborhood, I came to the plaza where Seto worked. Perhaps I could take my chances today and just attach him while he was working. My plan of how I was going to murder Seto was nonexistent. I truly have no idea how I'm going to finish him. Many scenarios ran through my mind. One way could be just coming to his job, lead him towards the back of the restaurant and kill him there. Another way could be to just find his address and sneak into his room in the middle of the night.

Then what would happen after I killed him? Do I live life normally? Do I have to move so that people don't suspect me? Would Pegasus help me? These were questions I knew I should think about before I carried out my plan.

I stood before the restaurant. A woman was waiting for me to come in which I did. "Just one?" She asked. I nodded my head and she lead me to a table. Now what? Do I see if he was there then leave? Should I eat in and just study what he does during his shift? Looking around the restaurant I saw that he wasn't here. "Would you like something to drink, miss?" The woman asked. Shaking my head, I bowed to her.

"Sorry. I don't feel well now. I think I'm just gonna leave." I turned away from the confused woman and headed for the exit. With my head down, I continued to walk and failed to see someone coming towards me. Apparently this person wasn't looking where they were going either.

Our bodies were crushed together with a groans coming from both our mouths The person I bumped into was male. The male being Seto. When we bumped into each other I looked up right before we started falling and saw who it was. With a fast reflex, he knew we were falling down and held the back of my head to prevent me from my head hitting the floor. This caused me to rest my head against his shoulder. My arms wrapped around his torso and we both landing with a thud. His weight on me took my breath away and a whimper escaped my lips which were plastered against his neck. He shivered when he felt my breath on his skin. My hands dropped from his back and clutched on to his sides. The material of his white blouse felt so rough against my palms.

Looking up at him I saw that he was looking right back at me. I felt like my face was on fire from the blush on my cheeks. His gaze made me want to look away yet I stayed staring at him. It was like we were daring the other to blink and ruin the staring contest.

A cough behind us made me lose and look towards the cough. "Ma'am , are you okay?" It was the woman who waited on me. Nodding, I was suddenly too aware of his body molding against mine so perfectly. The sensations I was feeling made me feel reminiscent. Like I remember this from somewhere. It made me feel nauseous. My hands left his sides and pushed up on his shoulders. He still held his gaze on me. "Than… Thank you, sir. Can I get up now?" I stuttered coldly. I couldn't believe I was feeling like this towards the man I hated. Looking away from his face, I felt him stand to stand up. His hands moved from behind my head, down my neck and down my arms, sending a wonderful chill down my spine. His hands reached my own and pulled me up with him.

"Thank you." I whispered when he let go of my hands. My heart dropped when he did that. After a quick dust off, I ignored the looks of everyone around the restaurant and walked out. I left so fat that I didn't even stop to hear him say anything back to me. As soon as my feet touched the sidewalk, I ran. I don't know why I did, but I ran as fast as I could. Just remembering him touching me made me start to cry. The reasons for my sudden tears were unknown to myself. Was it from disgust? From disappointment at myself? Or because he did let go and didn't even say anything.

My neighborhood was close by, so I didn't have to run much farther. One of my neighbors asked me if anything was wrong.

"Nothing's wrong." I managed to say. Locking my door when I reached my apartment, I quickly undressed and turned on my shower. Stepping in, I let the water rinse away my tears. I didn't even care that I didn't call Pegasus to tell him if I saw Seto or not today. All I cared about was washing my body to make the feeling of his body on mine go away.

That man would be the end me, I thought repeatedly. He was the end of my lover. He'll be the end of me.

After my nerves were more calmed down, I ended up falling asleep on my bed. When I awoke it was because of my phone ringing. Hastily picking it up, I asked who it was.

"Anzu! It's me! Were you sleeping? We were supposed to go out tonight, remember?" If she could only remember..

"Oh yea. Just let me get dressed." My outfit for tonight was laid out on my chair so it would only take me ten minutes to get dressed and put on some quick eyeliner and lip gloss.

"Alright. We're coming in twenty minutes. Bye." We both hung up and I laid back down on my bed. The door bell then rang, making me spring up on my bed. Perhaps my friends were kidding about coming in twenty minutes and just wanted to see If I was getting ready at all? Tightening the tie around my bathrobe, I walked to the front door.

"I'm getting ready, damn it!" I yelled out before I opened the door and then turned around before I saw who it was to go back into my room.

"I'm sorry?" The voice stopped me from moving any further and I spun around to face the person. There was Seto Kaiba or 'Toshi' with his usual waiter attire and holding onto a cell phone that looked like mine. "You dropped this at the restaurant." He explained when he noticed me looking at the cell phone. Those feelings came back to me when I saw how he unbuttoned two buttons from his shirt to let some of his chest show. His sleeves were rolled up, and his hair was slightly disheveled probably from breeze outside.

"Th.. Thank you." I embarrassingly stuttered before I stepped forward to take the cell phone from his hands.

"Were you hurt?" He asked hesitantly. His eyes were studying me, as I fidgeted with my robe. "The fall was pretty hard, especially with me on top of you." That sounded so dirty in my mind that those words made my eyes widen, not from the statement but from the memory that came up when he said it.

Her carefree laugh made him kiss her again. "They're going to hear us!" She whispered. His fingers trailed up her thigh teasingly. "Stop! We're going to get caught!" Nipping her bottom lip, she stopped her protests.

"They won't notice anything. I could be on top of you on the desk making you scream my name and no one would notice it." A knock was heard from the outside of the office.

Mr. XXXXX,you have a meeting in ten minutes." The nasly woman said before the two could hear her walk away.

"How about that? You were right." He attacked her neck once again.

"I'm always right."

Rubbing my head from the sudden memory, I walked away from him and went to the kitchen to get an aspirin. "Excuse me." I groaned as I opened the aspirin bottle that was conveniently on top of the fridge. Seto stood behind me as I swallowed the red pill.

"Are you okay?" Forgive me for having this killer in my kitchen, I thought in my headHow can I have this man in my kitchen, let alone my own home? If he was truly the killer I knew he was, he could strike at any minute now and get away with murder. All he would have to do is take any weapon he had concealed and strike with me, then walk away like nothing ever happened.

Feeling chills going down my back, I spun around against all the protests that my body was giving me. "What are you doing here?" I growled with narrowed eyes. "I never gave you permission to step inside my home." He took a step forward with concerned eyes. My heart felt like it stopped for a second and my stomach seemed to flip once or twice.

It was a wonderful feeling.

"You look pale. Are you sure you're alright?" He asked.

Why it felt so wonderful, I have no idea. My head kept saying stay away, but my heart hushed me from speaking out loud. That feeling didn't compare, though. If I thought I felt wonderful when he stepped towards me, then I don't know how to describe how I felt when his gentle large hand caressed my cheek.

When he did that…I stopped thinking horrible things about him. My eyes closed, and I actually accepted his touch. I welcomed it with open arms. And all my heart kept asking was..

Why?

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