Chapter 5

(Emma's perspective)

"Why do I keep lying to myself? It will never work between us."

Emma slammed the door behind Craig. Now she was the one who was mad. She was furious at herself for starting this whole mess. She was irritated at Craig for not knowing what he wanted. Emma wanted to be with him. Her dream was to fall in love with him. Now everything felt so fucked up.

She went into the kitchen and grabbed a pair of scissors. In a chaotic manner she cut up the roses Craig had brought her. They lay on the Nelson's kitchen table in thousands of chunks. Then down to the basement she went…leaving the grotesque flowery mess for someone else to clean up.

Emma spent the rest of the day watching romantic comedies. It was a type of therapy that always made her feel better. She watched dozens of them and devoured bags of popcorn. It felt well to relax. She was watching Legally Blonde and laughing. Her pajamas were comfortable to lounge around in. Having a day to herself didn't help her broken heart any. It just gave her something to do. It got her mind off Craig for a little while.

She was so into her movie that she hadn't heard Spike and Snake come in.

"Emma!" a shrill voice called, "What is this mess on my table? Come clean it up."

Emma refused to answer. She didn't want to clean it up. Sure she was being childish but would it really kill someone else to clean it up? Spike called for her a few more times. Emma knew what would happen next. Spike would be in Emma's room in… 5... 4... 3... 2...1

Emma hastily turned off the movie and hid under the covers.

"I know you aren't a sleep. I heard the t.v. What's wrong? Why are there red roses cut up all over the table?" Spike questioned.

"It's a present from Craig," Emma said holding back the tears. She tried to keep her voice at a normal level. "Just for you…I left it down there for you."

Spike took the cover from over Emma's head. "Is something wrong? You know you can always tell me anything."

Emma was annoyed by her mother. She told Spike she was fine. Emma didn't tell her anything about Craig though. It wasn't her mothers business. She wouldn't understand anyway. Spike never understood how she felt. All Spike did was go on about when she was in high school… it never helped her. She loved her mom and when she was younger she did enjoy talking to her. Right now though, she wanted to be left alone.

Emma sulked around for the rest of the day. She didn't want to have to wake up and go to school tomorrow. She tried everything to get out of it. It didn't work though. Her alarm clock went off and Spike came down to make sure she got out of bed. Spike almost resulted to tickling her to get her up. Emma reluctantly tossed the covers to the floor.

She knew school would feel like hell. Emma took a quick shower. It always felt fresh to start the day off nice and clean. Emma looked in her closet with disgust. There was nothing she felt like wearing. All of it was either ancient or things too nice to wear to school. She settled for a white top and a pair of blue jeans. Not the best outfit but it would do.

Emma didn't touch her breakfast. It was unsavory eggs. She wasn't in the mood for eggs. The smell made her empty stomach turn. So she grabbed her lunch and left. Emma had started taking her lunch after the school wouldn't get rid of genetically modified food. It was something she strongly believed it. So to support her cause she started brown bagging her lunch.

When Emma finally got to school her day was looking a little better. She didn't feel so down and out of it. Maybe today would be a great day. She might save the planet or something. All day Emma walked cautiously down the hallway. She was looking for any sign of Craig. If she saw him she was going to turn the other way and run. Manny didn't understand why Emma kept looking around so nervous.

As she was on her way to her third class she passed the library and saw him. He was sitting at a table in the back of the library. He had his arm close to some red headed girl. They were talking low in a very secretive behavior. She couldn't help but stare at them. Emma told Manny to go ahead to Math and save her a seat. She would be there in a few.

Craig actually looked very happy. He appeared to be having a great time talking to the mysterious girl next to him. The girl turned her head and Emma knew instantly who the red head was. It was Ellie Nash.

The girl that had took Sean from her. If she hadn't been in the picture then Sean and Emma could have repaired their relationship. Because of her, she had lost her first love. Maybe that wasn't entirely fair but Emma didn't care. It was nice to blame things on someone else. It made her feel a little bit better.

Emma peeped around the corner watching closely. She was startled when the librarian asked her if she needed help finding something.

"No thanks. I'm just looking." Emma told her.

"Well look from inside," the lady said in a snotty voice.

Emma edged in to the library. She knew if Craig looked up from where he was sitting; he would have a clear view of her. So she grabbed a book and pretended to be reading it intently. She would look up from it every now and then. To see what was happening.

Then she let out a loud gasp and dropped her book.