Chapter 3: You Were Meant For Me, And I Was Meant For You
+The taste of tears is bittersweet tonight+
"+I'm scared as hell. It's about time that I tell you all the things that you should know, all the things I'm too scared to show…+" Marissa thought to herself as she scanned Alex's face for hints of forgiveness. "We should" both girls started. "You first," again they simultaneously responded. This elicited a slight giggle from the girls which helped to aid in lightning up the somber mood a bit.
"Riss, I'm so sorry" Alex stated. "No, no, no, that's all wrong. You don't apologize sweetie, you didn't do anything wrong" said Marissa. "I did. I did the worst thing imaginable! I drove you away. I drove the only person that matters to me here in this fucking town away. And I spent a long time on the couch after you left assessing every little piece of our relationship longing to figure out the reasons why. Then it hit me. Maybe I was too clingy? Maybe I shouldn't of asked you to move in with me? Maybe I was too hard on you? I expected way too much of you, too soon Riss, and I swear that I didn't mean to push you away. I just…I am honestly crazy over you. I am so in love with you that the thought of having to be apart terrifies the shit out of me. Then it happened, I had to be without you, and it hurt like hell. I missed you like you wouldn't believe. So I just decided to sleep so that I wouldn't have to feel anything anymore…and so that I could be with you again for a little while in my dreams. Damnit Marissa Cooper, +I need YOU, I bleed YOU, I would give up BREATHING for YOU.+ I love you with all of my heart and I apologize for driving you to call it quits. Please forgive me?" the blonde pleaded.
Marissa placed her hands on Alex's shoulders and smiled. "I love you too." The brunette gently ran her fingertips down Alex's body and stopped once her hands reached the curves of her hips. She began explaining the situation, "You are way too fucking cute you know that? God, what would I do without you baby? Oh wait, I already know the answer to that, I'd fall apart like I did earlier today. I'm sorry. It didn't have anything to do with you or our relationship. Well…it did, but not directly y'know? It was my mom. She threatened to cut me off if I kept seeing you. Something about Newport and her lesbian daughter. You know how Julie is…everything is about her image. I didn't want her to do anything to hurt you so I had to come here and call it quits. After I left, I drove down to the pier and I sat there in my car thinking things through. I came to the conclusion that I didn't need my mother's money, nor did I need her approval. I thought it all through and I finally figured it out. I can get a job to support myself. I'll move in with you like you asked me to, and we'll be happy. I'll help out around the house, pay some rent, and did I mention we'll be happy again, because I want us to be happy again. I don't need Julie's money. It's really Caleb's money anyway; it's not like she did anything to earn it. It's about time I learn some responsibility anyway, right? I want to be with you Alex, and if it means having to make sacrifices, then so be it. And not even my mom can stop me from being happy this time around. I want all of you, and I want to make you happy. I want us. I want for this to work more than anything." Marissa cupped Alex's face with her hands and placed a soft kiss on her forehead. "Will you please give me a second chance?"
Alex offered nothing except the shake of her head. "Good, because I want to be with you for as long as you'll have me. And even when you get sick of me, I'm not going anywhere anytime soon, or any time at all for that matter. I'm staying here, okay? Why aren't you saying anything? Alex? ALEX? I refuse to move until you say something Alex Kelly!" "Oh really now?" asked Alex in her smartass tone of voice as she grinned. Alex caught Marissa off guard by picking her up and running to her bedroom -- their bedroom. Marissa laughed as Alex placed her down on the bed and proceeded to place strands of hair behind her ear. "So much for not moving…" she mumbled in between kisses.