That year I shared a dormitory with Anya, Megan McManus, Penny Grander, and Joseline Hunter. We were pretty lucky, for the occasional exception of Josie, we all got along. We got along so well that first night, being away from each other so long, we spent giggling and talking about boys. That wasn't he best decision we learned after three hours of sleep on our first day of classes.
"Oh please you have got to be shitting us!" Anya spit out between spurts of laughter.
"I am not!" Megan protested looking up at Anya on her bed. "I think it would be fun to marry a muggle." She looked beside her to Josie who rolled her eyes of the entire subject.
"When would you tell him? After you have sex." She flopped down bouncing me up on the other end of the bed. "'Oh, Darling," she imitated Megan's Irish accent quite poorly if I remember properly, "I have bad news... I am a witch, and I faked it!'" She could hardly contain herself and I must admit I let out a few chuckles.
"No, I wouldn't be able to tell him until after the wedding would I?" She sighed and smiled to herself. "But I do expect it will be a nasty shock to him when he finds out."
"Well at least you can ware a white dress." Penny shot a somewhat nasty look in Anya and my direction.
"It isn't my fault men flock to me." Anya shot back seeming to forget the comment was aimed at myself also. I had only had sex last semester with my old boyfriend Danny, the keeper for Hufflepuff who I haven't talked to since.
"Who are you after this year Molly?" Penny asked hoping to get the conversation off of Anya.
"Excuse me?" I asked lying on my stomach resting my hands on my chin.
"I saw you eyeing Sirus during the feast." She laughed as if there was anything to laugh about. There was an awkward pause
"If I was eyeing him it was to try and figure out how he holds so many stupid arrogant thoughts in that tiny head of his."
"It is a cute tiny head." Anya had to add. If she had been sitting up she would have seen me scowl, then pretend to laugh.
The rest of my first week was nothing to complain about aside from transfiguration. I learned by Christmas we had to transform a cat into a dog. (Which I barley passed by the way.) My week turned on Sunday afternoon. Anya, Josie and I were lounging by the lake pretending to read The Philosophy of the Mundane: Why Muggles Prefer Not to Know, and watching a group of seventh year Hufflepuffs playing frisbee.
"Now you wouldn't actually be studding would you Molly?" A hand across me page prevented me from 'reading.' I followed the hand and the arm to it's owner.
"Now Sirus Black, you wouldn't actually be bothering somebody would you?" I asked my voice so full of sarcasm a dog would have noticed.
"I thought I talked to you about working on your comebacks. They really do suck."
"And your manners suck." He took the book out of my hands and sat down right next to me. Next time I looked up Anya seemed closed also. James and Peter quickly followed Sirus's suit and sat down too. "Where is your better fourth?" I asked noticing Remus's absence.
"See, now that was better." Sirus smiled at me. I smoothed my robes out.
"He isn't feeling well." James said only half paying attention. His eyes scanning the grounds for something. Or, as I later found out, somebody.
"Is he alright?" Josie asked sounding truly concerned.
"Oh yeah he's fine." Peter waved her off opening a box of Bertie Bott's Every Flavor Beans from his pocket.
"He is just sleeping." James added. I was only partially listening to their conversation when I noticed Sirus staring at me. I feel so foolish saying this, and to this day I am not sure if this is what he truly said but he cocked his head and he seemed to mouth the words 'You are so beautiful.'
'I know.' I mouthed back only to hide my surprise. Im not sure if you know Sirus like I do, but back then he was beautiful. He could get any girl or women he wanted. And he did about half the time. I couldn't take my eyes off of him and he was acting like he couldn't take his eyes off of me.
Josie, James and Peter were still talking but I didn't hear a word. I was trying to read Sirus. He had that really dumb smirk on his face. The one that most girls melt for. His eyes looked tired, yet still vivid blue. His hair in his eyes (like James) only added to the mystery. I hear people say sometimes two people will share a moment. This felt like a thousand. Why did he look so calm when I was thinking so hard? I was trying to ask him in my mind what would be so hard this year.
Suddenly he got up on all fours and stood up brushing himself off, then tossed my book back at me. I realized Peter had said they should look up on Remus only a moment earlier. Sirus stood over me, the sun right over him so I still had to shield my eyes. "Yeah we should go," he said to them but looked stright at me. "I have a lot of girls to fuck." Then he winked at me and walked away.
"What a jack-ass." I announced to Josie and Anya still staring at his back. I leaned against a tree and decided I actually needed to study to get my mind off of him. I opened the book to the page I was on but a loose piece of parchment slipped onto the grass. I picked it up, made sure the girls weren't watching and opened it. At first I didn't know it, but I should have known from the messy handwriting.
Molly, come to the Trophy Room tonight at 11:00 (I have detention till' then.) I want to see you.
-Sirus.
No. Why would I go see him? What would he want? To tell me more lies. It is common knowledge he says stuff like that to bed with girls. Everybody knows that Molly. He was lying.
"Molly." But his eyes looked so real when he said it. So sincere. Well of course, if he didn't look sincere nobody would believe him. Still, it wouldn't hurt to see what he wants.
"Molly." In the Trophy Room! We couldn't meet in the dormitory just because he has detention and it would be closer for him. Please! How selfish. If he wants to see me he should come to me.
"Molly!" Anya hit me in the shoulder.
"What?" I yelled back rudely.
"Pass the strawberries. Please." She added nastily.
"Sorry Anya." I scooped a spoonful onto my plate before passing the bowl to her.
"It's okay, what's wrong?" She asked winking at Remus from down and across the table.
"It's nothing." I followed her gaze from Remus to Sirus sitting next to him. "I'm alright." I added mindlessly to her, I felt for not telling her. I usually told her everything, but this felt different.
She started chatting about some unfair teacher or something but I was now way too interested in Sirus who seemed interested in something. And when Anya was discussing papers on charms I saw him distantly mouth the words "You are so beautiful." It took me a moment to realize I was not who he was talking to. Some blonde first year was sitting across from him!
"Well, I'm full how about you?" I shot up slamming my napkin on the table.
"Well, not really." Anya confessed dipping a finger in vanilla pudding.
"Are you gaining weight?" I asked still staring at him. If you knew Anya you would know that made her pop right up and race me back to the dormitory.
I lay in bed that night. Not sleeping and not getting ready to meet Sirus. I thought about telling a professor on him but I didn't. I'm not sure why. I was so mad at him and so mad at myself for thinking he was different. If I could just avoid him for the rest of the year I would be fine.
It didn't happen that way.
"Hey Molly!" The next day I heard a voice call from behind me on my way to Ancient Ruins.
"Shit." I muttered and looked around to find somebody to pretend to talk to. Nobody.
"I missed you last night." Sirus jogged to catch up with me. "A lot actually." And he had the nerve to slip an arm around my waist. I was so mad I couldn't move it. Or so I told myself.
"Yeah I must have fallen asleep." I lied thinking he would get the point.
"Alright, how about we try again tonight at the greenhouse at same time?" He didn't get it. "Oh, that's James I have to go. Bye Babe!" And he ran away.
Needless to say I was so preoccupied I failed an Ancient Ruins quiz. But through failing the quiz I did make a decision that I was not going.
"I can't believe I am actually going!" I muttered slipping out of the commonrooom and checking the halls with my compact mirror. It was 11:02. At least I would show him by being fashionably late. "Oh that won't work. Oh, hey Sirus I was just wondering around the castle at 11 and I remembered you were going to be here." I sighed finally slipping outside. I checked my make-up before turning to meet him.
But he wasn't there. I looked all around the green house. 11:07. No Sirus. "Well," I thought, hanging onto my last wit, "Maybe he got caught, or held up." 11:19, no Sirus. The full moon was so bright I defiantly would have seen him. Something howled from somewhere. I was defiantly beginning to get frightened.
At 11:23 I finally stood to leave. Tears on my cheeks I told myself not to cry. I didn't want to give him the satisfaction for standing me up because I stood him up last time. Why did I even come? As I started to walk back I saw something run in my direction. The thing howled again and I became very scared. I backed up to the greenhouse door and a big black dog ran past me, almost knocking me down. I looked back at it running into the forest and I hurried inside.
Oh if only I knew back then.
Disclaimer- I own all the characters you don't recognize, I don't own the ones you do.
-AN- Thanks for reviewing. Hey, thanks meg- I must have meant Bill was born when Molly was 18. I can only wright at night and I suppose it affects me. I'm tired now. Haha. Well I probably won't update until I finish HBP, but I won't worry about it because I bet you won't read this until you finish HBP also so no worries there! I hope you enjoy, I like this story too. It should be fun. Please let me know if you found this part confusing. Good night.